PD : You guys take a two months' break. You take this time to resolve all your conflicts and get back for good. Till then, we'll atleast have something to say to your fans. Alright?

We agreed to his offer in unison.

PD : However, I want the seven of you in the agency right after two months without a fail. And be in touch with your managers in the meantime.

We nodded our heads.

And with that said, we left the agency. We were on our way back to the dorm when Hobi hyung called me. I received it right away.

*Over the call*

ME : Yes, hyung.

HS : Onh, how'd it go? What did Pd-nim say? Was he mad?

ME : Yes, a little. But, he suggested us to take a two months' break and resolve everything while we are at it.

HS : Onh, is it? Okay. I'll drop by at night. Let's talk nicely then.

ME : Okay. And what happened there? Is Noona fine?

HS : Yeah, seems like she needs to take a treatment. I'll talk once I am home. You all too rest for now. Don't overthink.

ME : Alright, hyung...

He ended the call with that with a small hum.

No matter what, I couldn't bring myself out of the pool of desolation I was drowing in.
I was going deeper and deeper into the marsh with absolutely no hopes for escape.

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One month later

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Hobi hyung dropped by rarely since he was always busy looking after Noona. He was no longer the cheerful self he once used to be.

In the dorms too, the ambience was cold ever since. Jimin hyung, Taehyung hyung or me, we talked rarely and started to remain individual more.
Without the hyungs, we were not us.

It was time for dinner, and all three worked quietly in the kitchen. We would order mostly to the dorm.
I was setting the table with Taehyung hyung while Jimin hyung was serving the dishes as usual.

Jimin hyung started to be more to himself since last few days as if he was distracted and disturbed by something.

Wanting to lift his mood up, Taehyung hyung thought to fool around. He went after him as Jimin hyung was going to the kitchen to bring another dish.

He started following him sticking to his back while resting his chin on his shoulders.

JM : Tae, what are you doing? (-carefully holding the bowl-)

They came out of the kitchen in the same posture. Jimin hyung freed himself forcefully and placed a plate for himself. But, Taehyung hyung removed it goofing around.

I could see Jimin hyung losing it. He shot glares at V hyung as a warning and took it back again. However, Taehyung hyung, not losing hope to cheer his best friend, removed it again.

Jimin hyung looked away running his fingers through his hair in frustration. I noticed Taehyung hyung was setting his plate with food.

I thought Jimin hyung will be touched when he sees this but the terms in the dorm that night took a whole new turn.

TH : Jimin-ah, (-passing it towards him with a smile-) Have thi-

Jimin hyung cut him off and had an outburst making Taehyung hyung's smile completely fade away. He tossed the plate on the floor without actually realizing Taehyung Hyung's gesture.

JM : What is wrong with you, Tae!? Do you feel like joking around in these circumstances too?

TH : Jimin-ah, I was just trying to help you.

JM : (-yelling-) I don't need it Tae. I am fine. It's already hard. Don't add to it.

TH : (-losing it but speaks with a calm voice-) Do you think it's hard only for you? Do you think I am doing fine? Do you think Kookie is doing fine? No matter what you say, he is the one having it the hardest.

I was scared Taehyung Hyung's words would aggravate him more, I went to the former to try and stop him.

ME : (-holding his arm-) Hyung. Please don't say more.

TH : (-yells at me-) Why shouldn't I? (-looks back at him-) Jimin! Are we not one? Didn't we use to share all our problems with each other before?

Jimin hyung listened to him silently with a stern face.

TH : What happened to us now? Why do we three live in this damn house as if we are at a funeral?

ME : Hyung-

TH : Since when did we become so individual that we rarely talk now? Let me ask you, are we even friends anymore?

JM : Just do the hell you want! (-storms out-)

ME : (-running after Jimin hyung in the frontyard-) Hyung! Hyung! (-grabbing his arm-) Hyung, where are you going?

JM : I need some fresh air, Kookie. (-removing my hands-)

He just went with that not looking back and I returned back inside with a sigh only to see Taehyung hyung coming downstairs with his coat as if he was going out too.

ME : (-rushing to him-) Hyung, are you going out too?

TH : Jungkookie. Live well. (-walking ahead-)

ME : What?! Why? (-stopping him-) You know Jimin Hyung's anger, right? He will be good again after he's back. (-getting teary-)

TH : Kook-ah. I felt him being hurt because of me today. And moreover it's the same living here or anywhere else. Nothing's like before. (-pats my shoulder-) I will return once everyone else does. I need a break. (-leaves-)

In a few moments, I was left all alone in the dorm. The day I feared the most- all my hyungs walked out on me.

The dorm which was once the most comfortable place for me now transpired to be the most haunting one. And it was me who transformed it.

I fell on my knees with tears dripping from my eyes unconsciously.

"What could I've done to make this better?"

My inside went silent as if my soul too gave up on me. I felt like the last pieces of me are also shattered now.

ME : I ruined everything. I ruined BTS. I ruined us.

I wasn't feeling myself, everything around me went silent deafening me until Jimin Hyung's voice reached my hearing buds.

He was back.

JIMIN's POV

A few days back...

I couldn't leave my dance even if we were on a break and so, I joined a dance-class only a couple of days later Pd-nim suggested us to take a break.
It was quite renowned for training one before they become a trainee, preparing for the actual deal. But, anybody could join it, as long as their share a common passion for dance. Moreover, the institute was close to our dorm, so it was convenient for me.

I joined the least crowded class which had only four students including me. One named "Ji hoo" was my and Taehyung's friend since high school.

He now has a job in the entertainment world itself after failing a few auditions. But, he couldn't give up on dance so he practiced here.

The other two were unknown to me. One named "Lee Song gi" was our junior by a year and I didn't know his life plans.

The other one was a girl, shy but cute. Despite, she stood out well, being the only girl among us.

She was a Korean-Australian and adequately knew both languages. Her goal was to be an Idol and to audition without getting a fail,  so she was training herself since a couple of months now.

I didn't realize when I started to have romantic feelings for her. I just liked having her around.

With others gone out for a little refreshment during half-time, I started watching the video of our practice that we recorded today. More specifically, I was watching her.

I was smiling lazily but got startled when the door opened with a thud, revealing . . .

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Who is at the door? ;)
I feel sad for Kookie.. :(