For the next two weeks I ignored everyone, even Luke and Calum. It wasn't hard to stay away from Ashton, because he was doing the exact same thing that I was doing. He would either walk to school or not show up at all, not that I was paying attention enough to know if he did either.

It was more difficult to get away from Michael, however, because it seemed like him and his friend Sarah were making out wherever I turned. I wasn't really sure what the logic behind all of that was, because I didn't know if she had actually broken up with her boyfriend or not. Also, I didn't understand why Michael used to have such a problem with just being seen in public and now he was making out with some girl all the time. It bothered me, but I was trying not to let it.

I had just finished taking a shower when I heard the familiar sound of rocks being thrown at my window, and I immediately felt like my heart could burst right out of my chest. I rushed over to the window and opened it, looking outside to see Ashton standing there, wearing a pair of baggy sweatpants and a giant sweater.

"Murphy?" He called up, his voice cracking slightly. He brought his cigarette back up to his lips and took one last drag of it before throwing it down on the ground.

"Come up." I nodded, leaving the window for a second so I could go shut my bedroom door. My parents were actually home this weekend, for once, and although they've been ignoring me completely for the past few days I didn't want to take any chances of them coming in.

A few minutes later Ashton tumbled into my room, trying not to laugh at himself as his foot got stuck on the window sill. He stood up in front of me and brushed himself off, his smile immediately fading as I stood before him.

"How are you?" He asked, tugging the sleeves of his sweater down so they covered his hands.

"Honestly?" I asked, and Ashton nodded. "I'm miserable."

"So am I." Ashton sighed, glancing down at the ground. I had missed him so much, I just wanted to run forward and hug him and never let go.

"I - "

"I miss you so much, baby." Ashton sniffed, his voice sounding shaky, as if he was about to cry.

"I miss you too." I nodded, walking towards Ashton. He stretched his arms out and let me come up and wrap my arms around his body, hugging me tightly to him.

"I'm so sorry." Ashton whispered, pressing a kiss to my forehead. I just buried my face further into his chest, wanting to stay as close to him as I could, in fear that I was going to lose him again.

"I'm sorry, Ashton, for everything that I said to you." I said, looking up at him. Tears threatened to spill out of my eyes, I just felt so awful, but I forced them to stay back. "I didn't mean any of it, I'm sorry, I overreacted."

"No, no, baby, I overreacted. I shouldn't care if to talk to Michael, it's his choice if he talks or not, not yours. I shouldn't have blamed you for that." Ashton apologized. He grabbed my hand and led me over to my bed, carefully sitting down on the edge of it. I took a seat next to him, leaning my head on his shoulder.

"But I kept it a secret from you and I just feel so bad, Ash. You were right, I promised that I would tell you if I ever heard him talk." I sighed. I knew that I should just stop talking and leave the apologies where they were at, but I couldn't stop myself. I felt too bad about what I had kept from Ashton and I wanted him to know.

"I kept things from you too, so I think we're even." Ashton shifted uncomfortably, making me sit up again. I watched him as he swallowed hard, waiting for him to further explain what he was talking about. "I talked to Luke a couple days ago."

"Oh." I nodded.

"He told me that he explained everything to you. The full story." Ashton said, taking my hand in his.

"Yeah, he did." I said, intertwining our fingers.

"Are you mad at me?" Ashton asked, turning to face me. His eyes looked so sad, like he knew that he's done wrong, and by the way his bottom lip was quivering it looked like he could burst into tears at any second.

"I - I'm not sure. I was, a little, but I'm more confused than anything. Why did you lie?" I asked.

"Murphy, I didn't mean to..."

"How do you just not mean to, Ashton?" I whispered, trying hard not to get too upset with Ashton or not to make him too upset with me.

"I wanted to tell you." Ashton said, letting out a big sigh. He ran his free hand through his hair, messing it up even more than it had been when he first came in.

"Why didn't you?" I questioned. Ashton should have known that I would still like him no matter what happened, and it would have saved us so much trouble if he had just told me the entire truth in the first place. It made things worse knowing that he lied to me for so long as I was completely oblivious to it.

"I know that it was wrong of me to lie to you like that but I didn't know what else to do. When I first told you the whole story it was before we started dating and we were just getting to know each other, I didn't want to overwhelm you with all of the terrible things I've done. I always meant to tell you the full thing but I...didn't. I'm so sorry, Murph, I feel awful. I really hope you can forgive me." Ashton spilled, wiping under his eyes. I wasn't sure if he was crying about the situation that he was in with me or because of the memories from the accident, so I didn't say anything.

"Dani? Please answer." Ashton said quietly, squeezing my hand tighter. I hadn't realized that we had sat for so long in silence, I was just trying to process everything that was going on.

"Ashton, of course I forgive you." I whispered, leaning in closer to him.

"I'm so sorry." Ashton shook his head, wiping his eyes once more.

"It's alright. I understand what you were going through and I understand why you did it. It's okay." I finally said, realizing that I couldn't go any longer with Ashton. I had to forgive him, I loved him too much not to.

"Thank you." Ashton whispered, leaning in and leaving a short kiss on my lips. I had missed kissing him, too, as it took everything in me not to jump on him right there.

"I'm sorry for what I said to you about Kenzie." I said before I could stop myself. I figured that I might as well apologize for that too while we were at it, just to get it all out of the way.

"Dani, it's fine, what you said was true." Ashton said, taking me by surprise.

"Really?" I asked.

"Really." Ashton nodded, "You're my girlfriend, she's not anymore. I should be spending time with you and not at her grave. I need to learn to let go." Ashton spoke almost as if he was in a trance, like he'd practiced saying this before he came over here.

"Ashton..." I trailed off, trying to decide if I thought he was telling the truth or not. I know that I should trust him, but part of me was finding it hard to, considering the whole conversation we just had about him lying to me.

"Shh, come here." Ashton whispered, grabbing my waist and pulling me even closer to him. He pressed his lips to mine, which immediately relaxed me enough to forget about my wariness from before.

Ashton tilted his head to the side, allowing me to deepen the kiss. He pulled me closer to him, so I was now sitting on his lap as we continued to kiss. His hands continued to work their way up my shirt, his fingers giving me the familiar feel of goosebumps that I had missed so much in the past few weeks. It felt like so long since I'd kissed Ashton, I couldn't help but feel butterflies in my stomach every time our lips touched.

"I missed you so much." He said against my lips as I ran my hands through his hair, earning a small moan from him.

I smiled into the kiss and nodded, pushing Ashton a little so he fell back onto the bed. I crawled on top of him, straddling him as I kissed all over his neck. His grip on my waist tightened and Ashton let out a small giggle, causing my entire body to warm up at the sound that I hadn't heard in what felt like so long.

I really did love him. I loved him enough to forgive him for all of the mistakes that he'd ever made, no matter how big they were. I loved him so much that I was willing to forget everything that he had done to make me mad, even though sometimes things got a little hard. I loved him, and I knew that I probably would for a very, very long time. I just hoped that he felt the same way about me.

"Dani, baby," Ashton said, his breathing picking up. He pulled my shirt off my body all the way, and I didn't question it.

"Yeah?" I asked, bringing my lips to his once more. I let my hands travel down Ashton's cheat and slip my hands up under his sweater, feeing over his toned stomach.

"I love you." Ashton whispered, his lips still slowly moving against mine.

"Really?" I asked, mentally slapping myself in the face for not saying it back straight away. I pulled away from Ashton just slightly, so I was able to see his face.

"Of course, baby. Why would I lie?" Ashton asked, his eyebrows furrowed.

"I love you, too." I smiled, pressing my lips to Ashton's again. He slowly flipped us over so he was on top again and pulled his sweatshirt over his head, throwing it onto the floor behind us before coming back down, his lips meeting mine again.

I knew what was coming next, but this time it wasn't nearly as rushed as the last time. This time it meant a lot more, because I wasn't trying to hide anything from Ashton or distract him and I knew that he loved me. This wasn't just something we were doing to take the attention away from something else.

"You're so beautiful." Ashton said softly, leaving long, slow kisses along my neck. His hands went down my legs and caressed my thighs, which were bare due to the tiny pajama shorts I was wearing.

Ashton continued kissing down, pausing when he got to my chest. I arched my back and let his hands go to the clasp of my bra, which he was actually able to undo on his own this time. He tossed it onto the floor behind him and started kissing me again, his lips sucking gently on my skin all the way down to the waistband of my shorts.

"Are you parents home, baby?" Ashton whispers, stopping for a second.

"No," I lied, only because I knew that Ashton was going to make us stop if I said yes.

Ashton nodded and his fingers gently hooked through the waistband of my shorts, slowly sliding them down my legs and leaving me in just my underwear. His cold fingers ran over my legs again, sending chills up my spine as I brought my hands to the waistband of his own pants, waiting for his okay to take them off.

"God, God, I missed you." Ashton groaned, helping me pull down his pants the rest of the way. He kicked them off, letting them fall to the floor as well as our other clothes.

Ashton came down again and buried his face in the crook of my neck, sucking hard enough to leave a deep, purple mark on it. I let my fingers tangle themselves in his hair again, which made Ashton let out a low moan in my ear. He kissed down my chest and stomach again, this time stopping above the hem of my underwear.

He slowly removed them, practically throwing them across the room with a smile on his face. He leaned down and kissed the insides of my thighs for a moment before going in between them completely, bringing his lips to the area that I needed him most. I continued to tug at his hair, urging him on as his tongue flicked around inside if me.

I came not long after that, not needing much of Ashton's tongue and lips to unwind completely. Ashton looked up at me as I breathed heavily from my place on the bed, still trying to come down from the high that I was just at. He licked his lips and innocently blinked back at me, a small smile playing on his lips.

"Shall we continue?" He asked, cocking his head to the side.

He crawled further up the bed until he was on top of me again and I nodded, bringing my hands to the band of his boxers (WHICH WEREN'T AMERICAN APPAREL SO DONT EVEN ASK) and slowly slipped my fingers in between his underwear and his skin.

Ashton let out a small groan as I pulled his boxers down his legs, biting my lip as I did so. Once they were gone Ashton sighed softly, positioning himself above me again. "Baby, I love you so much. No matter what, don't forget that."

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That wasn't in my plan to write that so if it sucks I'm sorry lol I just kept going and couldn't stop

I also wrote this in like 20 minutes so bear with me

Ashton's still really sketchy just an fyi ok stay tuned for more drama