Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe
That anyone ever really starts of fall in love with me

His eyes are down. Brown hair shadowing his face. Tears falling from his eyes.

Will.

"Wait!"

He turns, cheeks stained and backpack slung shakily over his shoulder as I reach out to him, tears falling from my own.

"What? What do you want? I've already told you. I've already told you what you want to hear, isn't that enough? I can't be loved, okay? I'm a dirty slut! A whore! Why can't you just believe it? Nobody could ever love me, Ry."

"You aren't, though, please you gotta understand me."

"No, you understand me, Ryan." Bilvy snaps, "quit acting like anyone could love me, alright? It's so incredibly stupid! I just need you to understand that you don't really feel that way."

"I do feel that way, Bill, please." I cry, "I love you so fucking much. I've loved you ever since we met. I love you. I've never loved anyone as much as I do you. Please."

Will shakes his head, turning back away, "pathetic."

I frown and come forward, yanking him around before pressing my lips to his, tears mixing with his.

I pull away, shaking and crying and cupping his jaw, "Please, Will."

He shakes his head.

"It isn't real."

And he walks out of my life.

I haven't seen him since. Never will again.

Travie told me he was found with a bullet through his head and I don't think anyone really heals from that.

I still haven't

***

We only accept the love we think we deserve.

I heard sorry earlier and I really loved it and I kind of want to make this into a fanfic so yeah.

Also decided to end the 30 day challenge cuz I can't finish one to save my life lmao.