Kink: None/Vanilla
Ship: Gerard/Patrick
Top: Gerard
Bottom: Patrick
Words: 2089

*Patrick's POV*

I was always nervous about sex. Nervous and embarrassed. Pete always said it was because I was too innocent for sex or anything dirty in general. Maybe that was the truth, maybe I just wasn't raised right. I could believe the second one since my family were extremely strict and Christian. That meant no masturbation or I'm going to hell. They didn't care if I dated a guy or not but they said no gay sex or I'm going to hell. And fuck, I believed them. I was so scared of being dirty and sinful but... Oh my goodness I had the worst hard on and it just wouldn't go away. I was so tempted to touch myself. I wanted to do it so very badly. It was aching and I just needed to do something about it.

Gerard was at work, he was supposed to be there for a couple more hours so I had the house to myself and there I was lying in bed, nervous and horny because my stupid body just had to do this to me...

Maybe... Maybe, if I could just... Make my pants a little less tight it would be a little less uncomfortable.

I unrestrained my jeans and pulled them to just below my boxers. It was less tight but it still hurt pretty bad. I bit my lip.

J-just a little farther wouldn't hurt... Right...?

My hands were shaky as I pulled down the second layer, my underwear, and I immediately blushed at the sight. Fuck...

I looked away.

No Patrick, you know what'll happen if you do that...

I swallowed. I was throbbing and twitching and it was right there.... O-one touch wouldn't hurt... Right...? Just a little bit and then I'll stop.

I looked back at myself before my hand, which was shaking uncontrollably with my conflicting thoughts, took my length in a fist. I immediately let out a sinful noise of pleasure. Oh fuck!

My cheeks were burning up fast. J-just a little farther...

I began pumping my hand awkwardly on the length and–

ohmygoodnessthatfeltamazing. I let out a second groan of pleasure as my hand began pumping faster in pure ecstasy and bliss. It just felt so... good. That was the only word that I could use to describe it...

And sinful.

I pulled my hand away in disgust. I couldn't believe myself. What is wrong with you, Patrick? You know what happens when you do this! I bit my lip, running my hands through my hair before they went back down to my cock. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I began pumping my hand a little faster. Oh yeah, you know. That's when it started leaking.

Is that supposed to happen??!?!?!

Screw it.

I spread the liquid a little bit, hoping it would smooth out my movement. Almost immediately, I was thrusting my hips up into my hand at the pleasure. Holy fuck, I didn't fucking care about the sin, I just wanted to keep this feeling. My hand continuing jerking myself off and I gripped the sheets as I felt this weird feeling in my stomach. W-What was that?

Hopefully it's normal because I'm not stopping for shit.

I tightened my grip, imagining Gerard doing these things to me. I didn't think he would, though. If I told him he'd probably get mad at me... Yell at me for doing this...

The door opened in that moment and time just kind of stopped. Gerard was gazing at me with a sudden lust in his eyes, mouth open, surprised at what he saw. My cheeks grew impossibly red and I immediately pulled the blanket up over myself. I felt tears already threatening at my eyes of embarrassment and shame.

"I'm sorry..." I immediately whispered.

"W-What?" He seemed confused, "Why, Sugar?"

We were both sort of confused, "B-but... aren't you going t-to break up with me...?

"Why, Hun? I would never do that," He neared me and I immediately pulled the blanket up further.

"I'm doing s-sinful things..." I replied choking suddenly and feeling my throat tighten.

He immediately understood the missing details, "Sugar... is that how you grew up? Thinking you're gonna go to hell for this?"

I immediately nodded, "I-I shouldn't have... I-it was hurting a-and I couldn't make it go away and..."

Gerard wiped my tears and kissed me before pulling away, "It's nothing to be ashamed of, Sugar. It's natural,"

I looked up at him and soaked those words in before biting my lip and looking away, "C-c-can you help m-me..."

He giggled a little bit and my immediate thoughts were that he wouldn't do it and that we was laughing at me, "Yeah, give me a sec."

My hands were shaking as I watched him throw off his shirt and I immediately realized what he was planning was different than what I was planning. I was about to protest when I remembered: It's nothing to be ashamed of, Sugar. It's natural. Gerard crawled over me with that lustful look in my eyes and I felt that pool in my stomach again, "G-Gee..."

"Hmm?" He asked as his hand began to pull the blanket away from my body revealing my length.

"I-I... I've never done this before..." I said to him my hands trembling as I shakily pulled my pants off the rest of the way.

"I know, Sugar." He replied kissing me again, "Just relax and I'll do all the work, okay?"

I hesitantly nodded, "O...okay..."

He kissed me softly, his hand traveling down my chest, sending shivers down my spine and goosebumps up my arms. It softly stroked my length, sending jolts of pleasure through me and making me moaned softly but cover my mouth, "Do you like that?"

I nodded softly, being rewarded with his hand wrapped around me, beginning to pump me at a slowly rhythm. He spread the leaking liquid across my length, making me moan yet again, "F-Faster... p-please..."

He obeyed my wish, and I immediately arched my back in pleasure, "Holy smokes..." He kissed me again before taking his hand away, only getting himself a whimper of disappointment, "W-wh- Oh..." I saw him pull off his pants, shoes, and socks and I immediately stared at the bulge in his underwear, taking my breath away.

"It's rude to stare, y'know." He said to me before throwing off his underwear. I blushed at his comment as he crawled back over me and held two fingers to my mouth. I gave him a confused look but he soon after said, "Suck."

I blushed again, slightly uncomfortable but obeyed his command, taking those fingers in my mouth. He kept that lustful gaze on his face as I worked, licking the digits and sucking before he eventually pulled them back, "I'm going to uh... put these inside you, it's gonna hurt but it'll make the actual... sex a little less painful."

I blushed but slowly nodded by head, biting my lip nervously.

"If you want me to stop, we can stop. I know you've never really done this before and... If you're uncomfortable..."

"N-No... It's fine..." I replied. He nodded before his fingers were positioned at my entrance. He began pressing one in and immediately, my eyes widened at the new sensation, "H-Holy smokes..."

He pressed his finger in as far as he could before a second one began to enter, "Holy shit, you're so fucking tight..."

I blushed at his words before he began pumping me softly. I bucked my hips at the contact until he stopped pumping, keeping his fingers inside me, before twisting them up towards my stomach, grazing the area and that's when, "There! Holy smokes!"

He pressed his fingers down into it, hard making me moan louder than before, "M-More, please." I begged, completely forgetting everything about how my parents raised me because I needed this now.

Gerard added a third finger, dry and it burned a bit but it hurt even more when he began stretching his finger inside of me. I clutched the sheet, panting with pain overwhelming me.

"Relax," He whispered into my ear as his hand began stroking my length. I unclenched my muscles as he continued stretching.

He pulled his fingers out and reached for the bedside table grabbing a bottle of lube and a condom. I paled a bit out of fear, how much would this hurt...?

He stroked my hair, making me close my eyes and wish for the best. I heard him rip open the packet and open the bottle of lube soon after.

I swallowed nervously and looked up to him, watching him spread the lube across his erection.

"H-how much does this h-hurt...." I asked quietly.

"Relax, it won't hurt as much, Sugar." He said as he set the lube back on the bedside table, "Baby, it's gonna feel so good, when it's over."

I blushed at the thought of that, it put butterflies in my stomach.

"You're so cute, you know that right?" Gerard asked with humor in his voice. He lined himself up and slowly began to press himself inside of me.

"Fuck," I whispered and he immediately stopped, "D-don't stop... The faster we do this the easier."

"You cussed." He said, "You never cuss."

I rolled my eyes, "Just keep going..."

He kept sliding himself into me, and I groaned out at the pain. He stopped again, "Inhale,"

I looked at him confused but did as he asked.

"Exhale," I obeyed and felt him sliding farther into me, a little less painfully. He was all the way in.

I felt him adjust a little bit before he asked me, "I'm going to go now, okay?"

I nodded with a slight blush as he began thrusting into me, missing my prostate but it still felt fucking amazing.

"G-Gerard..." I moaned out of pleasure. He locked his lips in mine and almost immediately I bucked my hips up giving him a better angle.

"You're so fucking tight, 'Trick." He whispered in my ear before taking the lobe between his teeth and tugging hard.

He gripped my waist before he thrusted a bit faster and threw his head back, moaning. He thrust the tiniest bit deeper and hit my prostate, "Shit! Right there, Gee!"

He hit right where he did before and I felt myself getting closer and closer to my finish faster than before. His grunts and 'Ah, ah, ah's' were killing me. I forcefully pulled his head down and kissed him, hard. His tongue explored my mouth and I felt him work his magic as he kissed. He was a fucking amazing kisser. I didn't appreciate it enough.

"G-Gee... I'm close." I said as I realized what that feeling in my stomach was. He rammed into me, not holding back anymore. Almost immediately, I came all over my chest.

"F...fuck..." I whispered. He stopped thrusting so I guess he was done, too. He fell over into his side before tying the condom off and throwing it in the trash.

I wasn't high anymore and I realized what I'd done. It all soaked in and I immediately hated myself. What is wrong with you Patrick?!

"Hey, Sugar, are you alright?" Gerard asked seeing my stressed face.

"I... Can't believe I just did that..." I whispered, "I'm so stupid."

"Sugar, don't say that." Gerard said, "I'm sorry if I made you do anything you didn't want to."

"I gave you consent, though..." I whispered.

"You know you don't have to believe in any of that if you don't want to..." He said to me, stroking my face.

I looked up at him frowning, "What do you mean?"

"You don't have to believe what your parents did. There are so many other religions out there. You don't have to be limited to just one." Gerard said, running his fingers up my chin and up to my hair.

He moved some of the sweaty locks from my face before kissing me gently, "But it's your choice, Sugar."

I gazed up at him, biting my lip before pulling him in for a hug, burying my head in his chest, "I love you, Gee..."

"I love you, too, Pattycakes."

I found myself drifting off into sleep in Gerard's arms, regret fading from my emotions and replaced by happiness.