48 Oneshots left. Should I add the rest of the Oneshots I made for I'm Not Okay here or nah? Requested by FedoraSlut

"Hey there, Gerard."

It's a whisper and it's the first words I've spoken to him in a year. It's been seventeen years now. Seventeen years since we first met. Seventeen years and he still breaks my heart like he always has. The only difference is, I've accepted it now.

The only difference is Bandit and Declan are here now.

"I brought Bandit and Declan."

I swallow hard and feel my hands begin to shake as I hold Bandit close.

Declan smiles softly. He's 15 now and Bandit's 16 but it still feels like they're only 5 and 6. Time went by far too fast.

"I-I've been telling them all about you. About high school and what it was like to be with you. How you h-helped me..."

I cover my mouth, tears rising to my eyes. Bandit hugs me close, hushing me as I cry, but I'm still trying to hold it back. I shouldn't be like this.

"They w-wanted to say hi. Mikey would be here this year but him and Pete are on their honeymoon right now." I take a deep breath and kneel in front of his grave.

Gerard Arthur Way
Son, lover, brother
RIP
You will be missed

"Hey, Dad." Declan speaks up, still looking to the grave, "I'm sorry I never got to meet you. I wish I could've. Dad always said you would have made an amazing father and I'm taking his word for it."

"Me too." Bandit whispers, then presses her forehead against my arms, "I love you both of you even though I never met one of you."

Declan smiles softly and I realize just then that though I may miss Gerard and I may never fully heal from what happened, it'll always get better.

Because I'm happy again. We all are.