mentions of mental health, self harm, drugs, and alcoholic behavior

𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏʟᴅ ʜᴏᴜsᴇ, the smiths
ꕥ........𑁍........ꕥ

Suddenly my head was racing with negative thoughts as I saw the blur of the lights surrounding me. I couldn't breathe or hear.. all I heard was my heartbeat that full was of nothing.. I was numb.

"Matt what did you do?!" I hear the faint voice of Chris as his yell fills the room. I was backed up against the wall, arms bloody, sweating from the substances I consumed. I was completely gone.
"Help me C-hris.." my eyes slowly close dimming the lights.

How did I end up in the story where love was tragic? After we collided we crashed and after I fell for you, For the first time I knew what it was like to fall from a height so great. I knew what it was like to love you.

THE TRAIN'S RHYTHMIC sound filled Aurora's ears as she stared out the window, watching the scenery in front of her blur by. She sat in the quiet car which was accompanied by few other passengers whose attention span was scripted away by magazines or sounds of noticeable sips of coffee.

Her tears fell slowly as the familiar trees that belonged to LA came out of her sight. She had to get back to him, she knew he needed her the most.

                               ✧✧✧
    𝟏 month ago
                           ..........❁..........

The rain pattered against the window creating a hypnotic sound as Aurora drove home after a long shift at the restaurant a few blocks from her house. She had the radio low, letting the droplets and occasional splash of the car passing by keep her company. Her thoughts drifted to Matt, a figure in her life that she cherished the most. The late night talk, the love they shared, the warmth of his hand. She would do anything to see him again.

Her phone buzzed breaking the silence. She glanced at her screen, seeing Matt's name light up. Her heart skipped a beat, a mix of excitement and worry. They hadn't spoke ever since she moved to LA, they only had daily check ups every now and then but her heart jumped at the thought of hearing his voice. Last time when the two had a conversation his eyes had looked tired, and his usual smile was forced.

Aurora pulled into a dimly lit parking lot, the neon sign of a closed convenience store flickering in the background.

                           matt 💕
                          accept|decline

She tapped the screen to answer, catching her breath while his face filled the display.

"Hey Matty," she said, her voice softer than intended. "How are you holding up?" Matt's eyes were puffy, and she could see the struggle behind his forced smile.

"I've had better days." He replied, his voice tight. Aurora's stomach clenched, she had known the call was coming, she had felt a weight on her heart ever since she left Boston.

"Can we talk?" He asked, and she knew what he had to say was important.
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Present
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   aurora's point of view

The last call was worser than the last one, knowing I wasn't there when it happened makes me feel nervous of what is to come next. Being away from my friends for so long makes me feel like a stranger. I thought about Matt all this time and losing him was something I'll never want to happen.

day 456

Seeing her walk away made me wonder how I would ever feel the same? Those moments we shared were special to me. Counting 500 days until I see you again.
.............✥

aurora's point of view

The day I moved away from my friends I felt alone. The trees felt like they became a path I didn't recognize anymore. Being in my childhood home made those memories come back all at once. I remember those warm summers I shared with my old friend group and that meant so much to me, those times where Matt and I would pick apples from the trees, the backyard where we shared something so special. Our first kiss. His lips were always lingering on mine but I can forget it only because we were young.

I notice the scenery never changed since I had left. The family photos hung upon the walls, the cozy funiture that occupied the living room, a well worn rug that laid the hallway made me smile. I could feel the love that filled the home and although we never had much we always had that familar love.

Making my way into my old bedroom and sat on the bed, taking in the sights around me. I remembered singing tunes with Chris and practicing guitar for hours with Nick in this very room. The wall were still adorned with the posters I put up that were my favorite bands and old love letters from my grandma.

Just as I was lost in my thoughts, my phone buzzed with a notification. Reading the text made my heart drop, my stomach sinked almost immediately.

chris <3
𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚢 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚢, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝 𝙽𝚒𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚜?
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Without hesitation I packed a bag with essentials and rushed out to head to the hospital. I couldn't bear the thought of being without my person, Matthew. I couldn't help but imagine how scared Nick and Chris was. I'm happy to know they never forgot how my hug felt.

𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑'𝑣𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑢𝑦𝑠 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢．

ᵐᵃʲᵃʸ ˢᵖᵉᵃᵏˢ!
what do you guys think about the first chapter?? :)
and I promise I'll try to get thse chapters out within enough time since I'm so busy with school.