Ana's POV

Gail and the kids arrived at the hospital, Christian is getting settled into his room so there can't be any visitors yet. Gail has been with Taylor as soon as I told her I could handle Kenneth and Juliet on my own. She asked me about Teddy, but I have yet to call him. News like this needs to be shared in person, and I haven't found the strength to drive myself anywhere.

"Mrs.Grey?" I look up to meet sad green eyes. "Have you told Teddy about this yet?" I bite my lip and shake my head no. Alexander nods and looks down at my daughter that is currently curled up in his lap,before looking back at me. I can't hold his sympathetic gaze for long, so I look over to my son who is content with his red, yellow,and green cars on the hospital floor.

"Ana?" Alexander gets my attention again. I feel three inches tall right now. "Would you like me to take you to talk to Teddy?" I must be very transparent to everyone. I nod weakly and watch Alexander talk softly to Phoebe. Slowly she stands and walks over to me, taking Juliet from my arms.

"Go, Mom. I'll make sure to tell Gail where you are and watch over the kids." She promises and I nod my head. As if sensing how emotionally unstable I am, Alex offers his hand for me to take and I do. Once I'm on my feet he slings his arm over my shoulders,tucking me into his side for support.

"We will be back as soon as we can." I promise. Kenneth looks up, stands to his feet, and rushes over to me. He hugs my legs, squeezing me tight. I bend down,kissing him on the head, before he returns to his cars. Without another word, Alexander and I drift to his car.

I don't talk the whole ride. Luckily Alexander doesn't try to push any conversation, other than directions to Teddy's apartment.

I can't stop thinking about what the nurse told me, and what the doctor elaborated on just minutes before Gail and the kids showed up.The horrifying possibility that Christian could be brain dead. Or he could end up like a vegetable. I don't...I don't know what I would do. I feel my hands start to shake and my chest starts rising more rapidly than before.

"Mrs. Grey? Hey." I hear a car door slam and the whole world is submerged in water. My door opens and someone unbuckles me. "Ana?" Two hands grab my own. "It's okay. Everything is okay. It'll all work out." I soon come to and see Alexander right in front of me. It was his voice speaking to me,his hands on mine. "You can't let Teddy see you like this."

I look off to the side to see we are sitting in the parking lot of Teddy's place. Alexander is right, I can't let my son see me this way. It takes me a few minutes to compose myself, but once I do,Alexander steps back and helps me out of the car.

All day I wonder how I make it anywhere. Time speeds up and then it slows down. I've become numb to the change. The ride up to Teddy's floor is one of the moment where time speeds up. As soon as the doors close,they open and we are greeted with a hallway instead of a lobby.

Robotically I walk to his door without thinking about it,knock, and wait. I hear voice on the other side. They seem angry.Alexander stands in my shadow, allowing me to face this head on without support.

The door opens with a whistle, and there stands Teddy. Hair disheveled, tie loose around his neck, and shirt unbuttoned. His face is pale, eyes blown wide, and he seems to be cowering in on himself.

Sophie must be the one yelling at him.

When he takes in my appearance, color returns to his face and his stance changes.

"Mom, are you okay?" He ask and I shake my head no, giving him the honest answer.

He waves me in, as well as Alexander, and closes the door behind us.We walk in on Sophie pacing the room, barefoot, still in her pajamas, and her hair a mess.She looks up, opening her mouth to speak, but when she sees us she stops. It takes her a second the see that the atmosphere has changed before she is rushing over to me.

"Ana, are you okay?" I don't give her anything, instead I take a seat on the couch. The other three follow.

"Teddy, Sophie, I have something important to tell you. Let me explain all of it before you jump to any conclusions, and trust me on this." They both nod and Teddy's hand wanders over to Sophie's, although it was obvious they had been fighting she accepts it. I feel my lip began to tremble as I go to speak.

"This morning there was an accident." Their breathing stops."It involved your dad's. They both had to betaken to the hospital. Taylor was in the ambulance and Christian had to be air flighted." Sophie gasps and tears start rolling down her cheeks. Teddy's face doesn't get softer, he becomes a stone. His face showing no emotion. Similar to the face his father makes.

"Taylor has a broken arm, maybe a slight concussion.Nothing too bad." I see Sophie lets out a breath. I take one in.

"Christian, ha-" I choke. Alexander places a hand on my back. Get it together, Ana. Stay strong for the kids. Stay strong for Christian.

"Christian had to be air flighted to Northwest hospital." I pause and wipe under my eyes."The doctor explained to us that his shoulder was dislocated and because of how the car spun and the impact of it getting stuck, it jerked him around...a lot.There is swelling in his brain, and possible damage to some of his spinal cord nerves."

Sophie looks up at Teddy, takes in his appearance, and wraps her arms around his that rest on her leg.

"The doctor said he is performing a couple surgeries to fix everything as best as he can." Neither of them have said anything. I'm surprised Teddy hasn't made a comment on anything yet. Sophie must find it odd too.

"Babe?" She questions and he finally blinks out of the haze and looks down at her. He kisses her head and stands up. Here moves his tie and coat without saying a word, throwing them on the couch.

It's like I'm watching a scene of me and Christian from when we were younger. My heart swells, and I push the feeling aside.

Teddy come up to me kisses my head as well before turning to the girl on the couch and grabbing her hand.

"Let's go."

When we got to the hospital, Gail was out in the waiting room with Phoebe who was holding Kenneth, and Juliet asleep in her carrier next the Phoebe.

When Gail sees Sophie she rushes at her and pulls her to her chest. Sophie clings to her step mom and lets a few more tears escape. Alexander walks up to the other chair by Phoebe, kisses her cheek and ruffles Kenneth's hair. As I watch all the sweet welcomes, I suddenly feel cold. Christian isn't there to welcome me.

"Momma?" I choke on air when he calls me that. I spin around to look at Teddy who has his arms wide open for me. I steps closer to him, and let the sobs start.

"It's going to be okay." He rubs my back and whispers reassuring nothings in my ear.God, he reminds me so much of his father. Being the rock when everything around him crumbles to sand.

"Ana?" I take a moment before facing Gail. "They got him settled in the room while you were gone, and he can have visitors." my mouth opens and my heart jumps.

"We haven't gone in. We thought you should be the first one." Phoebe says and I nod my head. I wipe under my eyes and take a deep breath.

"Wh-what room?" my voice shakes.

"250." Gail says and I don't bother waiting around.I make my way there alone, but I can feel their eyes on me as I moved.

I was walking in quicksand, with no oxygen, and the world was spinning too fast. What is he going to look like? I have no idea what to expect.

I can't do this. I just can't.

I stop halfway in the hall.

Yes you can. You have to. Go.

I'm already at the door with a shaky hand on the handle. Go on.

I push the door open and let it swing. I wring my hands in front of me and walk to the bed. He is turned on his side, facing away from me,but I have a full view of the bandage covering about six inches down the middle of his back. I feel tears build up but I stay strong. For Christian.

I walk around the bed.

I take a deep breath when I see him.

There is a dark purple blemish on his left cheek and some swelling around his eye. His left arm is in a sling, taped down to his side, and his whole face is pale. There is a tube down his throat.

The tube is hooked up to a breathing machine.

"Oh God." I whimper and cover my mouth. I take the seat next to him. I can't look away from his face. He looks peaceful, not alive, cold and peaceful. I grab his right hand, leaning down a bit to press my lips to it. I didn't want to move him too much.

I keep his hand in mine as I examine his other arm. At the top of the hospital gown I can see some light bruising and maybe some swelling but - his wedding ring. It's not on his finger.

"Mrs. Grey?" I look up as the doctor walks in with a nurse behind him. He carries a clipboard while the woman has a clear sack.

"I'm Dr. Newton. I'll be attending to your husband as long as he is here, which hopefully isn't too terribly long." He offers a friendly smile, which I try to return but I'm sure it's more of a grimace.

"Chrissy here has all of Mr. Grey's personal belongings that were on him when we brought him in." the nurse, Chrissy, hands me the clear bag. And as the doctor starts to talk again she woman walks out the door but returns with another bag. "We kept his clothes because we didn't know what was salvageable, and if you would want them back or not."I take the second bag as well and Dr. Newton speaks again." I just came by to introduce myself and to tell you the surgery went well and since he has been here the swelling in his brain has gone down. Now about his back, as you probably saw when you walked in, all damage was made to the lower back but everything was repairable. If he does not heal completely in his time here, it would be recommended he go to physical therapy. But everything looks fine. Chrissy or myself will check in on him frequently and update you on any changes." The man smiles, we exchange thank you's, and he leaves.

I don't hesitate to rip open the bag and dig around to find what I am in desperate need of.

Wallet, broken phone, keys, a pen...where is it...there we are. I pick it up in my fingers and discard the rest of the bag onto the floor. His ring. I kiss it in my fingers and slip it on my thumb. It's too big, the milgrain edged, white gold ring sits uneven on my small finger. I can't take a chance of loosing this.

With the ring still on my thumb I reach around my neck,unclasp my necklace and slide the ring onto the chain. It rest next to the Elsa Peretti diamond that Christian got for me for our anniversary. Not our wedding anniversary, our I-stumbled-into-his-office-anniversary. He said he planned on getting me something every year. I wonder what he will get me this year? Or what he would have gotten me. that anniversary was in a month. Not sure if he will care too much due to the current circumstances.

I look at the time. How is it already four-thirty? I don't want to walk back out there. I don't want to leave his side, but I need to let the kids see him and make them go get something to eat. I'm not really feeling up for it.

I place Christian's hand in a comfortable position and lean down, kissing the side of his lips, not wanting to even nudge the tube. I slowly drag my feet to and out the door. When I return to the waiting room,the scene has changed.
Instead of sorrowful embraces, Teddy has his head in his head, sitting down, and his shoulders are shaking.Sophie is sitting next to him rubbing his back, shaking her head, and wiping away tears of her own. Gail is sitting with Julie in her lap,and Kenneth is sitting next to her looking at People magazine.

I walk up quietly and try to listen to what Teddy is saying. No one takes notice of me.

"It should have been me." He sobs. My heart breaks. "I sh-should have been in that car w-with him. I should be the one in that bed-d. Not h-him." Sophie shakes her head.

"Don't think like that."

"Why not. If h-he would have let me go I would..." He runs his hands down his face and looks up, but his eyes are closed. "If he doesn't pull through-"

"Teddy." I interrupt. His eyes slowly flutter open and there are already as red as mine. "Go see him." That's all I said. He nods and stands up, not letting go of Sophie's hand. I nod my head to her and the two disappear into his room.

Once Teddy and Sophie come out, looking worse than when they went in, Alexander and Phoebe are next.

"Gail, you can go in next. I'll take the kids." Gail steps after the last two and when she is finished, I hold Juliet tight to my chest and hold Kenneth's hand all the way down the hall. We stop in front of the door and I take a deep breath.

"If you don't want to see him tonight, you don't have to." I say down to the boy who looks straight at the door. He doesn't even hesitate.

"I want to see Daddy." I nod and tell him to open the door. He does, and the three of us walk in.

I made sure to slip it into Gail's ear to pull the blankets high enough to cover his bandaged back. I don't want Kenneth to know about that part right now. We walk around the side of the bed and come face to face with Christian. Kenneth doesn't react like I expect him to.

I take a seat with Julie in the chair, but Kenneth hops up onto the bed.

"Why is there a vacuum in his mouth?" Kenneth asks, seriously concerned. I actually smile at his innocence.

"It's not a vacuum. It's a tube that gives him medicine." Oxygen, it is giving him the one thing he needs to live.

"Oh. His arm okay?" I nod my head. "Can he hear me?"

"Of course." Unless he is brain- no. No, no, no.

"Dad, you have to get better." Kenneth places his hand on Christian's I try my hardest not to shed a tear. "A new episode of Power Rangers comes on this week, and you have to watch it with me."

Kenneth continues to look at his father before looking back at me.

"I think he is asleep." I nod my head and stand. The boy hops off of the bed, but not before placing a goodnight kiss on his father's cheek. I sit Juliet next to him for a couple of seconds, and she doesn't make a sound. It's as if she understands the circumstances.

"Say goodnight to Daddy." I encourage and she squirms around a little bit, babbling high pitch about who knows what. I sit her back on my hip but tilt her down so her face is next to Christian's.

"Give him a kiss." I croon. She makes an'o' with her small, soft, pink lips and press her mouth to his cheek. She leaves a small ring of slobber, but Christian's use to it, and it's kind of adorable.

"Come on." I offer my hand to Kenneth, which he takes, and we both walk out to waiting room.

"You kids need to go home, and get some rest." I say.

"Mrs. Grey," back to that, Gail? "You need to come home too, and rest."

"I think I'll stay up here tonight." The kids nod and Teddy takes Juliet from my arms.

"I love you."I go kiss Teddy, Sophie, Phoebe, Alexander, Kenneth, and Julie all on the head or cheek before watching them walk out the door.

I return to his room, stopping by the nurses desk.

"When are visiting hours over?" I ask Chrissy.

"You can stay the night." Kind woman. I bid her a thank you and goodnight before walking into the room, closing the door.

It takes strong willpower not to crawl into bed with him, instead taking residence in the familiar chair.

"God please." I whisper, closing my eyes.When I open them again he is still in the same position. No change.

"I love you, Christian." I kiss his forehead before curling in on myself, and slowly drifting off into a sleepless abis of worry and uneasiness.