Bruh, let me tell you, it was like, 5:30 where I couldn't sleep due to untiredness, and so I had these thoughts swimming around in my head, and they were terrible thoughts.

I had had this, nightmare, where I thought that Joel Berry had actually, had actually..........

DIED.

Not lying to you. I legit thought he had died, and the unfortunate thing is, I remember the whole nightmare:

I was sitting on my bed at like 1:00 A.M., doing nothing but scrolling around on Instagram, when I stumbled across a UNC fanpage that goes, " Joel Berry II is dead, I repeat, is reported DEAD as of 10 minutes ago."

My heart started pounding a little, but I was still like, "I don't believe that. $_it that." And so I kept scrolling, but as I do, I found like 2 more posts saying the same thing, and so then I got very scared, and decided to go to Google Chrome to see of they were right.

I went there frantically and typed up 'joel berry' under the search bar, and I saw alll these recent articles on him, from Bleacher Report, ESPN, like,

"Joel Berry, dead as of 15 minutes ago". "Joel Berry II, reportedly found dead in his dorm". "Joel Berry's death shocks the entire nation". "Carolina students gather around to mourn the loss of Tar Heel nation's beloved Joel Berry II". N' $_it.

So then I finally started crying, and then I had these images of exactly how the _ell could he have died in his dorm. I imagined him getting shot to his death. Well, just one shot, but still.

And that was just crazy, because just a couple hours before that, Theo had recorded 3 Instagram story videos on him dancing, two on both of them, and the last one of just Joel (That $_it is actually true).

And now he's dead?? As I was crying, I looked to the two pages that I was sure would give me the most clarification on it: UNC Basketball's, and Theo Pinson's.

I checked UNC Basketball's first, and unfortunately, it said the same things. Then I went onto Theo's, and he had already dedicated a whole mixtape to him. And a whole essay of stuff on him underneath that post.

I went back onto the web to find out more information, like on the Tar Heels' official athletic site, and that was all that was buzzing. I went to ESPN.com to find that they were already interviewing people live on the situation.

I was only looking for an explanation from Theo, but I never got one because Justin Jackson, their other 2014 classmate, did it. The rest of the 2017 championship team, including Marcus Paige and Brice Johnson, were also there. They were consoling him, who was basically crying his heart out for Joel.

Justin explained that Theo had sworn to him and the rest of the team that he didn't see anything that had happened to him. All he had heard was a gunshot go off in the room next to him, and when he got there to see what had happened, all he saw was a gun and a pool of blood coming from underneath Joel's chest.

Then Justin said that he had frantically called 911 to come over, while students in the near dorms rushed over to see what was going on. Then he had called everyone on the basketball team, including the coaching staff, Coach Roy, and himself, Kennedy, Nate, Isaiah, Marcus, and Brice to come as quickly as they could.

Luckily for them, they all had games on the East coast, so they were all nearby. Theo had also promised him and the team that he had never seen any trace of a gun in their dorm before, so he didn't think it was suicide.

Minutes later, live, 911 confirmed to everyone there that Joel Berry was indeed, dead. Then they carried him out to an ambulance, and that's when I broke down.

Then, still crying, I went on to Instagram again, and gave Theo a direct message, telling him to pick his head up. That God blessed us all and to try to not mourn it too much, to not take a wrong path because of this.

He actually responded to it a few minutes later!, saying 'Thank you, kw11_nba. I will surely try.' Of course I would've been ecstatic had this drastic thing not occurred.

The last thing I did before crying myself to sleep was go to Theo's last Instagram moment of him, his last Instagram story:

($_it was _ella funny though. 😂😂!!) *End of horrid nightmare*.

I didn't wake up with a loud _$$ gasp like you see in the movies or in commercials, but I did wake up at like 5:10 this morning. Then I just lied awake thinking about it.

Like I said, I straight legit thought Joel had died. Joel. Dead. At only 22 years old. Never being able to graduate from college.

Never being able to start and complete his senior season of basketball at UNC. Never getting a chance to go to the NBA.

No more Theoel.

I thought about waiting it out a little while longer than at just before 6:00, but I was having cold sweats about it. I wasn't really crying, but there where tears resting just underneath my eyes. So I quickly powered my phone back up to check.

You know, just in case.

I typed up 'joel berry' under the Google Chrome search bar, and I was like, half expecting the dreadful news to be there. But I only saw news about next year's roster, the 2017 championship, if they can make the 2018 Final Four next year, and all that.

Then I actually started shedding a couple tears of relief, because it just felt so real. Then I went onto Instagram to view Theo's most recent Instagram story on him, the one that you saw up above at the end of my nightmare.

I felt more tears brim my eyes as I watched it, and then I looked up out the window at the sky, and thought, 'God has truly blessed us with this life. Thank you God for allowing us the chance to live.'

Then I laid back down and just kept thinking about my nightmare, with no cold sweats really.

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If any NBA or NCAA players died today or anytime soon, I would just be absolutely devastated, given how you see I reacted to this.

Ble$$. ☝☝.