i forgot to mention that felix told me everything.

everything, [y/n].

from why did you left and why are you still not and never coming back.

he told me that you were forced to marry someone, your parents' decision. since your company was falling apart.

"she should've ran away!" i know that it was selfish for me to say that.

felix then told me that you tried to,

but you never ran away.

since the consequence was;

"if you ever try to run away, felix will be forced to marry someone instead of you."

that's why you stayed,

since you loved your cousin so much,

you sacrificed yourself, your own freedom, for him.

i cried when i heard that.

i can't help it.

i wanted to go to you and run away together, with felix.

but that would be selfish.

so i just smiled at him and nodded,

"i understand now."

or do i really?

he also cried and keep apologizing, saying that he knew how much i love you.

"it's okay." i told him,
"life is being hard on me."

but what he said next made me burst out crying,

"she loves you, hyung. she really do."

-seo changbin