Rory

Why is Meg avoiding me? Why did I let my stupid manly desires get the better of me? I let my guard down for only a second. She looked so beautiful with her lush brown hair cascading over her bare shoulders. She wore the fuzzy powder blue sweater I'd given to her for Christmas and she smelled of Jasmine blossoms. What's a guy to do? Not be an idiot that's what! Now I may have lost my best friend as well as my virginity. I sound so lame.

I've known Meg for 12 years.  A lifetime? No but I can't remember a time I didn't know her or her sisters. When I moved next door to them and found out it was only girls living there I cried. Yeah, I'm the sensitive type. It turns out I get along with girls way better than boys. I'm an only child and my mom left us when I was three. What's with mom's leaving? It's not normal. Dads leave and everyone says, "That's too bad. I guess he found someone else." Mom's leave and people wonder what we did wrong. Nothing that's what. One day she just picked up and left. No note. Nothing. Did it make me insecure? Did I have trust issues? Yep and still do. Thankfully our church family is super supportive.  I wonder if they'd still be supportive knowing what I've done. I'm not perfect. I'm forgiven. How cliche.  It's not really a cliche though it's God's honest truth. Then why is it so hard for us to be honest with one another? Why do we put on the Church Face? Let's be real guys. We can reach the world with real love and honest faith. I hope I can reach Meg that way. I hope she'll forgive me.

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