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A/N: following chapter has nothing to say if you are not depressed or not. I am not calling anyone fake. This chapter is meant to be controversial. The opinions in it can be relatable. But no one has the right to judge you on your feelings. If you've had a bad day, PM me immediately! Love you guys <3

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HOLY SH*T REASON 20?!?! This book is going by tooo fast!

Song for the Reason: White Flag by Sabrina Carpenter (she's bae)

Reason 20 || Violet ||

Doesn't the name sound so, so innocent?

I mean someone with a flower name would obviously be innocent right?

Violet.

She even has a poem of her name.

Roses are red

VIOLETs are blue

Sugar is sweet

And so are you.

I don't have a poem with my name it.

Cats are nice

Cath is bad

I hate myself

And so do you.

It's sad isn't it.

Flowers have their names in poems and I can't even fit my name into a poem.

Violet gets her name in a show and her name gets to kiss Evan Peters. (A/N: AHS YES)

Violet was something else.

I wish she was a flower because guess what flowers die quickly and quietly.

But no, Violet she had die out loudly and softly.

Violet was depressed, a little different than what violets are supposed to be. 

But she was one of those kids that just went through bad days and called them a depressive state of mind. 

I actually went through depression and never came out. In fact, I'm giving my life to depression.

How sad.

But let's get back to Violet.

She thought she was depressed.

She thought she could wear some somber makeup and clothes and she would automatically be depressed.

But it's not that easy. 

It takes a while. Depression eats up our minds and then starts to fill it with society's lies.

Depression ate up my mind at 14 years old and told me to go throw up. Stupid depression.

Violet never had these thoughts though. She only pretended she had them.

She thought that the only reason she was depressed was because she wasn't over her boyfriend of one week.

She claimed that she just couldn't live with the pain, with the grievance that her boyfriend had caused.

Normally, I would allow such a thing to happen but a boyfriend of one week is hardly acceptable to say you are "depressed".

Depression is much more.

So this is how Violet is going to... you guessed it killed me.

We were in school one time and I was listening to Fall Out Boy in my earphones.

I was walking down the hall to get to my next class but accidentally hit her.

You looked up to see who it was.

It was little ole Cath.

Your books were all over the floor and your friends were behind you.

As soon as you saw me, the waterworks happened.

You said, "My life sucks, my boyfriend broke up with me, my books are all over the floor and I'm ugly."

Ok, honey. You are not ugly. Second thing, your boyfriend is the least of your worries. You are in freaking high school. And third, pick up the damn books and build a bridge and get over it.

The tears just kept coming and all I could think was this "you're disturbing my fall out boy time, so get out of the way."

So maybe I was a little rude but your petty little book dropping, boyfriend breaking up, attention whore act made me realize that  this world is horrible.

I do not need to live in a world with fakes and idiots.

I don't want to live in a place where this happens.

I'd rather die and be peaceful and not have to deal with you Violet.

So let me die quickly and quietly and you can stay down here and die slowly and loudly.

And if the riptide comes to get me, I'll just throw the white flag of surrender and surrender my life.

So bye bye fake, cruel world (and Violet).

Love,

Cath the real depressed kid