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Song for the Reason: Jealous by Nick Jonas

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Reason 17 || Aspen ||

In society today, we rely so much on how we look.

Our weight, especially.

I don't go a day without thinking that I could have a better body.

A more bonier one with less meat on it.

Because guess what, society made us like this.

I will forever hate society and what it has done to me.

So let's start with the matter at hand, Aspen.

We were at lunch and I sat down next to all my "friends" with my lunch.

This was junior year, after everyone found out about my bulimia.

I sat there and ate tiny bites of my sandwich from the Café and you sat next to me.

You gave me your lunch.

I just stared at you with a questioning look.

You looked back at me like you had just done the most honorary deed in the world.

You nudged it closer to me.

I pushed it towards you.

It went into a pushing war where the sandwich was almost ripped into pieces.

Your happy face turned into an angry face in a matter of seconds.

You yelled at me and said,"Just accept the damn food!"

I looked at you almost as dumbfounded as Austin looked and just stared at you.

As I kept looking at you, I noticed your bones being prominent on your body.

You were skinnier than me.

Prettier than me.

Better than me.

So I opened the bag that contained the broken sandwich and grabbed it.

I looked at it and threw it at your face.

You have no right to tell me to eat when you look like you barely eat shit.

The next thing happened and I couldn't believe it.

I yelled a slew of curse words and some words of jealousy.

The whole cafe settled down and was just watching the scene unfold in front of them.

You held a dignified smirk even when you had ham stuck in your hair.

You were still,

Skinnier than me.

Prettier than me.

Better than me.

With the sandwich on your face and hair.

I think I've given up.

I will never look like how society wants me to.

I'm probably just jealous because you're sexy, beautiful and everyone wants you.

Aspen, you killed me with your perfection... and not in the good way.

Sincerely,

Cath the Ugly Jealous Freak