Today's Date: April 23rd, 2020

Day 23: BEGIN: write about a new era and your intentions

Honestly be happy

Your future self is talking shit about about you

And I guess it true because we always get better with age, I mean I thought I was cute in grade 9, looking back at pictures and the way I did my makeup I was clearly lying to myself, but I can also see myself doing the same once I get out of highschool making fun of my decisions and stuff like that.

I was depressed in grade 9
I mean I was damn near suicidal in grade 10 but those snapchat memories be bringing back the trauma.

I'm better than I was in grade 10 right now, I'm not so depressed and I get therapy for that which I am thankful for bit grade 9 even tho I say it was my best year of highschool and I would gladly go back, I constantly forget all I went through, it was my first year of highschool, I was a freshman, looking back theres nothing I should've been sad about, I had good friends some of them I'm still friends with to this day, and I was getting good grades but it was how I felt on the inside that was throwing me off.

Grade 10 was worse like it was so bad, I started losing friends, my grades dropped, I had a run in with the police, I got suspended from school, on top of what was already messing with my head I one tick away from just... ending.

I've been doing well even with quarantine messing me up a bit I can finally find time to do the things I love and I hope for next year and year after that and in the next decade, it feels like this

But with dick

Cause remember we in quarantine, I can't see my man no more

Sincerely,
LEMMONZZZ🍋