Today's Date: April 2nd, 2020

Day 2: YOUTH: write about nostalgia and worry free innocence

Before there was stress? When havent I been stressed, I was diagnosed with anxiety as early as grade 1. I've always had that heavy weight on my shoulders to be what society's entails. Even before I was diagnosed from kindergarten I was this weird little girl that didnt want to talk to anyone, hell even before that, there were family members like uncles and cousins that I don't see everyday that I didnt talk to. I've gotten better at that obviously but the weights I carry are just gotten heavier with everything going on in life and the world. As a kid I only really had one friend, my best friend, she's still my bestfriend of 11 years now, we been through almost everything together, she's basically my sister and having her there made everything better. She was the cryer and I was the quiet one, she'd help me speak up and I'd me like yo it's not that serious stop crying because I'm blunt and not good with emotions.

Innocence. Innocence to me would be somewhat unknowledgable. To say that someone is innocent is like say they are pure, untouched, didnt do it, or didnt know. When you call a child innocent it probably means they're oblivious to what the grown ups are talking about, meaning they don't know, there for pure.

Nostalgia. I'm constantly feel nostalgic towards things. It's like a memory trigger, like the things that you loved to do when you were little, you might find an old coloring book or a doll and all the memories of all the times you used it may just come flooding back but I feel it has to be multiple memories because say you played with the cool one or two times, you havent built a connection to it therefore any nostalgic feeling you may get would be short lived.

My version of youth? I have no idea.
My youth was so weird I don't even know what youth should be, I think normal is a social construct, but I don't even know what's common or should be common. It would be different for children in this generation because I grew up in the early 2000s, when 90s cartoons and tv shows were still on tv but Facebook was new, MSN wasn't popular anymore. I grew up in a time were everybody either had a Motorola razor or a BlackBerry instead of an iPhone. You can call me prehistoric all you want but I'm 17 this year and graduate highschool next year.

Sincerely,
LEMMONZZZ🍋