II.

I think I lost some senses after knowing Arthur's secrets. His nasty secrets.

Hindi ko maintindihan ang galit na nararamdaman ko. Should I be not? He's already dead! What could I even do?

I clenched my fist while still holding the last two papers. How the hell did those twins fool me like that?!

Mabilis kong dinampot ang box at agad na lumabas ng bahay nina Arthur. I went into my car and before I could even opened it I saw a flashing light from the opposite side of the road. It was from Leo's car. I heard the car engine started and before he could even move the car I throw my sneakers on his windshield.

It made a quite a noise in this silent neighborhood. Agad na lumabas si Leo ng sasakyan niya at humarap sa'kin. I could clearly see his face because of his car's headlight and I could tell he is confused.

Ako ang mas may karapatan na maguluhan rito.

Ipinatong ko sa ibabaw ng hood ng kotse ko ang tin box at agad na lumapit sa kaniya.

"What's wrong? Bakit big—"

Mabilis na dumampi sa kaniyang pisngi ang palad ko. The slapping sound echoed in the street and I could tell there are people peeking from their windows. The hell I care for the people in this neigborhood. Pagchismisan nila ako kung gusto nila. I just want my truth.

"Kailan niyo pa ako niloloko?"

Leo stunned on his feet. His eyes looked so lost. His face looked so blank as if he's robot malfunctioning.

Itinulak ko siya at mukhang doon pa lamang siya natauhan. I punched his chest shouting.

"Kailan pa, Leo?!" Unti-unting nangingiligid ang luha sa mga mata ko. Hindi ko hinayaan na makita niya ito at patuloy siyang sinuntok. "Sagutin mo ko tangina!"

"Bora...I...I'm sorry." Hinawakan niya ang mga pulsuhan ko at pilit yumuko para tignan ang muka ko. "Listen...listen. It's my mistake."

"The hell did you two do to me?!" Pilit akong bumitaw sa hawak niya hanggang sa lumuwag ito at itinulak siya papalayo sa akin.

"I...I'm sorry."

"The hell Leo. Walang magagawa ang sorry mo! I... you twins fooled me. Pinagpapasahan niya ako!" I harshly wiped my tears away and looked at his eyes intently. "How many times did we fucked?! Tell me! How many times?!"

Nagmamadaling lumapit si Leo sa'kin at lumingon-lingon sa paligid. Like he was worried someone would hear and would think that I'm a whore. And maybe I am!

"Bora. We could sort this out. Let's talk privately." Hinila niya ang braso ko patungo sa kotse niya pero pinagbitaw ko ito. I looked at him with disgust, hatred, and dissapointment. I can't believe he would do this.

"Just answer my god damn question Leo!"

Napapikit si Leo at agad na nag-iwas ng tingin. "All of it...It's all... It's all me. You and Arthur never done it."

Now, that was surprising as heck. All this time it was him?

That maybe why I never felt different making out with him earlier! Pero bakit? Bakit siya lang? Why did they even let this happen? It happened multiple times! We fucked thinking I'm being close to Arthur but all this time it was Leo?

"Bora... Bora. I'm sorry."

"You know what? Alam mo kung anong panglolokong ginawa ng kakambal mo at hindi ko maintindihan bakit mo pa idinawit ang sarili mo. Didn't you have morals? He died and yet here I am grieving thinking he was loyal and then here you are! You know what nasty shits he did yet you didn't tell me?"

"Bora." Hinawakan niyang muli ang kamay ko pero agad ko itong inialis. "Ayokong masaktan ka."

"But I'm already hurting and grieving for his loss. Nasaktan na ako roon. Hiding the truth will do no good for me. You hid a crucial truth, Leo. Tell me? Do I deserve it?"

Leo hesitated to answer. See? He knows I don't deserve that shitty treatment they did to me. Well, nobody were even deserving with that treatment!

Nagmamadali akong nagtungo sa kotse ko at agad na kinuha ang box at isinilid ito sa loob ng kotse. I immediately turned on my engine and didn't bother to look at him again.

I could tell there are a few people, mostly teens and adults peeking to their gates and balcony. Their silhoutte's are obvious. They can't fool me.

But unfortunately the twins can.

I don't remember how I managed to get home, update my blog and wake up early the next day. May meeting sa company at sa kabutihang palad ay nairaos ko naman. The only issue was that Leo is freaking here!

"Any further suggestions Architect Noriega?"

"We'll coordinate with the engineer if there's any changes." Napansin kong napatingin si Leo sa'kin pero nag-iwas lang ako ng tingin. The betrayal it's still freaking fresh.

Lumabas na kami sa meeting room kasama ang president ng company, si Leo at ang dalawa pang lalaki na kasama nito. How did I even forgot there's a chance that Leo's the architect they're hiring for the new location's building?

Naunang bumalik ang presidente sa office nito. He had no outside schedule for today kung kaya't bumalik muna ako sa cubicle ko na malapit sa officemates ko.

One of my closest friends in the office was Wendy. Sinalubong niya ako sa pintuan ng office na magkasalubong rin ang kilay.

"What?"

"You entered the meeting looking like that?" Taas-baba niya akong tinagnan. There's nothing wrong with me?

"Why?"

"Girl! You're a freaking disaster. You're eyes are swollen as heck! And your clothes... they are crumpled."

Napatingin ako sa itim na blazer at paldang suot ko. Indeed they are quite crumpled. Wala na akong oras mag plantsa at tinatamad ako. I just want this freaking day to be done.

"Ms. Estrella, can I talk to you for a moment?."

Halos matigilan ako nang marinig ang pamilyar na boses sa likuran. His calm voice, his sweet scent. The hell they are even the same!

"Wha—what? Who? Te—teka... hindi ba patay na jowa mo?" Wendy's eyes widened as he stared at the man behind me. Leo's freaking standing behind me in the hallway.

"A—arthur? Minumulto mo na ba kami?" Another officemate uttered who just passed by Wendy's back. Kilala ng ilan si Arthur dahil minsan ako nitong sinusundo sa office dati at minsan na rin namin nakakasama sa mga gala. I don't even know if it was really Arthur I've been with.

"He's not Arthur," sambit ko bago lumingon kay Leo. "If this is business I would like to. What do you need?"

"I mean... privately?"

"Wait till' my office hour's done. Just get out of my face, Leo."

He looked at my officemates and slightly bowed at them, "I'm Leo. Arrhur's twin."

Agad rin itong umalis at sabay na napabuntong hininga ng malalim sina Wendy at Dylan. As if they just really saw a ghost.

"Why is he here?" tanong ni Wendy nang mahimasmasan ito.

"He's the architect of the new location's building," diretsong sagot ko bago bumalik sa cubicle at humarap sa computer. I just want this day to be over.

Hours seemed to pass by quickly and Leo is still waiting in the parking lot according to Wendy. He is really serious huh?

Bumaba na ako ng office at nagtungo sa parking lot. I can see the flickering headlights on the very end of the parking lot. I bet it was his car. Lumapit ako roon at kinatok ito.

"What do you want?"

Binuksan niya ang pinto at agad akong pinaupo sa shotgun seat. Lumingon ako sa kaniya and before I knew it he pulled me towards him and our lips met. I don't know why but I responded.

That's when I realized this was the touch I crave, the warmth I wanted and the presence I missed.

He reclined his chair and it's like my initial reaction to move and sit on his lap, facing him. His kisses went to my neck as his hands roamed around my back and unhooked my freaking bra.

I lifted his head and kissed his lips again as I try to unbuttoned his shirt.

I noticed his hands going down to my waist and unhooked my skirt and pulled down the zipper so I could properly sit on him. I couldn't help but to voluntarily unbuttoned my blouse.

We were both gasping for air as leans to my forehead and staring at my chest.

"You hate me?" Leo's soft voice lingered in my ear.

"Fuck you, Leo."

"I would love to, darling." He grinned before he went down and devoured my chest. "After the usual."

These was the Arthur I knew this past two years. The man who is a freak in his nasty shits. Should I still remember those days as Arthur's? When all this freaking time I'm being intimate with Leo and falling for his nastiness.