Chapter 21 - "Regeneration..."

Doctors PoV

I didn't really know what Valentine's Day was. And it was way back in the past. But thinking about regeneration makes me think about all the possible things I could miss with Clara now.

Clara hates making occasions out of everything, but I decided it might be fun, so we're going to go with

Clara's almost 4 months pregnant now, so she's finally out of the vomiting all the time thing. It's just some of the time now.

It was a Tuesday and Clara was working so I decided to take this as the perfect opportunity to have some fun with this.

'Hey Autumn, do you want to help Daddy put some roses everywhere?' I asked her and she got excited about this.

I handed her a basket of roses and she ran around the house leaving them everywhere.

'Try to focus on Mummy and Daddy's bedroom' I told her and she went up the stairs taking a step at a time while I made her lunch.

'So I take it you have plans then?' Her dad asked when he came to get them.

'Might do' I said with a grin and he muffled his face at the very thought.

I don't know why it still gets to him so much, we've had one child and Clara's pregnant. It's not really a secret anymore.

'Here's the overnight bag' I said handing it too him and helped Autumn up in her car seat.

She can climb in the car herself but she obviously can't do the straps herself. I kissed her forehead and she wrapped her arms around my neck for a hug as she does, and then her dad left.

'Have fun I suppose then' he said and I smirked walking back inside and did things in the Tardis why she was still at work.

It was funny when she came in and couldn't find me although I suppose she just, knew I would be in the Tardis.

'Doctor do I even want to know why there's 100's of Roses over the bedroom floor?' she said when she came in through the Tardis doors.

'Yes, Autumn did it and she had fun doing it' I said to her, so she took the approach of wrapping her arms around my neck when I started walking up to her in the console room.

'Would it by chance have anything to do with the fact that it's the most awful day of the year for single people?' She asked smirking.

'Your not single though?' I said rhetorically and very confused.

'Yes I know. But once I was, and for years it was taunting to not be in a relationship on Valentine's Day... Not to mention extremely depressing' she admitted.

'Okay, so your just depressed because there's probably hundreds and thousands of people who are single and for once your not one of them' I asked.

'Exactly. Did Autumn really put all the roses on the bed?' I asked him. 'Yeah, she had loads of fun' I admitted and she giggled at the thought.

'Well... We'd better make sure it wasn't a waste of time' she said and jumped up on my waist and then I kissed her.

'Yeah your right. We'd better make full use of it while there not around. You should have seen your dads face when I mentioned that we're going out' I said into her neck.

'Oh. I can imagine' she said and went into kiss me again.

The Tardis door was already open so it was a case of carrying her out of them and I flew into the bed.

I sat on top of her continuing to kiss her, teasing her until she was crying in my mouth.

That's when I unzipped the dress and she began removing my shirt swiftly.

'You know, as much as the roses were a nice idea. They do get in the way' she laughed and I pulled one out of her hair.

'Yeah, your right.... I just thought it would be fun' I said and she shook her head.

'Oh it was. If you play your cards right this evening chin boy there's more where that came from later... A lot more' she said as she jumped up off the bed and disappeared in to the bathroom.

She really left me hanging there as I was gauping at the door for a further minute or so.

Clara's PoV

I jumped up and got ready.

I went with my pink skater dress tonight with the silver swirls. For some reason my dresses still fit me.

Heels weren't really an option whilst pregnant but that doesn't matter.

'Are you ready yet? How long does it take to put a dress on?' He complained through the door.

'A bloody long time when there's a person in the way' I snapped.

'No, it's just were being regular people tonight and I don't want to miss the reservation' he said annoyed.

We were going for dinner somewhere, not really sure where but to a restaurant of some description.

The meal actually went quite quickly and so we left at half 9, where he drove to the little river bank that I love.

I had taken him here a long time ago in hope that he would remember.

Autumn came with us at the time and loved the ducks, but there isn't any ducks here at night I guess. It was very cute and romantic.

He laid a picnic blanket down on the grass that he had in the bag and I laid down next to him.

'It's a bit cold to be having a picnic don't you think?' I asked him.

'Well for you maybe, it doesn't matter to me, but you won't get cold because my body heat will keep you warm' he said being my cue to snuggle up next to him, so I did.

'So? Was it a happy Valentine's Day?' He asked me and I shook my head.

'No, I had year 12 English and there's a couple in that class, it was grim watching them really... Although I suppose it's what were like' I pointed out.

'There's a couple in your English class, doesn't that become a bit unbearable?' He grinned.

'Yes, it's even worse because I can't say anything, there both re-sitting the year and are already 18' I said and huffed. 'Right, sounds fun' he mused, but then I sat up.

'What are you doing? That was comfy' he complained again.

'I crawled over to where my bag was and bought it back.

'Well it's Valentine's Day, so I figured I would get you something' I said and he looked confused. He hates it when I buy him stuff mainly because he thinks I'm going to forget... But this year I was on it and bought this back at christmas knowing I could give it too him now.

And I hate it when he buys things for me but he still does so tough.

I handed him the box and was actually quite excited about it. I hopped up and sat on his lap.

He opened it but before he could say anything I took it out of his hand and pulled his wrist into my lap.

I then proceeded to put it on his wrist. It was a cool bracelet type thing, 'The person who loves you ties it to your wrist and apparently it keeps the secrets and promises that they make close to you' I said smiling.

'I went with blue because I figured it kind of seemed appropriate.' I said. 'So your my loved one then?' He asked me sarcastically.

'No, your just my toy boy' I said to him and he cocked his head. 'What's that?' He asked.

I didn't know how to respond to that one so decided to show him and let him figure it out himself.

'I can tell you if you like' I said and he nodded. Never agree to something if you don't know what's going too happen.

So I kissed him, hard and he didn't know what was happening, but he didn't not kiss back, so I must have been doing something right.

Then much to his satisfaction I put my tongue in his mouth and he literally couldn't push me to the ground fast enough.

'Dooctor-' I said breathlessly. 'I- I'm not having sex on a blanket in the park' I whispered into his hair and gasped appreciatively as he kissed my neck.

'No were not, get up' he said and I was confused.

Maybe he had figured out what a toy boy is but he picked me up and kissed me again and I didn't stop kissing him, mainly because I'm ready and already there.

Then he pushed me into the back of the car.

I've got to admit, the mans got game, he's probably been planning this all day.

'Are you serious?' I asked him half annoyed and half really turned on.

'Why not?' He said but had barely lifted an eyelid to see my reaction as he began removing my dress.

'Fine, but if it's nearly as uncomfortable as sex in the shower were never doing it again' I told him but he wasn't listening he was too busy keeping his hands pre occupied in places you don't want to know about. It was at about that point where I realised I didn't care anymore so threw caution to the wind pulling his head back to my face and started removing his clothes.

It actually wasn't as bad as I really thought it was going to be.

I know he doesn't care where he does it but I do and actually I wouldn't say no to a next time.

As soon as we were done I couldn't just collapse next to him and go to sleep, but I was exhausted now and wanted to go to bed.

I threw my dress over myself forgetting about any other clothes and we did eventually make it back to the driveway.

I went upstairs and headed towards the bedroom as he rugby tackled behind me and pushed me into the bed once more.

This time, I really could collapse in the bed and so I curled up right next to him.

'So Clara, you never did tell me. What's a toy boy?' He asked again and I smirked.

'Yes I did tell you. A toy boy is a guy who a girl keeps around for sex. They usually tend to have two or three on the go at any one time.' I told him and he looked like he was thinking about it.

'How does that work?' He asked and I smiled.

'You don't want to know' I sighed and shut my eyes... Until he jumped up and ran out of the room.

When he came back he had his pyjama trousers on and a box.

I was appreciative of him keeping himself shirtless. Gives me something to think about.

And it really is something to think about, he's so attractive under it all. He handed me a box.

'It's not much really, and technically you already have one, but you have two daughters now so you needed another 'A' charm' he said and hooked it onto my bracelet.

Doctors PoV

'What's she talking about?' Clara said confused trying to break Jacks grasp.

'It's alright Clara' I said and watched my hands begin to glow.

'Your not okay, your dying' she cried. 'I'm not dying Clara, just regenerating' I said to her and Amy gasped.

'You, you can't. Your there Dad. You can't go' she cried. 'I'll be back Clara. I promise' letting go of the console and standing straight.

'Please. Someone stop him' Clara cried.

'He's saving himself Clara' Kate said and Jack tightened his grip. 'She is to come nowhere near me until I've finished glowing. She'll die otherwise' I said and my whole body started to shake.

'I'd rather you die than be someone else' he said crying.

'Clara that's a horrible thing to say' Martha said. 'No. She's just telling the truth' I said.

'I know Clara. But I have to do this and you know that' I asked her.

I felt the yellow light flowing all around me.

'Clara' I said and looked at her. 'What, please don't do this' she weeped.

'Look after them. If it doesn't work?' I questioned but it was a fact.

'Of course I will, you space goof' she laughed and I smiled. 'I love you Clara' I said and she looked me in the eyes, as I couldn't stop it for any longer.

'I love you too' she said and that was it.

Clara's PoV

'Nooooo' I begged. 'Please make it stop' I cried and Jack shielded me, pulling me further away.

'No. Stop please don't make me leave him' I begged.

'Come on Doctor you can do this' Kate said appearing and begging.

I didn't want to witness this. But I couldn't look away.

The whole console began to shake and he writhed, screaming and shouting in pain. 'Please make it stop' I whimpered.

I couldn't stand the idea of him being in pain.

There were golds and yellows and reds, and oranges that were contrasting together to make a glow and a deep light fly around the room.

I waited.

I waited for that awful moment for his face too change but he continued to writhe in pain.

'What's he doing?' I cried and Kate looked at me. 'Keep talking Clara. Keep talking too him' she said.

I looked up from Jacks tight grasp. That was the exact moment when I could hear crying come from the console monitor.

'Avia' I cried and tried to loosen Jacks grip again. 'There safer in that room' he said but that's when something changed.

It wasn't just Avia who was upset, but I could hear Autumn crying for "Daddy"

'I know Autumn. I wish he could come and see you' I said guiltily.

'Please stop crying' I begged to the monitor.

The glowing stopped and he collapsed forwards on the floor of the console, after looking around and smiling.

'Took a lot of energy to do that' River muttered.

She wandered around his limp body and flicked the leaver. I felt the Tardis jolt, and shake.

'Where is he?' Martha asked and ran to his side. 'Let me go' I cried and ran to his side as well.

'Is he done?' River asked. 'Looks like it. He's got a pulse and two hearts. Looks like it's worked' she said.

'What's worked. He's regenerated. Why hasn't his face changed?' I asked through the tears.

'It has. But only barely. He used everything in him to not change his face. He's cheated death this time in more ways than one' she said.

'It's going to take him a few days of not weeks to get over this one' she said.

Clara's PoV

'Where shall we put him?' Martha asked as everyone emerged from the Tardis.

'Our room' I said and showed them in. I threw some of his pyjamas out the draw at her and his hair brush.

She laid him in the bed and tucked him up nicely. 'Is he going to be okay?' I asked stroking his head.

'He's alright. Like I say. Regeneration takes it out of him and it will take a few days or maybe weeks for him too normalise. But otherwise he'll be fine' Martha said.

'Just let him have the sleep' she assured me.

We left the bedroom and shut the door. 'Clara. Avia needs you' Amy said and she slipped her into my arms.

My poor 4 month old baby.

'Shush. It's alright. Come on girls' I said to them. I was a mess myself, but I needed to prioritise them.

I placed Avia in her bed but Autumn was going to be harder to maintain. She's two years old and really upset.

She clung onto my neck and cried, but she was practically crying herself to sleep.

I knew she was frightened and that I was going to have to stay with her tonight.

'Rivers coming with us to unit' Jack said. I nodded as everyone except for Amy and Rory left.

'I'll check in, in a few days' Martha said. I nodded and smiled pretendedly.

'Shall we go and put you to bed?' Amy asked Autumn and lifted Avia out of my lap.

Autumn wouldn't budge.

'She's alright here' I said smiling assuringly.

Autumn had never been a clingy child, even as a baby. But she's two and that kind of thing can haunt an adult... Let alone a two year old toddler.

'I'm scared' she cried and hugged closer to me refusing to let go.

'Shush. I know. Your safe now though I promise' I told her.

She cried herself to sleep on my lap, and knew it would probably be that way for a few days.

Kids don't really remember much before they turn 5, so hopefully in the future she should forget this.

I have to say, I felt fine physically apart from my foot. I never would even know that I was dying.

Rory inspected my ankle, and wouldn't take no for an answer. 'It is just a sprain. But you've walked on it, so it's a little worse. Just keep it elevated for a couple of days' he said.

'Easier said than done when you've got two kids' I said.

'Don't worry, we're going to stick around and help you for a few days' Rory said and I greatly appreciated the gesture.