Chapter 10 - "Will it Work...?"

Clara's PoV

I was rather happy the next morning when I woke up. I knew I was getting too go and see my kids.

"Kids". It felt weird saying kids because I actually have two children.

I never thought I was going to get discharged. It's only been a few days, but I miss him and Autumn like crazy. I also miss Avia a lot because she's not in me anymore.

I feel strangely flat without her.

It's the same feeling I had after having Autumn, except the difference was that I got too hold her as soon as she was born.

I was kidding myself if I thought that I was going to get too hold Avia today, because as far as I'm aware, she's still in the incubator.

'Miss Oswald? Miss Pond. Follow me' Jack said when he came in. 'Hey Jack' I said. 'Morning Clara. You must be Amy?' Jack said.

'Jack. She's married' I warned. He rolled his eyes. 'So are you... But that doesn't stop me' he said.

'Yep that's me' Amy said as I signed my discharge forms and was escorted off the premises.

I could barely keep still in the car. It took everything in me to be patient. Unit is only 15 minutes down the road... But that doesn't matter, it still felt like a very long drive.

When I got there, we were escorted around the back by a field. I was confused at first, but then I understood why.

I looked on in amazement, at how Autumn was running across the grass at him and pushed him over. It was a pathetic push but he pretended to fall and she landed on top of him giggling.

'Come here you monkey' he said laughing with her as he hugged her tight and Autumn smiled. They were so cute together.

It's only been three days, 4 days at the most and she's changed. She's got a lot cuter. Her facial features have changed just a little bit, but I think that where she's getting older.

I don't like too think of the fact that in November she'll be two. I mean two years old. So much has happened in two years.

Then she saw me. Before I knew it, she had climbed off of him and was running at me really quickly.

'Mummy, Mummy' she cried running at me and hugged my legs. She had the cheeky smile on her that makes me melt, because it's the same smile as The Doctors.

'Hey there Autumn' I said bending down carefully to let her wrap her arms around my neck. I hugged her tight and she smiled.

'I've missed you cheeky' I said kissing her forehead and laughing.

She was chatting away then, when I took her hand and lead her back to where The Doctor was waiting. 'Clara' he said smiling and I wrapped my arms around him.

'I've missed you' I said, sadly. 'I've missed you more' he said methodically and pushed me back grabbing onto my shoulders.

'Come and meet Avia' he said smiling, grabbing my hand and leading me in two double doors.

When I walked in, I witnessed a small room, with a bed and everything of Autumns sprawled everywhere.

She couldn't be missed though.

In the centre of the room however was a cot. She wasn't in the incubator anymore. She was in the small plastic cot. 'Oh my god' I whispered, clinging onto his hand and he smiled.

'She's changed' I said and it was true too say she has changed. She's grown. She's got colour too her cheeks. In fact she has colour all together. When she was born she was so pale.

'I told you the blood would work' he said. I knew he was right all along, I just didn't like how we had to get it.

She was squirming away in the cot and wasn't even using the tube to help her breathe anymore. There was still a tube connected to her nose but it wasn't helping her breathe.

'Hey Clara' Martha said and I smiled. I knew Martha would help her and make her better. 'She's doing okay.' Martha said and I was just on top of the world.

The urge too touch her was taking over me, so I took a step closer too the cot.

'Can I--' I said and stopped abrupt.

'You can hold her if you want?' The Doctor said and my mouth dropped.

'But she's so tiny and frail' I said and he squeezed my hand in assurance. 'And also really healthy and doing just fine' he said.

I swallowed and nodded happily, as I was instructed to sit near the cot and Martha lifted her out. 'It's good for her to get contact with you actually, because she's only had him' Martha said.

'You've held her?' I asked. He nodded. I don't know why I was upset about that. I mean I'm glad she had someone. Better than having no one.

'Mummy?' Autumn whined when she saw me sitting with the baby. 'Yes Autumn?' I asked. 'Mummy hug?' She cried.

'You can have a hug in a minute Autumn. I'm holding your little sister' I said to her. She stomped her foot on the ground a little and I couldn't help but suppress a smirk.

I knew that it would be difficult for her, to have a sibling, but I didn't think she would get so grumpy about it so quick.

The difference is she's still had his undivided attention whilst being here, so when we get home it will get harder for her.

She climbed on the bed crying and chewed her blanket. 'It is nap time' he said looking down on me and stroked her little cheek in my arms.

'Now Clara we have a question for you' Martha said. 'Why does that not sound good?' I whined.

'Like mother like daughter' he said rolling his eyes and went to the bed where she crawled into his lap.

'Avia is having some eating issues. She won't take from the bottle and she's resisting it from the tube' she said. 'Meaning what?' I asked and looked down at her perfect little face.

She had darker hair than Autumn. In fact she looked more like me than him. Her hair was more of a Brown like mine. Of course mine isn't naturally this dark, but she has my natural brown.

'There could be two reasons really. First off I don't see any physical reason why she would be rejecting it. She's strong and healthy' Martha said.

'So what's the problem then?' I asked back.

'Well she either is allergic to the formula or she just doesn't like the formula. The only way to test out the theory is by giving her your milk' she said.

My head snapped up.

'No way. I'm not Brest feeding. I'm not doing this myself' I said.

'You don't have too in the way that you think. 'You can still bottle feed her if this works, but just pump your milk. In all fairness it will work so much better for you because you'll be able to pump it in advance and freeze it' she said.

I never wanted to breast feed. I don't particularly want her having my milk. 'Will it work?' I questioned knowing what the answer will be.

Martha looked at me and smiled. 'Ugh' I groaned.

I handed her over to him and Martha led me to another room where a nurse helped me to do the milk and teach me how to do it properly for her.

If this works then it's going to be a permanent thing.

It was uncomfortable, I'm not going to lie. I would rather just mix the formula together but clearly that's not going to be an option, so my milk it is.

Then I got that great moment of going back in and feeding her. 'We'll try from the bottle and see how she reacts. It's the quickest way' she said so I handed him the bottle and picked Avia carefully up.

I then turned around to see him splash some on his arm and eat it. 'Eew. What are you doing?' I said snatching the bottle out of his hand. 'Checking to see its warm enough. It is' he smirked.

'But it's breast milk. You have literally just tasted the milk from me' I pointed out. 'And?' He asked confused. 'I've got to say, I think the formula tastes better' he said.

'So first you drink my milk and then you complain about how it tastes' I said offended. 'Can I try?' Autumn asked.

He splashed some on her arm and she licked it off, really cutely mimicking exactly what he did. As much as it was adorable... It was weird.

'Would you stop. She can't have it' I said. 'She would have had it as a baby if you had given it to her so why not?' He asked.

'Because it's Avias' I said and attempted to place it in her mouth. 'I'm not being funny Clara, but I've had sex with you. I don't think a bit of milk is that bad' he said.

'Eew. Stop!' I said.

Then I looked down because I could feel the movement of the bottle in my hand. We didn't think she would take it but she was gulping away at it.

'Well someone's hungry' I said rolling my eyes.

'Looks like she is' he laughed.

She took two bottles in a row then, but apparently she would be hungry.

'So is this it for the foreseeable future? Will I become one of those Mum's where my baby is attached to me?' I asked.

'No Clara. Don't be silly' he said. 'You can just pump it. It makes things easier on everyone. It also means when you go back in January that Daddy can feed her' Martha said.

'Oh. I'm going back to School in November. Maybe even October' I said looking down.

'You what?' He asked.

'Yeah. I have to go back to work. In fact... I want too' I said and he looked away.

He clearly wasn't happy about that... But I don't really care.

By the beginning of April, I was sick of being pregnant already.

I Was up to the point where I was 16 weeks. It was also inevitable and there was no way I could hide it now.

It was a regular Wednesday and I wondered into the staff office.

I was aware of the fact that I now look pregnant and I feel slightly self conscious about it if I'm being really honest.

I don't like the fact that most of my dresses don't even fit anymore and so I have had to move onto leggings, I rather prefer dresses.

I was slightly pre occupied when I was teaching my year 12's thinking about all sorts of things other than the book.

I tend to do this a lot, I've been thinking about the future and what on earth it's going to be like having two kids.

Plus the fact that I don't do much work these days. I spend most lessons flicking through baby magazines and furniture magazines.

'Miss Oswald? What's the essay on?' One girl asked.

'Ummm, write about the way love is presented, and I'll mark it later' I said waving them off but then I lent forward and felt a sharp pain in my stomach.

It felt strange and I leant forward thinking something was very wrong but it wasn't.

I knew what it was, it wasn't a pain it was just uncomfortable.

I stood up abrupt and left the room.

'Continue writing your essay... I'll be back in a minute' I said and headed towards the teachers lounge.

'You okay Clara?' Adrien asked as I came in the staff room.

'Yeah just need to pee. Baby's seem to think bladders are chew toys' I said and wandered into the bathroom.

'You have a class are they okay?' He asked and I nodded.

'Yeah, just writing an es-' I said and stopped talking, I lent on the door frame.

'Would you stop' I said looking down and Adrien looked confused.

'You should sit down' he said and led me towards the chair.

'It's fine Adrien, it's just that its started kicking about 10 minutes ago' I said and begged him for a cup of tea.

'Here' he handed it to me and I smiled gratefully.

'Thanks, I really needed this' I said and he smiled sitting next to me.

'I hopped into your class and dismissed them to the study centre' he said and I nodded.

'Thanks, I'm being such a pain, I can't believe it's kicking, it's all very real now that I'm fat and it's moving' I said and he shook his head.

'Your really not fat for 16 weeks Clara' he said. 'Anyway, isn't 16 weeks a bit early for it to be kicking?' He asked.

Realistically yes. But I can't tell him it's because my baby is half alien and that it develops quicker, which is why it is kicking already. 'No. Seams okay to me' I said,

We sat in a comfortable silence for a few minutes.

'Clara, is it still kicking?' He asked and I smiled. 'Yeah, why. It's just like its father, always kicking away... Just like Autumn did' I said and he grinned.

He was there all through Autumn and he was the first one to feel Autumn kick.

'Can I Ummm... Could I?' I cut him off.

'Sure you can, go for it' I said and moved his hand onto my stomach. I really can't stand it when people ask, just go for it, is my opinion.

He was mesmerised. I sort of felt bad that the Doctor wasn't here to feel it but yeah, I like Adrien so he should have a feel.

It doesn't bother me though people touching my stomach and feeling, there just curious.

'Clara could I tell you something?' He asked and I smiled nodding.

'Yeah sure, I can keep secrets' I said and he smiled half heartedly.

'It's just, I think I may have got my girlfriend pregnant, well by think I mean that I have she told me' he said and I looked at him.

'Oh wow Adrien, that's great news... When's it due?' I asked him.

'November' he said and I smiled. 'Your nervous, don't worry. The doctors freaking out so your not alone, you'll get there and if you need any help just let me know. And your great with Autumn.' I said and he smiled.

'Yeah, thanks Clara, this really helped' he said and I headed off.

The last lesson I had was a free so I just went home mainly because I was excited to see him now.

'Hey' I said and he smiled but he was in the kitchen starting dinner.

'I take it your not going to want what we're having?' I was slightly disappointed that it wasn't kicking or moving right now, I wanted him to feel it.

'I dunno, what you making?' I asked.

'Pizza' He said and I realised that Autumn was in the kitchen/ I decided then to follow him in there and stopped abrupt.

'Ow, there it goes again' I said and he gave me a look. 'What?' He said.

'It's kicking again Doctor' I announced. 'Again?' He said shocked.

'Can I Umm-' he asked. 'Give me your hand you big space goof' I said placing his hand on my stomach.

'Oh wow, it's moving' he said smiling.

'Yeah, I'm nervous now. It's really going for it' I said.

'Don't move' he said. I heard him take the dinner out of the oven and then came back into the lounge with Autumn.

'Okay, Autumn, you know we said that Mummy's pregnant, and she's going to have another baby, do you want to feel that baby?' He asked her and sat her next to me.

She looked at me. 'Mummy, have baby' she said. 'Yes, mummy have a baby' I said. Then I took her hands and made sure the baby was kicking, and placed her hands on my stomach.

She took them off then and she looked at me funny.

She's 16 months old now and so I suppose it's a bit much for her to understand or make any sense of this, especially when there's something moving inside of me, she might find that a bit confusing.

I put her hand back on and she moved away frightened. 'It's okay Autumn. It's supposed to be moving' I assure her but she moved closer to him.