shuichi pov

i woke to the sound of the monokubs yelling good morning through the screen. as much as i didn't want to get up , i had to. i uncovered myself of the blankets and stood up from the bed and went to my closet grabbing my uniform.

i changed and brushed my hair , my ahoge ( is that how its spelled? >~<) still flinging up in place , somehow . i walk to my door and turn the handle , opening the door. i walk out and look my door . I go to the cafeteria and see kokichi , he looked at me and then lightly blushed , sure I wanted to be kokichi's friend but then I would have second thoughts about it. Kokichi was ... weird. He would stare out into space and act kinda dead sometimes , I didn't really like it when he did that , he would be really creepy . He waved slightly and walked with rantaro . I decided to just walk with kiibo , I had planned to confess to keade about my feelings for her. Things were going as planned till someone tapped on my shoulder. I look behind me to see kokichi. Ugh does he have to bother me now?!

"Hey kokichi"

Hopefully he doesn't bother me for too long

"Hey shuichi can you follow me to the hallway by the men's bathroom?"

I look down at kokichi in a confused expression. "I guess?" I replied a little bit of annoyance in my voice but he grabs my hand and leads me towards the location.

"So I-I Needed to tell you something"

"Okay what is it?"

"..."

i stare at him waiting for an answer

"Just tell me already before I leave!"

Kokichi jumps as I raised my voice

"I-I'm s-sorry , I ... I-i just don't know how to say this..."

I roll my eyes , what was he trying to say? Why couldn't it wait after I confessed to keade? I decided to be more nicer I mean he was already shaking . He was just wasting my time . But why was my heart beating so fast?

"I-I..."

I turn my attention back to him

"I-I... I love you s-saihara-Chan!!!"

I Stood in shock , feeling warmth on my cheek , what did he just say?

" h-huh?"

"I-i said I love you , y-you idiot!"

He closed his eyes as if to be worried about something. I paused for a moment , replaying the words in the words , I look at him and tears fill up his eyes .

"Y-y....you don't feel the same way....don't you?"

"I'm sorry but-"

"I-it's fine..."

kokichi sadly smiled as if his world was just torn apart , it kinda hurt my heart to look at his face ,wait maybe he was just lying? Ugh I need to get back to keade , before I can reply a tear falls down his cheek

"d-damnit r-rantaro why did you g-give me such s-stupid confidence..."

I heard kokichi mumble before he turned around muttering other words under his breath as he wiped his eyes and ran away.

Was he lying? That actually looked like real tears. Damn I feel bad now.

Kokichi POV

I ran towards rantaro wanting to yell at him . I found him talking to keade "YOU ASSHOLE!!" I choked on my  tears

k-kokichi?" He asked "did it not go we-" I stopped running , Falling to My knees , my heart felt like it got ripped out of my chest "NO IT DIDNT HE DOESN'T LOVE ME! H-he... never *hic* will.." I lowered my voice facing the fact that I didn't want till I heard his voice "hey keade! I really n-" my eyes widen seeing his face made my heart break more "why? .... Why?.... why did I ever fall in love with saihara-Chan?" I say to myself I felt a hand touch me . I slapped it away violently hearing a loud slapping noise. I look up , rantaro held his hand with his eyes widened , I realized what I done "th-this m-must be what d-despair feels l-like.... heh... it honestly feels terrible....god I'm a horrible human being..." I got up "I'm sorry for being around.... " I run to my dorm and close my door looking it .

I grabbed my knife and pulled up my sleeve , revealing past cuts I had , I thought of him again and pressed the knife against my skin seeing pink dots form ,get bigger, and then slowly fall down my arm.

Ever time I thought of him I made another cut. Making about five

Then ten...

Then thirteen...

Then sixteen..

I added more and more thinking about my hopeless love .

After I'm done , I place the ,now pink, blade to the ground and grabbed a salt packet I had on my nightstand and ripped it open. Lightly dumping it on my new cuts , I jerked as it touched my bloody wounds. More tears streaming down my face.

Shuichi pov

His face seemed empty as he said that

i ran after kokichi , I didn't even know what I was doing. But I thought I loved keade? Could it be? Do I have feeling for kokichi?

I ran up the stairs to kokichi's room . i take one of the keys kokichi gave me and open his door.

i look around his room to see him on the floor next to his bed. he was hugging his legs and placing his head on his knees. I ran to him . i didn't notice that there was something worse about him until i got closer.

there was a knife right next to him covered in blood...

My eyes widen as I grab his face to make sure he was still alive .examine . he looked up at me

"shuichi?!"

he looked terrified .

"Kokichi?! Why did you cut yourself?!" I exclaimed

"W-why do you c-care...?"

"B-because-"

....

"B-because..."

........

"B-because I love you too..."

I lean in and press my lips against his gently.

Hey guy hope you enjoyed that angsty chapter too me a while to write to so I hope it was worth it , this is I think my first time writing an angst chapter , especially for Saiouma! Heehee!!! Well have a wonderful night everyone!

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