thoughts

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Tommy woke up. It was 9 a.m. The blond wasn't able to sleep well. He thought about the time he has left all night.

The last day is tomorrow. Or something. I don't get this at all.

Tommy sighed

So, today is Ranboo's party. I should get him white tulips, and maybe for myself. Where do I even want to die? Maybe next to Wil? Or L'Manberg? No, that only brought me pain. What about Ranboo. Next to everyone would be nice, right? But they all find me annoying. So alone? Maybe a hill? A flower forest! I like butterflies, so dying next to them might be for the best. But then no one would know. Maybe I'll write a book, that I died and leave it next to me in a chest! Yes, that sounds go-...

A terrifying thought interrupted him. A thought, he wished never crossed his mind.

What if Dream found it.

What if he did?!

He would revive me and put me... and no one would know...

Tommy's breathing quickened.

What if ghost me doesn't know about my intentions and walks to the others? I have to write a book for him, right? This is so complicated!!

"Fuck...", Tommy muttered. He started  tapping his leg in a certain rhythm and then tapped slower and slower, to prevent him having a panic attack.

Tap. Tap.. Tap..Tap...Tap...Tap....Tap.....

He let out a deep breath. After calming down he collected himself again.

I'll just look for a flower forest and field and get the tulips. Then I'll disappear from the party and will die in the forest alone. I'll figure things out if someone revives me. Let's be careful, nonetheless.

The 17-year-old stood up and got ready to go out. He left the SMP and walked aimlessly to the east.

Tommy walked and walked. His mind often strayed, but he walked and walked and walked. He heard the quiet forest life, with it's many birds and insects. He felt his feet on the ground and the wind on every inch of his body. He saw the colours surrounding him. Green leaves and brown dirt. The blue and white sky, the red and white mushrooms. These were all things he would never see again after his next death.

Suddenly a noise caught his attention.

BZZZZZZZZ BZZZZZZ

Bees? Tommy looked around. He saw some bees flying around not caring about the boy's presence. The blond began following them. Bees meant flowers, flowers meant a flower forest or field and that means he's near his destination.

He looked at the clock he brought with him, to not lose track of time. Ranboos party starts in 2 hours.

Of course, he could've just looked at the giant sphere in the sky, but that would hurt his eyes too much. A clock is a very useful invention for sure.

Tommy ran in the direction of the bees. A sudden light blinded him. He stood still adjusting his eyes to the light. He opened his eyes fully and saw it. A field covered with the most beautiful flowers. It even reached the horizon.

How did noone find or tell about this pog place?

Tommy proceeded. He felt so relieved like he has seen the one thing he wanted to see before his death. He looked around and saw roses and tulips in every possible colour. Poppies, dandelions, medallions, daisies, Windflowers, and more. A little 'wow' escaped the blond's mouth as he stared in awe.

Bugs flew around, birds sang their love songs and rabbits munched on the vegetation around.

This place looks so peaceful.

I'd like to stay here longer, but Ranboo...

Tommy smiled. Maybe he got this addiction to flowers from the bee boy Tubbo? It didn't matter to him anyway. He picked a bunch of white with a few purple flowers and waved goodbye to the field.

Maybe I am crazy, for waving goodbye to a flower field, but it's not that bad, I guess.

Tommy left and made his way to his house.

He still had about 30 minutes until the party officially began, when he arrived at home. He dressed up neatly for the occasion and made his way to Ranboo's and Tubbo's with flowers in hand.

20 more minutes. I'm almost there, so it doesn't matter.

The blond continued and looked up in surprise. A huge mansion stood next to the little house.

Damn the builders were fast! Where do I ring the bell now?

He walked around and saw a few balloons at the entrance of the mansion.

Guess I found the front.

Tommy rang the bell and saw a tall person open the door.

"Hello Tommy, good to see you! Please come in.", Ranboo said as he stepped out of the way. The enderman wore the suit he always wears, but it somehow looked different as well. Was it the tie? Maybe the pin? "Hello Ranboo, sorry I'm early, I brought you some flowers and I wanted to apologize because I kinda fucked up yesterday." "Don't worry about it. That's the way things are right now. Thanks for the flowers. They look very beautiful. Come in!"

Tommy came inside and looked around. The interior was decorated nicely. It was very colourful inside. Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, and more. A bunch of Flowers put they're slowly wilting blossoms for show.

How beautiful.

Tommy smiled to himself.

"We are now at the main area, where we'll be staying most of the time." Ranboo sounded a bit nervous, but that's only to be expected. It was his last ever full day in the living realm. Tommy however was less nervous about dying than Ranboo.

It was scarier to tell people that he'll die soon, so he might not tell at all.

"You don't have to worry big man. The afterlife might've sucked for me because Wilbur was really annoying, but I think it'll be alright. You'll meet Mexican Dream in the afterlife! That'll be cool, right?" Ranboo chuckled a bit. "Thanks, Tommy, I'm just scared to leave." "You can always count on me. Try to make as many happy and good, maybe chaotic memories as possible. You can create a diary in Limbo and write everything down, to not forget your family and friends."

I'll be there as well so you don't have to worry Ranboo.

"Thanks."

There was a small grunt all of a sudden and a Tubbo coming into the room. He looked tired. At least for Tommy, he did. The blond got nervous. I have to apologize, right? Fuck. I hate this. This stress. He sighed. "Finally decided to come down." The ram blinked a few times, probably trying to blink the exhaustion away. "Yeah" He yawned. "Tommy is already here. Guess I won the bet." What bet is Ranboo talking about? "What?" Tubbo looked up, focusing on his surroundings. "Oh... Hello Tommy..."

Seems like he regrets screaming at me.

"Hello, Tubbo..." the little pigman jumped around into his black and white dad's arms. "God, now you're jumping around like a goat as well." Everyone chuckled. Tubbo and Tommy looked back at one another. "Look, I'm sorry", both of them started and started laughing about this coincidence.

Seems like everything will turn out just fine.

DING DONG

Tubbo and Ranboo opened the door for the... maybe 7th time now, greeting their guests while Tommy just sat on a couch and looked at his glass full of coke. He was going to die and never be able to taste any alcohol. But drinking and getting drunk while being a minor was out of the question for him. Why did he even think about this?

"Hello, Tommy." a familiar monotone voice said. "Hello, Techno." He turned his head and looked at the Pig-hybrid. Tommy was happy and nervous to see his family again. "Wow, I am deeply hurt, Tommy. Are you not going to greet me, your brother? What about Phil?", a brunette in a brown trench coat said. "Shut up Wilbur!", Tommy was annoyed by his brother. "Oh prime, let's try to get along today for Ranboo's sake, okay?" The crow-winged man said while adjusting his green and white bucket-hat. Tommy looked in Philza's eyes with an unamused look.

I guess for Ranboo.

Tommy sighed. He stood up and walked over to the buffet. He avoided speaking with anyone. They all had something against him, so it's easier to avoid a possibly uncomfortable conversation when one's not talking at all. The blond grabbed whatever was near him and started eating.

"So, since when have you been here?" Tommy choked. He coughingly looked up to see his pig hybrid brother. Techno helped Tommy and gave him a cup of water. "Du-*cough*... Dude... what the fuck?!" Tommy stopped coughing and looked his brother straight in the eyes. "What do you mean. Was the greatest of them all startled?" Techno laughed at his joke. Only a little though. "You should really start wearing bells or something. You are so damn silent, even though you have fucking hooves for feet!" Tommy laughed as well.

Damn. I gotta work on my hearing. All the wars and shit ruined my ears. I shou-...

oh...

it doesn't matter anymore, does it?

Well, whatever.

"You alright? You look kind of disappointed. Am I that disappointing of a sight" The monotone voiced brother of his brought the blond back to reality. "It's fine. Just thinking about stuff."

Tommy looked around, searching for a new topic. The blond's eyes landed on something. "Did you make these?", Tommy pointed at some skewers. "Those weren't there 30 minutes ago." "Yeah, I made them. You wanted those, so here they are." Tommy's eyes sparkled a bit. "You wouldn't mind if I tasted them right? The tongue of the great Tommyinnit would love to inspect and taste them." Tommy looked proud and confident as he smiled. "Oh, but of course Mr. Innit. Please give me your honest opinion on my fine cooking.", the pig-hybrid bowed down as he said those words. They walked over to the skewers and Tommy grabbed one. He ate them like a gentleman, well sort of. He was standing and ate without any silverware, but he had the vibes of someone important and rich, well educated, and a lady-killer. Maybe that of an asshole as well. Not like Tommy thought he was any less. Except the latter.

"These are very fine good sir. Your cooking is acceptable." Tommy burst out laughing not long after. Techno smiled a bit. It was a very small smile, but noticeable from up close. "So, you want to join the others? We should use the time we have left with Ranboo.", Techno said. "Sure", Tommy answered immediately.

How weird. Techno never acted like this before. Not that I remember.

I like this, so no complaints here.

Tommy smiled as the two of them walked over to Ranboo and Tubbo.

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AN:

Hey people!
I finished this chapter as well. This story is very chaotic and not well-written, I know, but I hope you enjoyed nonetheless!

If you have questions ask them like always.

Til next time!