(Guys i'm skipping the album release party don't got the mental capacity and here's Mara's album song list and btw Jacob is her dad's first name )

Boo'd Up

Garden (Say it like dat)

Nobody But You

Not a Love Song

Pressure

Higher

The Weeknd

Spread Thin

Pray It Away

BeetleJuice

Bout Mine

Free Mind

Amara was now headed to a interview her mom had set up for her with a weird feeling in her arms and stomach.She had a few days to go before she had to travel to the states for Rolling Loud so her mom thought this was the perfect opportunity to make the 'public excited'.Not caring about Mara's mental which was at a all-time low.The anniversary of Jacob Campbell's death was soon approaching and Amara was shutting everybody and everything out like she usually did.It wasn't that she was mad at anyone.She wasnt.It was that she hated talking about her feelings.Straight up despised it.She hated people feeling bad for her, the pity.She hated that one look that they all gave her.She hated sympathy with a passion so that look always got her mad.

Not one of the people she tried opening too gave her a look of...

Understanding

She just wants to be understood.It was as if nobody understood her or how she felt.She would do anything just to be-

"Amara!" Angelina her interview says greeting her.Amara quickly looks up and warmly smiles at the woman standing up and giving her a quick hug.She's soon led into a well decorated room with a tan coach for her to sit down on.She sits down and is quickly given a bottle of water.

Amara's Outfit

Amara's Makeup

Amara's Hair

"So this interview is just going to be talking about your new album and stuff concerning Rolling Loud" Angelina says settling in. "Ok.Shoot" she says eager to start the interview."Ok so I love the album by the way but I listened to this one certain song and it's been stuck in my head." she says turning the recorder on. Mara nods smiling."Pray it Away.It's such a beautiful song but i was just wondering if you can go more into depth on it".

Mara nods thinking of her answer. "Of course.A few days before 'Pray It Away' came into existence, I was in a really toxic draining relationship.And then I found out he cheated on me.I was crushed.We had been together for two years and it was just over. I wanted to set the whole world on fire even though I felt like it was my fault.But after time pondering on it I realized I have the right to be angry over it.He threw US away. But I knew I had to find another way to chanel the anger I had so I prayed.I prayed in what had felt like forever.And I soon got over it and this song was born." Mars says taking a drink of water after.Angelina nods smiling. "So yeah.The song is more about finding a higher power of your choice to confide in with your problems than it being a breakup song.It still has elements of a breakup song but more or less" Mara finishes off adjusting herself in her seat.

"Yea I found it to be one of my favorites off the album.Speaking of how does it feel now that your sophomore album is finally out after all the awaited anticipation leading up to it.". "It's a experience to say the least.Going through all everything all over again but it's fun because your going back to doing what you love at the same time".Angelina smiled warmly at her. "Great answer because we all know and love your music.I started screaming when you announced the album" Angelina says fangirling a little bit. Amara laughs a little."Aww Thank you.This album ment so much to me and i'm so glad that you love it" she says grinning. Angelina soon starts up on the BET Awards that were coming up soon.

"So i've been hearing you've nominated for six BET Awards! How exciting." Angelina says taking a sip of her water. Amara slightly chuckles "Yeah it is.I've been nominated for Album of the year,Video of the Year,Best Collab,Best Female R&B/Pop Artist Artist of the Year , and Best International Act.". "Wow that's ludicrous" Angelina says in awe."It really is when i found out i was in major shock.Like I had just put these out and i'm now nominated.It really is a blessing" amara says trying to maintain the conversation."You're even performing aren't you" Angelina says.Amara nods since she forgot she was.You can't blame her though her mental was all over the place at the moment

                                                                                                TW

Amara has finally arrived home and the feeling in her arms and stomach were getting worse by the minute.Her heart was starting to beat out of her chest and she wanted everything to stop.Make it stop.Her hands shook as she put the key in the keyhole and entered her house.

"Nells! Julie!" Mara says frantically dropping her purse on the kitchen counter.She looks around and calls out there name again when she finally sees Nella's text.

Nells💖

me and Juliet went to visit Chunkz and Sharky will be back late love you

A radiant pain shoots through her chest making her drop her phone falling to the ground. She whispers out a almost silent plea for help but no one answers.She dials her moms number but it goes to voicemail immediately.She dials Juliet and Nella's but to no avail.

She tries to scream but nothing comes out.It was like she was underwater.She tries her breathing exercises but it just makes it worst.She starts to look up at the sky to stop the tears from her eyes but they kept on flowing.She looks to the kitchen hearing a sound but her stomach drops as if she was on a roller coaster

"No.NO! This isn't-This cant-" she says shaking her head and gripping her hair. Jacob looked at her in sympathy as pain radiats through Mars body over and over again."No you're not real.YOU DIED!" she screams at the figure who was just staring at her.She blinks trying to get him out her mind but he stays there but now with blood gashing out of his head.

Amara gasps as he keeps on approaching her grabbing a glass plate and throwing it at him."NO! I'm sorry.I'm so sorry.Why-No please.Please go away.I'm sorry go away" she says bawling.And as soon as she did a tear slid down her father's face and he mouthed a silent "I love you" which made Mara break down sobbing.She wraps her arms around her body and holds herself slightly rocking.Her mouth shook as she let out an agonizing cry.She just wanted to fade away without a trace.She sat there for a while and she stared at her phone after a moment picking it up.She scrolled through her messages and clicked on one conversation

Mars

Hey.Can you come over

Cee

Ofc are you okay

Mars

Not really.

Can you just come over please

Cee

Omw

A sharp knock awoke Luna out of her trance and she walked to the door unlocking it and opening it.Cee looks up and takes one look at Amara's red puffy eyes and tear stricken face and pulls her into a hug.They just stand in the door way hugging and Mara gently sobs into his shoulder.Cee absent mindly closes the door behind him and he leads Mara onto the couch and they pull away.Amara looks down in embarrassment and realizes something. "Were you working" she says worried. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have called.You were busy I-". "Fuck that Mars i'm more worried about you" he says interrupting her.

"What happened" He says tipping her head up and searching her eyes.She stares into his eyes and a tear falls down her face. "I don't know.It's like my whole existence is falling apart and I don't know if I want too..." she says putting her head down. "I feel as if the only person in the world that's fighting for me is me.Everybody else dosen't give two fucks. And I'm barely fighting anymore" she says looking up. "And I don't wanna bother anyone but it sucks having to keep it bottled up all the damn time." she finishes off and Oakley looks at her with a face nobody have given her before.

Understanding

He pulls her into him and she cries against his chest."You should've told me.I want you to be able to tell me" Oakley whispers a while after Mara calmed down."I didn't want you to give me one of those looks everyone gives me when i try and tell them" she says softly her arms wrapped around his torso. "Always tell me from now on.Cus I would stay a thousand hours" he says whispering the last part.Amara nods against his chest tiredly.

"Hey you wanna take a shower.I heard that can help with this sort of thing." Oakley says out of the blue.Amara looks up at him and nods gently pushing herself off of him.She walks to her bathroom and takes a shower not bothering to put on music.When she's done she slips on mickey mouse pajama pants and a old graphic tee on.She walks back in to her kitchen to see Cee cleaning the broken glass on the floor.He sweaps the glass into the dustpan and dumps it in the trash.

"You didn't have to do that.I would've done it" Mara says rubbing her eyes and walking over to him.He puts down the broom leaning it on the table."It's fine it was just one" he says as she wraps him in a hug.

"I just realized I don't know your name" Amara says still hugging him."It's Oakley" he says looking down at her head. Amara thinks for a minute and smiles."It's nice" she whispers and he smiles.

"Thank you" she whispers into his chest.They had been in a hug for what seemed like forever but they both didn't want to let go " For what" Cench says looking down at her. "For being here with me" she says looking up at him.They both stare into each others eyes and Amara suddenly had the urge to kiss him.She leaned into him and they both maintained eye contact not wanting to stop. Her eyes flashed to his lips and his did to hers.Oakley then connects their lips in a kiss none of them wanted to break.

Both of their lips caressed the others and Amara felt like she was floating.His hand flew to her cheek and her hands swung to his neck as the kiss continued.Butterflies are steadfast fluttering in her stomach but she didn't care.She was with him

They both pulled away from each other after a minute and put their heads together, Oakley caressing her cheek.

"Do you know how long i've wanted to do that"

A/N Speakssss

Ok so tell me why I was having a panic attack and thought of this chapter.Like my mind sometimes .And I was fr watching Proud Family while watching the last one soooo

But wtv Don't be a silent reader and sending loveeee