We may not know which way to go

On this dark road

(Mr. Duckworth)

All of these hoes make it difficult

Session ten, breakthrough

One of these lives, I'ma make things right

With the wrongs I've done, that's one of you now

With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight

Rain on me, put the blame on me

Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me

Got six magazines that's aimed at me

Done every magazine, what's fame to me? (And I'm trippin' and fallin')

It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?

Sleep, I ain't had affairs with that

What's fair when the hearts and the words don't reach?

What's fair when the money don't take things back?

It's rare when somebody take your dreams back? (And I'm trippin' and fallin')

Amara wakes up in a sudden panic.Where was she? She look around terrified and a sharp pain shoots throughout her leg causing her to yelp out.She starts to jump up but somebody rushes to her as she winces in pain.The person pushes her down on the bed hurting her more.She opens her eyes as she sees a nurse who seemed to be panicking?

"Oh my gosh!I'm so sorry.I didn't mean to push you down I was just trying to calm you down" the seemingly young nurse rambles off to Mara.Mara looks around and realized where she was.A hospital.

"Are you my doctor?" Amara says utterly confused. "No I-I'm doing my residency.I'm so sorry Ms.Campbell I never meant to hurt you.I love your music.I'm so sorry" the young girl says and Amara shakes her head.

"Honey you're fine, can you please tell me what happened to me? Why am I here?" she says and the nurse's eyes widen. "You don't remember?" she asks in shock. "No..." Amara says, shaking her head after a while. "Um lemme call everyone else back in here." the nurses says quickly running out of the room being replaced by Nella,Dave and Tyler.

Wait, why was Tyler here? She hadn't seen him in over a year.He was supposed to be recording. What the fuck was happening.Nella wraps her arms around Amara's eyes dart around the room at everyone's faces.

"What happened?" She says scared.

"So I got shot" Mara says trying to wrap her head around the bs they just said.If she got shot then why did she not remember anything. Her eyes look around the room as she realizes someone was missing. In fact two people were missing.

"Where the fuck is Cee and Juliet then" she says confused. Everyone's faces go more solemn than ever causing Mara's heart to jump in fear.

"Cee's on his way Mara.They wouldn't let him leave where he was when he heard" Nella says quietly. "Ok what about Juliet" she smiles hearing Cee was safe. Everyone in the room stays silent, making Mars worried again.

I care too much, wanna share too much

In my head too much, I shut down too

I ain't there too much, I'm a complex soul

They layered me up, then broke me down

And moralities dust, I lack in trust (and I'm trippin' and fallin')

This time around, I trust myself

Please everybody else but myself

All else fails, I was myself

Out done fear, out done myself

This year, you better one yourself (and I'm trippin' and fallin')

She smiles confused at the silence. "Where Juliet" she says as a tear falls down Nella's cheek. "Amara she- she got shot she's in a coma" and Amara's whole body goes numb.You know that feeling when you're at the top of a rollercoaster and you suddenly fall? That's exactly how Amara felt but ten times worse.

"You're-You're joking right.This just one of your random pranks right?" Amara says trying to reassure herself. "Jokes over.Julie can come out now." she says looking over in hopes to see her little sister pop out of the bathroom or something.

"I'm so sorry Amara" Tyler says and Amara freezes in terror.No.This can't be happening.She wouldn't allow it. "Where is she?" she says taking the iv out of her arm which pinched a little.
Everyone jumps up to go stop her but Amara dosen't stop as they try to get her back in the bed.

"WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE!" she says as tears pur down my face.Everyone in the room looked at each other as Amara never shouted.I mean never.

"220" Tyler says and Amara limps out as fast she can with her crutches that she had picked up.She looks around the corridor until she finds the room barging in to see her baby sister with tubes everywhere in her body.

A gasp leaves her body and tears cloud her eyes.

Masks on the babies, mask on an opp

Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shot

But a mask won't hide who you are inside

Look around, the realities carved in the lies

Wipe my ego, dodge my pride (and I'm trippin' and fallin')

Look myself in the mirror

Amityville, I ain't seen nothin' scarier

I fought like a pit bull terrier, blood I shed could fill up aquariums

Tell my angels, "Carry 'em" (and I'm trippin' and fallin')

Every emotion been deprived

Even my strong points couldn't survive

If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg

She walks over to the sixteen year old carefully cradling her face. "No.No.You- this-no" she says whispering as heavy sobs leave her body. "NO!" she screams trying to shake her sister awake. "WAKE UP!" she screams as she still trying to shake her.People rush into the room but Mara dosen't care.She didn't care about anyone but Juliet in that moment.

Everyone stares unsure of what to do as Amara sobs cradling Juliet's face utterly broken. "No.Wake up.Julie i'm right here ok.Wake up for me." she whispers as her hands shake.

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me

(And I'm tripping and falling)

(And I'm tripping and falling)

(And I'm tripping and falling)

(And I'm-)

Amara now stared at the wall in complete and total numbness.This was her fault.If she had just went home by herself Juliet wouldn't be in a comatose state.Juliet would be fine.Amara would be dead.She wished she was dead.

It wasn't that she was suicidal, It was that she would rather die than see anyone she loved in pain.And that state Juliet was in, that was pain.That was torture.Cee came a few minutes later had stayed the night with her as everybody else needed to find a hotel they could sleep in.Nella was still here though just in Juliet's room.

It was four now.Amara couldn't sleep.She felt she didn't deserve to sleep.She aimlessly looked at the wall in tiredness.She here's a slight noise and slowly turns her head to boyfriend who layed in bed with her.She turns her head back and slowly gets uo making sure not to wake Oakley up.She groans quietly as her leg screamed in pain.She walked into the bathroom and quietly closed the door.She stared at herself in her mirror.Her face was sunken in ,her shoulder wrapped up and her eyes were bright red from crying.She stares at herself in the mirror for a minute and tears start to flow down her eyes.

How was this happening to her.She was just returning from an award show and now her sister was in a coma.Sobs shook through her body as she tried to hold on to the counter for support.A knock on the door ripples through the air as her chest heaves from her sobs.

"Mars, Can you open the door for me" Oakley asks knocking on the door again. "Baby go back to bed" she says her voice shaking. "Amara please" he says trying to convince her to open up.Mara sighs knowing he won't leave and opens the door siting back on the bed.He sits right next to her and they both sit in utter quiet.

"Mara i'm so sorry" Cee says finally stopping the loud silence.Amara turns to him confused. "If I hadn't picked that stupid fight this wouldn't have happened.I should've known you werent cheating on me.I should've trusted you and i'm so sorry" Oakleys voice cracks as he tears roll down his face.

Amara engulfs him in a hug just as quick. "Cee this is not you're fault.Ok somebody planned this.I should've known better" she says whispering as she quietly sobs. "Amara you can't blame yourself for this.This isn't your fault no matter what your mind says to convince you otherwise" Oakley says and Amara justs nods as she continues to sob.

"I love you Amara" Cee whispers in her ear and Amara just continues to hug him."I love you too" she says as Cee gives her temple a kiss.

The next day Amara had woke up before everybody else just so she could see Juliet by herself.She had just sat there and stared at her little sister as her hands shook.Mara took Juliets hand and held it.

"I remember when Dad died you would never go to sleep unless I sang you this song" Amara says laughing sadly."Everynight I would sneak into your room and I would sing until you drifted off into bed and I had to tuck you in" she says somberly remembering the memories.

Amara starts to hum remembering the song as her eyes start to water as she sings

"When the night has come

And the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we'll see

No, I won't be afraid

Oh, I won't be afraid

Just as long as you stand

Stand by me

So darlin', darlin', stand by me

Oh, stand by me

Oh, stand

Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon

Should tumble and fall

Or the mountain should crumble to the sea

I won't cry, I won't cry

No, I won't shed a tear

Just as long as you stand

Stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me

Oh, stand by me

Oh, stand now

Stand by me, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me

Oh, stand by me

Oh, stand now

Stand by me, stand by me

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me

Oh, stand by me

Won't you stand by"Amara sings quietly as she sobs.

"I'm so sorry Julie" 

A/N

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