BONUS CHAPTER

2 YEARS AFTER AMINA'S BIRTH


Amara felt her ears ringing as she stared at the positive pregnancy test in front of her. She felt tears sting up on her eyes as the small house party/get together went on outside her bathroom doors. She felt gentle knocks on her door as she answered with a weak "Yeah?" as she felt her voice scratch. "Yo Mars you good in there?" Walid asked as Amara's eyes widened. "Yeah! Just give me a sec!" She said as her eyes scoured the whole bathroom as she frantically started picking up the pregnancy test box. She stuffed everything into the disposable grocery bag she brought with her as she quicked dabbed at her eyes so everything appeared fine.

She swiftly came out shooting a small smile at Walid who gave her a confused one while questions raced through her head.


'How far along was she?'

'Has she drunk alcohol recently?'

'How is her husband going to react??'

'How will her child react???'


She felt a headache coming on as she remembered how hard she took her last pregnancy. Even though she loved Amina with everything in her being everyone knew the pregnancy was hard on Amara. She almost died in labor and then after she felt such a large detachment from her daughter she developed post-partum. But Amara knew that once she saw the two blue lines on the test she knew she loved her unborn baby more than life itself. She gently took the test out of the bag as she stared at it. She felt her heart seemingly expand in her chest when someone knocked on her door.

"Yeah?" She called out as two year old Amina walked in. "Mama, Daddy told me to come check on you" She said making Amara smile picking up her daughter. She felt a twinge of guilt pinch her chest as she remembered how many arguments the couple had been getting in mainly because of her. She nonetheless followed her daughter out sitting down on the couch next Cench who out of instinct wrapped his hand with Amara's. She tapped him on the hand making him look to her as she mouthed a 'I'm Sorry'. He pulled her into his arm kissing her head making everyone in the room groan at the PDA. "Forgiven?" she asked as Amina jumped into her arms as Oakley shrugged.


"I was never really that mad anyways"


Amara laid down on her bed with her airpod pro maxes on as she listened to the beat Ettinnette made for her over and over again as she wrote down random blurb lyrics down. She takes them off however when she notices her husband packing. "You leaving me now?" she jokes getting out of the bed as he laughs quietly feeling her arm swing around his neck. "I got the thing with Asake, remember?" He said making her heart sink but she nonetheless shrugged it off smiling which Oakley immediately noticed making him frown.

"What's wrong?" he said cradling her face as she shook her head. "Nothing. Me and Amina we'll meet you there." She says giving a small smile kissing his cheek as he studied her face. "You sure you're okay? Don't lie" he asked concerned as she smiled kissing his knuckle gingerly. "I'm fine Oakley." she said as he gave her the look that told her he didn't really believe her.

It just wasn't the right time to tell him.


2 weeks later


Amina jumped on her mother immediately waking her up. "Dude!" Amara said turning to her daughter who had a huge grin on her face. "Wake up mama!!" She giggled and Amara's face contorted into a smile as she kissed her daughter's chubby cheeks. "Morning my lovely girl. Where's your papa?" She says yawning softly. "He's downstairs making you breakfast." Amina said cuddling into her mom. Amara felt her mouth suddenly water and she gently placed her daughter on the bed rushing to the bathroom. She threw her guts up as she felt little feat peddle into her bathroom. "Momma? Are you okay?" The little girl said and Amara nodded. "Go to your papa baby. Don't tell him about this okay?" She asked as the little girl nodded running off.

Oakley continued to make breakfast oblivious to the whole situation as Amina sat down on the kitchen counter. "What's your mama up to bug?" He asks turning to his daughter was playing with one of her toys. "Throwing up" the young girl says so casually as her father immediately turns around. Amina soon realizes her mistake and looks up with a guilty smiled on her face. "She's sleeping" she says quickly looking down as Cench turned off the fire heading into his room where Amara was still in the bathroom heaving.

"Mars Bars" he says knocking on the door and Amara clears her throat. "Yeah?" She says getting up to clean the disgusting taste out of her mouth. "Open the door please" he says, and she quickly spit out the toothpaste she had in her mouth. She opens the door for him leaning back on the kitchen floor, semi exhausted. "Hey" she weakly smiled at him as he sat down next to her on the floor. He reaches over opening the cabinet and grabbing one of the spare tests they had in there. She looked up at him upset. "This isn't how I wanted to tell you" she said quietly looking down as Oakley's heart jumped.

"You knew?" he asked as she nodded, not meeting his eyes. "Don't be mad. I was going to tell you-Fucking when?" Oakley said, interrupting her as she finally looked up at him. "No. You're not gonna start that with my daughter in the next room. If you're gonna start screaming, wait till she's asleep." She said now with a firm voice as Oakley's heart tightened remembering the countless amount of times Amara cried over her parents relationship and how she swore her kid would never have to go through that. Cench went to apologize but Amara quickly left the room feeling overwhelmed with everything happening with her.



Amara sat down in her backyard reading 'Everything, Everything' by Nicola Yoon as she heard footsteps beside her. She didn't even glance knowing who it was as she drank a sip of water out of her glass. "She's sleeping" Cench muttered sitting down next to her on the porch swing. "Okay. You can yell now" she said setting her book down meeting his eyes putting her best face on so she wouldn't cry in front of him.


She hated when they were mad at each other.



"I'm not gonna yell Mars. I'm just confused to why you didn't tell me" he sighed as she looked down. "All we've been doing is yelling at each other Cee. What opportunity did you present me to tell you?" she asked him. He nodded staying quiet for a moment unsure of what to say. "I still should've known" he whispered as she nodded agreeing. "I know. I'm sorry, I was just scared." She says making him look up confused. "Of?" he asked making her blink back tears threatening to leave her eyes.


Oh how she hated talking about her feelings.


"Talking about it makes it feel more real y'know? And i'm just thinking 'What if this one kills me'?" She said biting her inner lip. "I love Amina with my whole heart and you know that but what if this time I'm not lucky? What if this time I don't get to see my child's face before I leave?" She whispered wiping her cheeks as Oakley's heart broke at the sight of her tears. "That's not gonna happen Mars. Don't even think that" he says pulling her in and kissing her head firmly feeling her shake from the sobs. "I'm not even worried I'll die. I'm worried that I'll hurt the baby. I would never forgive myself if something happened" she said not even daring to look at her husband ashamed she was feeling so vulnerable.

Oakley held Amara close, feeling her tremble with the weight of her fears.

He still got nightmares from that night.

He pressed his lips to her forehead, his own heart aching at her vulnerability. "Amara," he whispered softly, "you are the strongest person I know. We'll get through this together, just like we've gotten through everything else."

Amara sniffled, leaning into his embrace. "I know," she murmured, her voice thick with emotion. "I just... I need you to be patient with me. This pregnancy... it's already so different from the others. I'm scared, Oak. Scared of what could happen."

Oakley nodded, his thumb brushing away a lingering tear from her cheek. "I'm sorry if I put stress on you." he muttered kissing her wet cheek. "You didn't. I'm sorry for the constant arguing." she said as he shook his head.

"I was never really that mad anyways"


A/N

period on me doing a bonus chapter🤗

but ANYWAYSS i'm finna revamp this book so stay tuned!!


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