Your heart is your power, always listen to it.

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Universe has no beginning and no end. You can elope your whole life against it and still be clueless. It has no detachments to anyone. What once is lost; is lost forever. The heart that once was the wildest beast of the forest in a frozen lake now with no future and hope.

I saw the beaming moon in the sky through the window.

Tomorrow is the day when I am going to marry Arnav.

I have never thought that I will get married to someone without having compassion or love.

Now I understand everything. Why do some people bash the word love? Why there are children who have not seen anything special about their parents, why didn't see the sparkle in their eyes, why they have always been called to not feel. Why they didn't die for each other, why did their child always hide behind the clouds?

They didn't marry when they were in love. They didn't marry because they aspire to be each other, they didn't marry to get die for another one day, instead, they married because they had to! They married because they didn't know what love was.

And the circle continues, again and again, that's why most of the people say- don't be a fool enough to love to marry.

I closed my eyes again and thought about my family, my mother and father. How glad they are for me. How happy their heart is.

No power in the world can snatch it from their heart and I am glad at least some people live the way they want.

I saw the book again, the same book of black cover, I need to put it somewhere else.

I hide it inside my cupboard and closed the chapter of my life forever to get peace again.

***

The next day I woke up by hearing the sound of heavy rain.

I stood up and went near the window to glance outside to see the weather only to realise the world has become dark now.

The storm in the ocean has erupted, though there is no ocean in Delhi still  I can feel it, there was no sign of the greatest sun on the earth, or maybe it is there but it has hidden between the clouds.

And a thunderstorm like the velvety ocean announced itself the powerful gesture of the universe.

The droplets of rain were making their way through the air to the land without getting erupted in the process.

How can they be so determined to not lose their path? How can they be determined despite knowing that once they will land on the surface, they will be finished forever, still the passion of their, for the love of the land they do it!

They do everything in their power to meet the surface, they sacrifice their life just to feed us.

I closed my eyes again, opened only when I saw my mother standing near to me.

"What are you looking at?" Her soothing voice was crystal clear, her aura somehow warmed the dripping temperature of the room.

"Nothing!" I let out a whisper.

Maybe I am looking at nothing and everything, maybe I am at nothing and everything.

"Today is a day of your life. Don't take the stress darling," she rubbed my back in an attempt to calm my nerves down.

She is thinking I am anxious about getting married, maybe I am but the question is absurd here.

"Mom, how did you feel when you and dad got married?"

My voice was terrible due to the cold, my hair was tangling in all directions.

She glanced at me for a moment, then a smile spread over her face, "I was worried but your father made it all easy and in a second I realise I was  deeply in love with him,"

"How did you realise when it was love? "
I raised my eyebrows, maybe what I am thinking is not love her persuasion is different than mine.

"What is your definition of the deepest love??" She did a counter-attack on me, her eyes were mischievous, and there were thousands of crystals shining beneath them.

"I do not have a particular definition to describe in words," I seriously don't have! It's indescribable.

You can not describe what is limitless.

"You know the deepest love is when there is no beginning and end. if it ends, it is not love. if you have to find its beginning you have never fallen in love,"

Then she walked away making me more strangle to my thoughts.

***

Downstairs everyone was chatting, the House was decorated with flowers and lights thought lights were not illuminating right now, it's still a day.

It's like Everyone was so happy and with one wrong move of my heart, everything will fall like a castle in the village.

"Don't do it!" Alisha was right beside me, her tone was eccentric thunder made me jump with horror.

"What?"

"Don't get married to that idiot!"

Why is she calling him an idiot? I know he sometimes acts like a dumbhead bachelor, but he still he is not that bad.

"Then what do I do? Suggestions please?"
I rolled my eyes.

"I have made a list. Now listen to me get carefully, " before she could say furthermore, I interrupted her. "I am listening!"

She stared at me like a deadly weapon then silenced me with her finger.

"You can murder him and I will arrange everything for that. You can run away, I will help you in the process. You can kiss another man in front of him and I will accuse him instead of you. And one last thing, you can kick his ass and break his teeth!"

Oh, what a great idea! I admire her artistic view of imagining the future.

I let out a chuckle and she chuckles too with me.

At least her weird indications ease my temper for a second.

I saw Jessica walking from here to there, she was very tense, her whole figure was depressing. The lines on her forehead and her pale eyes were telling me something is extremely wrong.

I need to find it right now!

However, when she looked at me walking towards her. She started moving in another direction.

There is something extremely wrong with this woman and her persona of dealing with the things! And I need to find it right now!

"Jessica, wait!"  I called her name but she didn't respond instead she started running outside.

Outside it was all humid. She would get hurt If she didn't listen to me.

Somehow I catch up with her and patted her back, only to find her crying.

This is the first time in my life I have seen her crying. Her dead eyes were telling me something that I don't want to listen to.

"What happened?" I asked her while panting. There were thousands of scenes that were playing in my mind which I don't want to face right now.

"Neel!" I'd then she cried more, there was no beginning and end of her tears, her tears were flowing on her dead skin, her moist eyes were telling me something horrible.

"What happened to Neel?" My heart came to my mouth.

It's all because of me. She is crying because of me.

But she didn't say anything. Instead, she cried again more and more in her fragile voice.

"Tell me.  damn it!"

"Neel is missing! His cell phone is dead. He has not gone to California!"

And like a stone shattering the beautiful mirror in a second, my heart shattered into thousands of pieces.

I need to find him!

I need to find him right now!

I need to do anything to find him!

I will do anything in my power to find that man!

Thankfully, I had my car keys with me.

I will search for him everywhere. Even in the universe if I have to!

"Where are you going?" I heard her voice.

"To the infinity," I replied.

I ran over the wet grass barefoot and got inside the car.

In a second the engine started leading me anywhere on the roads.

This is all because of me! Why do I have to be so hard on him and myself?

Why is didn't listen to my heart?

Then what about those people who are waiting for you to get married to Arnav?

Then what should I do?

You need to go back home! It's almost the time of evening. You need to be at your home. For heaven's sake, this is your day!

No, you need to find him! If you didn't then you will be regretful for the rest of your life.

No! Listen to me carefully, your parents are waiting for you. Arnav is waiting for you!

Neel was waiting for you for five years, and you didn't give me the chance what he was expecting. How dare you let him go?

I've travelled all the roads of Delhi. He didn't go to the airport in previous days, I have inquired that with my connections.

So where is he?

What is he doing?

Has he eaten something?

What if he is hurt?

Where the hell you are Neel?

I was so lost in my mind that I didn't realise a huge truck was ahead of me and I was in the wrong direction. Before I could do anything to turn it went all black.

My head was spinning. My eyes were heavy with blood. I heard the siren of the police.

Maybe it is what it is!

I think I am dying.

I was out of breathing and lost vision.

Death was ahead of me, covered in all black making me surrender my life to it.

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