Jealous - emu118

Puck snickered as he walked away from Blaine, turning around and feeling a sudden wave of guilt wash over him at the sight of the short boy standing in the middle of the corridor, looking completely lost, betrayed and hopeless. Puck shook that horrid feeling before shrugging and continuing on his walk to glee club.

Of course, Blaine didn't show up and Puck remained silent when Kurt began asking anyone if they'd seen Blaine. When Kurt began texting Blaine and calling him, that twang of guilt pushed at his throat again and threatened to spill the words off of his tongue but Puck pushed the feeling down, rolling his eyes and attempting to focus on Mr. Schue rambling on about the week's assignment being original songs.

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The next day, Blaine showed up to glee club with a frown on his face. The boy was sitting at the opposite side of the room to Kurt who was looking completely rejected as he kept glancing from the floor to his best friend.

"Blaine, you had a song you wanted to sing?" Mr. Schue nodded to the boy, Blaine standing up and moving to the front of the room.

"I, uh, well, I heard what this week's assignment was so I wrote my own song." Blaine paused, looking down at the guitar he'd picked up, "Its- well, I have some... unrequited feelings, lets say. And I'm- well, this song explains everything."

Blaine took a deep breath before beginning to play the opening chords on his guitar, singing when the time came.

I hate where I'm at
Acting crazy like that
I know that I've been wrong
It's something I've been working on

Blaine shook his head, smiling in disbelief at what he was doing. He'd never thought in a million years that he'd admit his feelings, let alone sing about them in front of the whole glee club.

And I don't know what to do
It's changing me, it's killing you
I'd tear out my insides if I could
But I don't know if it'd do me good

Blaine had cried a lot while writing this song. The words were so true and accurate. Blaine had changed a lot since he first recognised his feelings and his changing had also been affecting one of his closest friends.

I'm sorry friends, I'm sorry lovers
To put us all in this mess
I know we've still got each other
But I'm in distress

'Cause every time that I feel like I've figured it out
Can't seem to figure it in
It's got nothing to do with me
It's not even you, you see
It's part of my chemistry
It's this jealousy

It hadn't taken him any longer than half an hour to write this song, most of that time was spent on working out the melody anyway. The words just came so naturally to him and it was like he'd just learnt how to speak and express himself for the first time.

In absolutely no position
To be so needlessly unkind
When I'm the one writing this fiction
Make it real in my mind

As the chord changed, Blaine began bouncing up and down on the stool he'd sat down on. This verse was, once again, true. Blaine knew he had no right or reason to feel this way, he couldn't be jealous of something someone else had if Blaine never had it to begin with.

It drives me crazy in the morning
Who is this monster in the mirror?
I try to get the steam to fog it out
But I just can't get it clear

Finally glancing up from his guitar for the first time since he'd started playing, Blaine took in the various people watching him. For the most part, people seemed to be enjoying the song, a few people seemed slightly confused by the meaning but enjoyed it anyway. Then there was Kurt.

Oh, and I can't stand what I'm feeling
It's just like poison in my veins
I know that I'm speaking
But I don't know what I'm saying

Kurt was watching him intently, a firm gaze set on him indicating he was really listening, not just to the music but to the lyrics as well. Blaine sighed, removing his gaze from Kurt and looking back down at his guitar's neck to make sure he positioned his fingers right.

'Cause every time that I feel like the world just got lighter
It seems that my muscles give out
It's got nothing to do with me
It's not even you, you see
It's part of my chemistry
It's this jealousy

Sighing again, Blaine looked up to meet Kurt's stare, trying to communicate to Kurt that this song about him and also hopefully communicating what it was about exactly.

And I'm hearing your voice
Babe you know it's your choice
Maybe so

I know it's no use
But it's the only excuse
That I know
Know, know...

Blaine's right hand that was strumming his guitar strings sped up and he tore his watery gaze away from Kurt's confused one.

Let me go
Let me go
Oh, let me go
Oh, let me go

Blaine's throat ached everytime he sang that part. The strain he had to put on his voice to sing in the growly tone was a lot. But Blaine forced his way through it anyway.

It was emotional and Blaine felt like he was truly communicating, not only his sadness and confusion, but also his anger.

Now let's be real I've been just like a child
Man, someone could be taking all my toys
So call me dumb, call me wild
See that's the thing with little boys

Blaine shrugged, catching a glimpse of Puck's shuddering shoulders as the boy attempted to conceal a laugh. Blaine frowned at that, wondering what was so funny.

Oh, I know I can't get it out in the shower
Or drink it off at the bar
This sugar's gone sour
And it's gone way too far

Blaine's eyes narrowed, he was staring so intently at Puck that a few people on the front row began to turn around to watch Puck. The boy was openly laughing now, clutching his stomach, Blaine singing on anyway.

'Cause every time that I feel like I'm riding so high, feel on top of the world
The bitch just keeps telling me no
It's got nothing to do with me
It's not even you, you see
It's part of my chemistry

Blaine's eyes, along with the rest of the clubs', widened. He had meant to change bitch to something different. He knew how Mr. Schue felt about swearing. But Puck had been too distracting so Blaine forgot.

This demon is killing me
And, oh, Christ it's filling me
It's this jealousy
Oh, and I just can't believe
In this jealousy
This jealousy for you

Oh, this jealousy
This jealousy for you...

The small crowd in front of him applauded and Mr. Schue stood up, "Well done, Blaine. That was an excellent song and an excellent performance. Although I must remind you to at least try to mute certain words."

Blaine nodded, the glee club chuckling quietly. Blaine sat down next to Puck and leaned over to whisper to the boy, "What were you laughing at?"

"I was kidding, Anderson." Puck patted the boy's shoulder, "i didn't see your boy with a guy. Do you really think Hummel has it in 'im to even think about doing the dirty?"

Blaine's eyes widened, "You-" he cleared his throat when a few heads turned to him at his raised voice. He lowered his volume and spoke again, "You asshole! Why would you tell me Kurt was sleeping with a random guy if he wasn't?"

"Because, Warbler, I know you're in love with Lady Lips and I decided to help you along the way."

"That's not the reason, and you know it."

Puck grinned, "Ok, you got me, I only did it to see you freak. Seriously, if I didn't know Hummel I'd think you were an actual girl with the amount of emotion and mood swings you seem to have."

Blaine rolled his eyes and moved one seat down so he was next to Tina who frowned at him before turning back to Mr. Schue.

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"So, care to explain what that was all about?" Kurt asked casually as the pair of them strolled around a park, take away coffees in their gloved hands.

"Puck."

"That song was about Puck?" Kurt raised an eyebrow, "I didn't know you felt that way about him."

"I don't." Blaine scoffed.

"You don't need to lie to me. You can trust me. I just- Puck? Really, Blaine?"

"I don't like Puck!" Blaine yelled, a few nearby birds jumping up and flying away at the sudden voice.

"Okay, why did you say Puck then?"

Blaine stopped walking and Kurt stopped as soon as he realised, "He told me that he saw you dancing with a random guy at scandals and then leave with him."

Kurt stared at Blaine for a while before laughing loudly, laughing harder at Blaine's pout.

"Why are you laughing at me?" Blaine whined.

"Blaine," Kurt wheezed out, "How could you believe that when Puck, of all people, said he saw me leaving scandals, a gay bar."

Blaine just continued to frown at Kurt so the boy added, "Puck isn't gay, Blaine. He's as straight as they come. What would he be doing at a gay bar?"

"Oh." Blaine said simply before laughing loudly.

Once they'd calmed down Kurt turned to Blaine again and said, "Why did you write a song about being jealous, anyway? If you just thought I had gone off with some guy."

Blaine mouth did his best impression of a fish out of water as he opened and closed her mouth many times before finally saying, "Maybe I was sort of jealous of the guy you were going off with. Maybe I wanted to be that guy."

Kurt's mouth dropped open and he quickly caught it, closing it and nodding slowly, "So you... have a crush on me?"

Blaine groaned, "That sounds so pathetic. It's like we're back in elementary school again but I- I guess so, yeah."

Kurt smiled, his tongue darting out to lick his lips, "We couldn't do this back then though."

And then Kurt was stepping forward, bringing a hand up to cup Blaine's cheek and direct the boy's lips to his where the both of their lips met in the middle and they shared a sweet, lingering kiss.

Kurt pulled back slightly to take in Blaine's expression only to have the boy reach up behind his head and smash their lips together, the both of them moving even closer, if that was even possible, so there was now no space between their bodies.

"Much better than elementary." Blaine muttered against his lips before pulling him back in.

Ughhhhhhhh forgive me. I may or may not have written this in the waiting room thing of childline. This is so shit. I mean, compared to the others I don't think it's that bad.

emu118 I hope this was okieeee

Also, thereekofgleek is doing the next chapter. But it's okay because it's her request so y'all don't need to worry about her ruining klaine for you. She's a traitor. She used to love klaine almost as much as me but now she ships brelliot and Tillie. Tsktsk

Anyway, she's still cool so don't go giving her hate or anything now 😂