The Space Needle is tall, and I keep close to Mikey on the way up, hand squeezing his and head down as I look across the city.

Yesterday was long and awkward and we waited for most of today for this. Now, it's night, though, and everything is just beautiful. City lights scattering the ground. Blues and greens and reds and yellows. Every color in the rainbow and more. I look over to see Pete putting his camera to his eye and taking a picture. It's a polaroid camera.

As soon as it's printed, he hands it to me and kisses me on the cheek. I blush hard.

We reach the top of the Space Needle, at the visitor center and not the restaurant (yet). Gerard winks at me before going on ahead with Patrick's hand in his, going to the outside of the rim and heading to the other side of it while leaving Pete and I behind.

Pete smiles at me and blushes the slightest. I only take his hand and kiss him right back on the cheek before pulling him along to the outside.

The city is stunning.

I can see the tallest building, tall and a sleek black with a purple rim. The ferries wheel is lit a bright red. Lampposts decorated with blue and yellow and white lights.

But Pete's not even looking at the sights. He's gazing right at me.

I look back, eyes wide and a smile traced on my thin lips. Pete only chuckles a little before finally turning and taking in the sights.

I'm the first to speak.

"It's so pretty."

Pete nods silently, "Not as pretty as you."

I blush a deep red at that, smiling the slightest.

Pete only pulls me close, "I really do care about you, Mikey. I... I understand if you don't feel the same way about me as I feel about you but I want you to know I really do care about you. You aren't gonna die. You don't have cancer and even if you do," he turns and holds my hands tightly so he's looking right into my eyes and I'm staring right back, "You need to know that you're fucking special.

"The most special boy on this planet."

I blush even darker, feeling tears rise to my eyes.

"I love you, mikeyway. I... I'm guessing you already know this... but I really do. I don't wanna see you go."

My hands are beginning to tremble as I pull him closer, hands lacing around his neck instead and our lips are only inches apart.

"I love you, too."

And our lips touch.

I'm sure I hear the click of a camera but I couldn't care less.

All that matters is Pete.

***

We head to bed a little later that night. We probably could have gone a little earlier but Pete's lips were basically trapping me. Making me giggle and kiss back. It got o the point where I was straddling him and kissing marks down his neck. We could. Not. Stop. Kissing.

It was nice though, there was a lot of tension that had been settling and with this, it was all cured. We were free again.

I smile as I kiss him one last time, pulling away and avoiding it when he tries to kiss me again, "We gotta go to bed. I'm sure Gerard and Patrick are tired of hearing it."

Pete sighs and nods, pressing a chaste one to my forehead before holding me close, fingers. Laced together gently. I blush the slightest.

"Do you mind if I sing you to sleep?" He asks quietly.

I shake my head, "'Course not."

Pete smiles and kisses me once again, right on the lips. It's a fast, fleeting kind. But it still makes me grin.

"Some say, now suffer all the childrenAnd walk away a savior,
Or a madman and pollutedFrom gutter institutionsDon't you breathe for me,Undeserving of your sympathy,'Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did.""And through it allHow could you cry for me?'Cause I don't feel bad about itSo shut your eyes,Kiss me goodbye,And sleepJust sleep..."

I watch as he shuts his eyes, whispering out the words so softly I can barely hear, but at the same time, it echoes through my ears so loud.

"The hardest part is letting go of your dreams"A drink for the horror that I'm in,For the good guys, and the bad guys,For the monsters in our bedsThree cheers for tyranny,Unapologetic apathy,'Cause there ain't no way that I'm coming back again."

"And through it all
How could you cry for me?
'Cause I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes,
Kiss me goodbye,
And sleep
Just sleep."

"The hardest part's the awful things that I've seen."I'm so close but one more question sends me off.

"Did Gerard show you that?"

"Mhmm, goodnight, Love. We can talk in the morning."

***

4. Go to the Space Needle5. Fall in love