"I read a poem once about a girl who had a crush on a guy who died. She imagined him up in heaven with all the beautiful angels, and she was jealous. Ellie is gone, I imagine her with the bad ass angels now. Hanging out with them in their black leather jackets, causing trouble. But, I'm not jealous, I just miss her." Peyton Sawyer One Tree Hill

September 15th 3million reads! Thanks for sticking with my peculiar self.

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Song:  Read All About It (pt III)-

Emeli Sandé

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She glances as Lexis whose cold eyes were staring into hers. No way, he wouldn't ... he wouldn't use their dead child...Jamie warned her of the possibility, to prepare for it after they found out from the video of Peter's downfall confrontation with Lexis and Jess' lips that she'd told him, but she had rejected the idea. That was a kid they both lost, surely he wouldn't use that to take away her other kid but now....Her eyebrows furrow.

"He was unable to see his son due to Miss Reynolds negligence, a negligence that we see five years later at Heathrow airport where she slept while her child was verbally abused and almost assaulted but for a good samaritans interference and as fate would have it, that Good Samaritan turned out to be my client Alexander Black," Zane says walking forward to play a video.

Hera looks up in shock at the video. How did he get that? It was a video of the day she arrived with Shakespeare, the day Shakespeare said she met him.

Loud whisperings ensue in the court room.

"Quiet!" The judge says bringing order to the court.

"Not only is she mentally unstable but her family background is unstable," Zane continues.

"Her father is in jail for attempted murder and abuse. She is currently on horrible terms with her family except her eldest brother. Do we as a court really want to entrust the life of the innocent Shakespeare Alexandria to the child murdering, mentally unstable, once abused and never psychologically treated Hera Reynolds simply because she luckily managed to somehow make sure Shakespeare's alive till today?" Zane asks.

"Somehow manages?"Hera says to herself half laughing half crying.

"Somehow manages?!" She screams glaring at Zane.

"Quiet!"The judge says hitting her gavel.

"Miss Jones get a hold of your client," The judge says motioning for Zane to keep going.

"Hera," Jess says holding onto Hera's hands who glances at her. What exactly had Jess told Lexis?

"Also I think it's important to remember that the real victims in these are the child Shakespeare Alexandria and Alexander Black. The two are victims of Miss Reynolds selfish decisions that not only lead to the accident of my client five years ago but separated father and child,"

The audience nod their heads and start murmuring.

"He had no knowledge of the kid being his so how was he supposed to be there? Even when he met Miss Reynolds again she never once revealed the truth to him rejecting the idea and refuting it each time it was brought up,"

Hera face tremble as her eyes well up with tears.

"What happens if Miss Reynolds were to fall into depression again? Who'd take care of the child? Her family of which she is currently enstranged? Her lawyer who has no experience taking care of kids? Or the father who not only has the mental stability but also the funds to hire the best of the best help in raising the kid?" Zane says turning to the audience who seemed to have all switched to his team.

"To choose a mentally unstable, jobless, broke, neglectful, child murdering mother?" Zane asks.

"SHUT UP!" Hera says getting up and slamming her fists on the counter.

Lexis lips twitch as he leans back. Folding his hands across his chest.

"Miss Reynolds, I'll advise you that this is a court house," The judge says.

"How dare you!" Hera continues ignoring the judge.

"How dare you accuse me of murdering my son," Hera says.

"Jessica Jones, get your client in order or I'll be forced to remove her," The Judge says.

"Didn't you?"Zane asks.

The judge glances at Zane. She was trying to get order and he was in no way helping.

"I didn't, I didn't murder my son," Hera says breaking into sobs.

The judge sighs.

"Permission for my client to please speak," Jess asks.

The Judge looks at Zayne who glances at Lexis and nods.

"Granted," The judge says but Hera had already continued, ignoring her authority overwhelmed with emotions.

"You have no idea, none whatsoever what I've been through and yet you waltz in here claiming I killed my son? Does that also mean his grandad killed him? Seeing as his granddads lies are what led me into depression? You speak like I had a say over my mental health like all I needed to do was snap my finger and get back to normal. How? How was I to get back to normal when I didn't know what normal was anymore? You think I wanted to lose it? To lose my son? To lose the father of my child? To lose my senses? You think I enjoyed it? Knowing I was responsible for not one but two deaths? You think I had... that I derived some form of joy from it? Do you have any idea what I've been through?" Hera says and hits her chest thrice as tears fall down her eyes.

"When I found out I lost Lexis five years ago I was a mess, I just found out that the man I loved was dead due to my stupid, stupid decisions, that my mother might have cheated on my dad causing the abuse we received through the years. Then found out that it was a lie, that the stories your father, your father Lexis told me were all lies,"

The court room gasps as some wipe off tears.

Hera holds her hands in fists and rocks back and forth on her toes. Looking into Lexis' eyes.

"I was not myself. I forgot how to live, Lexis I forgot how to breathe. I was a living corpse that was so mentally and physically damaged that I almost went insane,i think I did,"

Lexis ball his hands into fists but stays quiet. Eyes thinning.

"I was so messed up mentally and physically, I didn't realize I was pregnant soon enough. I tried...I really tried to take care of myself but I couldn't. I didn't even know who I was anymore. I couldn't process anything. My heart wanted to take care of my body but my mind was not allowing it. I blamed myself for my childs loss of a father. For your supposed death that your dad proclaimed to me, to Jess and even you Zane," Hera says tears pouring down as she points as each of them.

The judge sighs and leans back.

"How was I to look my child in the face and say your dad died thanks to me? How? I couldn't, I didn't know how to and so I got worse leading to a premature labor and complications during birth. I gave birth but lost both Shakespeare and her brother,"

"You didn't know that did you?"She says looking at Zane then Lexis.

"I remember that day like yesterday. I had just found out I lost both my kids, I took the scissors, placed it against my neck, ready to take my own life when they brought her to me," Hera says stopping to sob.

Zane opens his mouth to speak but Lexis holds onto his hands tightly stopping him. He sits down quietly.

Hera turns her head using her hands to wipe away her tears as the court audience get teary eyed, some sobbing, others overwhelmed with emotions.

"They brought her back to me Lexis, awake. My little girl, my little angel was awake, the girl who was proclaimed dead came back to life, to me," She says placing her handhelds over her lips sobbing.

"She fought to live. How could I as a mother think of killing myself when my own daughter, my little angel never for once thought of letting me go? How could I leave her all alone in this world? when she refused to let me go?"

"I was so ashamed...so...." She chokes up in tears.

"So, so ashamed of myself that I couldn't look at her but do you know what she did? The little angel reached out with her tiny little hands and touched me, she touched me Lexis, and broke into a smile. As If to say it was okay, we would be okay, we'd be there for each other. So I fought, I fought to live, I lived for her, for her brother, for their dead father I lived on,"

Lexis eyes turn red and glistened.

"I remember when she was five months old, she suddenly stopped breathing one day. At that second I felt my heart also stop beating. If I were to lose my daughter ....if I were to lose my daughter ...my reason to live... I prayed, I begged God to return her to me once more, that I'd never let her go, I'd protect her, I'd get better for her, for us and she really ...really started breathing again,"

Lexis hands tremble on his thighs.

"His death is something that no one ...no one, here can ever comprehend or understand how I feel or felt. I held him in my stomach,my womb, for months, I went through the depression that led to the premature death but don't you ever for a second state or imply that I murdered him or wanted him dead. If I could I'd exchange my life for him I would without a seconds thought,"

"I lost my son because I was not mentally and physically okay, I lost him because I didn't have the choice or ability to stop my mental trials during my pregnancy but I do not intend on losing another child. I do not intend on losing my daughter, not when I am now mentally and physically okay and able to protect her and prevent losing her,"

"Yes Alexander, my decisions caused your accident, it took five years of your life away from you, it took your memories, it destroyed your present, my current decisions took Shakespeare away from you and might have done so a second time after reuniting with her," 

Jess glances at Hera. What was she saying? Is she trying to hand over the child on a silver platter to Lexis? Jess wanted to interrupt but remembering her promise to aid Lexis, shuts up.

"and that..." Hera continues, "is something unforgivable, I accept that, but Alexander, going by your theory, the game you played to win and have your dad reveal his card five years back, the lies your dad told, that led to my deteriorated mental health, those factors killed our son. But Alexander I realize this now, those things did not murder our son, You and your family are not to blame for his death just as I am not to blame for his death. My son...our son died Alexander. He died, he died prematurely, he died due to medical complications with my mental and physical health as well as situations surrounding his premature birth, complications and situations that were beyond my control, it could have probably been prevented, yes, but Lexis, he was not murdered. I...I did not kill him," Hera says seating down, rocking back and forth crying as Jess embraces her and pats her back.

Maeve seating by the side glances at Lexis. He did it, she smiles.

The judge sighs heavily.

"We shall take a break and reconvene in half an hour to announce the results of the emergency temporary custody ruling," The judge says striking the gavel and getting up.

"All Rise,"

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So I was telling my mum about this chapter to seek her opinion on legalities and a mother's p.o.v on things and she goes:

"Let them marry, that will save everything. They can marry and give birth to another son and the father(Peter) of the boy can go do whatever he wants, no one cares. They can live in a new home with their daughter happily without that father(Peter). They have to marry, let them reconcile and let Hera have peace. Even the daughter will be happy they reconciled and she'll have someone to call daddy,"

Lol I can't, she reminds me of you all. She speaks your language.

-A