Song : Kill em with kindness - Selena Gomez

"And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel." -Nathan Scott One TreeHill

No 33 in Teenfiction!!!!!!!!!!!! runs screaming around "only 6 chapters"
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Hera's hands drop back down to her side. She places her hand on Shakespeare's head. Jess looks down and notices the little girl holding onto Hera.

Her eyes fill with shock, curiosity and confusion.

"You...you got ma...?" She starts her voice filled with accusations, Hera quickly interrupts.

"She's Alexander's" She quickly interjects causing Jess to stare at the little girl in front of her as various emotions cross her face.

She walks to the side, walking out of the mart.

Hera ruffles her daughter's hair choosing to dwell on what just happened later and packs up their groceries stepping out with Shakespeare.

She dials a cab company and walks over to seat on a bench by the door to await its arrival with her daughter.

"Mummy who was the scawy lady?" She asks as a car pulls up in front of them winding down, revealing Jess.

"Get in" Jess says.

Hera looks confused at the act of kindness but gets in with Shakespeare and the groceries calling the cab company to cancel.

Hera places in the address into the GPS and they drive away.

The trip back home is awkward and silent, even Shakespeare seems to realize it as she stays silent.

Once they arrive, Jess waits for them to unload their groceries and drives away.

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The next day, At 6am. Hera hears a knock on the door and walks over to open it. She wasn't sleeping as she was busy thinking of how to live here till she figures her next step when the knock came.

As she walks to the door different scenarios of who it may be go through her head, Peter Black found out about her and Shakespeare and is here to throw them out, Peter Black and his assistant sent men to threaten her to leave, Someone was lost amongst many other options but nothing prepared her for who was behind the door.

She opens the door to a lady in shades.

She's about to ask for who she is and what she wants when she takes off the shades revealing Jess.

"I have a court session at 8, let's get coffee near the court" Jess says and walks away not giving Hera an opportunity to reject the offer which now seemed to be an order.

Hera sighs and walks back to the room to check on her daughter, she's still fast asleep.

She writes a note and leaves it by the bedside incase she wakes up when she's gone.

"Be back soon"

She then wears flats and walks out to the car, driving off with Jess to the coffee shop.

On arrival with the exception of placing their orders, they both stay silent. Each locked in their own thoughts.

Hera was unsure of what to say, how to begin, she had so many questions and so much to say yet didn't know where to begin. Before coming back to the states, she had guessed she might meet Jess again if she still lived in California, she just hadn't expected it to be do soon and hence did not know what to say.

The atmosphere was awkward with Jess facing the window and not Hera in front of her. Hera squeezes her hands together.
Was she going to be like this throughout? Did Jess hate her so much she couldn't even stand looking her in the face? Why did she invite her out if she isn't even planning on looking at her?

Jess suddenly looks away from the window causing Hera's heart to jump and sink just as quickly as Jess instead looks at her wristwatch.

"Hera" Jess suddenly says finally turning to look at her, eyes filled with anger.

"We've been sitting here for five minutes and after the 5 minutes I have some to the conclusion that you're a heartless bitch ," Jess states her eyes piercing Hera's.

Hera was stunned, she knew Jess was mad at her but... with shaky hands she grabs the cup of coffee in front of her. Not sure what to do, stay or leave?

She summons up some courage to ask the questions and say the statements she'd been dying to. If Jess is this mad at her it will make no difference what the outcome of her questions or statements will be. She draws in her lower lip and releases it looking at the coffee cup with intensity, unable to look at Jess and be scared from proceeding.

"I'm sorry," She says choosing the safest option.

"You're sorry?" Jess asks with a cold voice and eyes that seemed even more offended further confusing Hera.

"What are you sorry for?" Jess asks leaning forward thinning her lips in a formidable line.

"For Lexis," Hera says.

"What about Lexis?" Jess asks.

"For causing his death, for calling off the marriage, for telling him I don't love him, for telling him it was all or money, for asking he return to the asylum, for leading to his death" Hera says taking her hands from the coffee cup and tightening her fists so she doesn't cry.

An expression passes through Jess' eyes but is masked too fast for Hera to discern.

"Hmm" Jess says leaning back.

"Hmm" Jess repeats.

She chuckles.

She chuckles again.

She bursts out laughing while Hera looks at her wondering if her words had finally driven someone not dead, but crazy.

Scared she reaches out to hold Jess' free hand on the table.

"Are you ok" She asks as Jess quickly withdraws her hands and glares at Hera.

"Hera Reynolds it's been 5 years, 5 years and yet you have not changed, you're still a heartless bitch who cares for no one but herself!" Jess says coldly.

Hera stayed glued to her seat unable to do anything, or retort back. She may have been trying to help Lexis when she broke up with him but she instead ruined him, so Jess was not wrong for calling her selfish.

"I'm not sure what annoys me more, the fact that you disappeared 5 years ago after your decision ruined us, never got back to me when I forgave you for everything understanding you were most likely tricked and threatened beyond salvation by Peter which lead to losing the funds for my sister thereby losing her, never apologized to us, chose to understand even when I scrambled around like a lunatic looking for emergency funds and gave you time, when I reached out to you at my lowest moment when I lost my sister after the impact of your decision, you never replied any of my messages and instead disappeared for 5 years," She says counting with her fingers.

"Or because after appearing 5 years later, you chose to act like everything between us is the same, like you never left a mess you never apologized for behind, like it never happened, while going on to rebuild your life and even after revealing how you ruined us all by tearing the last bit of faith and sanity Lexis had, you don't realize that you owe me an apology for how you left, for never reaching back, for never apologizing, for never being there for me when I lost my sister like I was for you when Peter Black threatened you the first time,when we both lost Lexis," She says and let's out a deep heavy breath.

"Hera Reynolds you're a heartless selfish bitch that I can't believe I've been so stupid to have had a tiny part of my heart that missed and prayed were okay and would return, that somewhere in your chest that I now see lacks a heart. You thought of me as a friend," She finishes standing up.

With each word that Jess uttered Hera felt like a knife was continually being stabbed into her heart. She didn't know about Jess losing her sister and hadn't even thought of what the consequences of her actions would have on others when she acted on them. After his death she had gone into a great hole that almost drove her insane. If she hadn't realized that she was having Shakespeare she wouldn't have gotten out of the hole. Even then...

"I lost my son" Hera says stopping Jess who looks at her confused.

"My little girl, Shakespeare...Shakespeare was not my only child from Lexis." She says pausing to gather strength.

"I had twins, Shakespeare and her brother who died at birth, due to my state of mind and how I took care or didn't take care of myself," She says.

"After losing Lexis, I wasn't myself, I nearly went to the asylum I so vehemently asked Lexis to visit, Shakespeare is the reason I'm still alive losing her brother after losing Lexis...that little fighter not only fought to live but to make me live,"She pauses and walks over holding onto Jess' hands which this time she doesn't take back.

"I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry, I didn't know, I didn't think...Even though I never knew because James was with my phone throughout, I still wronged you by not thinking of you all when I made the decisions I did, " She bites her lip.

"I won't ask for your forgiveness...I don't believe I deserve it, but please believe me, I'll never let so many suffer for the consequences of my decisions again..." She says letting go of Jess. In trying to save Lexis, she'd not only ruined him but innocent bystanders .

She picks up her bag and walks by Jess to leave.

Jess holds onto her hands.

"Who's James?" She asks.

Hera turns and looks at her confused.

"My brother...why does that matter?" She asks confused.

"So I know who to kill for almost ruining us" Jess says as tears fall from her eyes.

"You... you forgive me?" Hera asks in disbelief.

"We still need to talk but...I don't want to lose another person, I've lost enough" Jess says.

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One lost her sister and friend, the other her love and son...
One gets back her friend, but does the other get back her love?

Sigh...

Something exciting happens the next chapter lol
Pray for me, if things go according to my plan tomorrow, you may get the update tomorrow lol