“There’s none. There’s none about me and Woo Hyun in here.”

I frustratedly run my hair through my fingers and sat on the floor of the attic after looking about my highschool stuffs. My mom probably throws everything that will remind me of Woo Hyun.

Damn it.

I lean against the old shelf and dragged the beige-colored box that’s beside me and open it. I grab Beomgyu hyung’s picture that I took secretly from his place.

“Who was with you at this time, huh? Taehyun? That Kang Taehyun? But why isn’t he in here? Was he even real?”

I have a lot of questions running on my mind but I can’t narrow them all down. Everything’s complicated. My phone suddenly rings so I look who’s calling and it’s Beomgyu hyung so I picked it up right away.

“Yes… hyung?”

(Should I pick you up in there? The kids miss you a lot.)

“It’s fine,” I chuckles. “Mr. Lim will take me there. Do you want me to buy something?”

(No need… I just need you in here right away….)

“I’ll be there, hyung… See you in a bit.”

I ended the call after more talks and I breathe out. “I’m sorry, hyung… For lying and everything.”

Few hours after that, I arrived at the district. Beomgyu hyung was quick to hug me even if Kazi’s watching us who already knew what’s happening so we just laugh at it.

“Hyung!” Jaechan’s voice called me.

“Hello kiddo! How are you? How’s school, huh?” I asked him and Beomgyu hyung gestured me that he’ll go back to the building.

Jaechan and I went to the convenient store to treat him some ramen that he likes to eat. “I’m fine, hyung. You don’t need to worry about him. How about you? Are you okay?”

“Whoa, you just ask as if we’re at the same age,” I laugh. “Well, I’m still struggling.”

“With what? Your memories? Why? They aren’t coming back yet?” he asked again.

“Some are… some are still confusing,” I sigh. “I envy you for having memories,” I smiles and ruffles his hair.

“It’s so weird seeing you smile,” he suddenly stated before slurping his food.

“Yeah?”

“Nothing,” he takes back. “I’m also curious, what’s taking it so long to comeback,” he said.

“I’m not sure too,” I sighs again and leans on the chair. “I’m dying to know what really happened before.”

“Can you even handle it?”

“Hey, you just sounded again like we’re the same age. Who are you, huh?” I scolded him and he just gave me his silly smiles. “Jaechan,” I called him and he look at me. “Do you think… there are angels who makes people’s wish come true?”

Jaechan went silent for seconds; he put down his chopsticks, and then looks at me. “They do exist, hyung,” he answered. “But those angels who grant wishes can either be real angels from heaven or just ordinary humans like us who got contracted to the Deity and being an angel became one of their conditions.”

Did Jaechan really answer that? Did he really answer me something like that?

“That’s what my grandmother told me, I don’t really know if those are true,” he added while shrugging his shoulders. “How about you? Do you believe in those? My halmeoni also said that if you believe in Deity then you believe angels exist.”

I smiles and nods, “Maybe they really exists,” I chuckles after.

“Thank you, hyung for the food,” he expressed and smiles. “I’ll go back to Dr. Kai’s clinic to help him,” he said and stands up.

“Okay,” I replied. “Take care, Jaechan.”

He walks away after he nods for respect but then he stops and looks at me. “Hyung, don’t worry that much. Once your memories come back, you won’t be alone anymore. You have Beomgyu hyung.”

I smile at that before he completely went to Downtown. Jaechan’s right. I might have lost Woo Hyun but I still have Beomgyu hyung now. Beomgyu hyung will be with me and I’m happy with it.

“How’s the reunion? Did you enjoy it?” hyung asked me while we’re inside the café.

I nods and smile, “Yes! I was able to regain some of my memories because of their stories. I didn’t know I’m that loud though?” I laugh.

“You’re such a kid up until now,” he teases my age again.

“I am not,” I rolled my eyes and sips on my lemonade. “I also heard that my best friend… already died.”

“At such a young age?”

“Hmm,” I nod. “I didn’t even greet him that I’m back,” I said.

Beomgyu hyung held my hand and gently caressing it as he always does. “I’m sorry to hear that…” he smiles. “Don’t worry, he’s for sure happy that you’re back.”

“Thank you hyung,” I smiles. “But can I ask you something?”

“Sure, what is it?” he reply and let go of my hand so he can hold his drink.

“About Taehyun…”

He pauses and I bit my lowerlip. “What about him again?”

“I’m just curious…” I almost whispered and starts fidgeting my fingers before I look at him back. “Was he really an angel? Can you tell me how you two meet?”

He laughs at me, “Hey, I know you won’t believe it,” he replied and sips his drink. “Don’t think about it since it was so absurd,” he added.

“Please?”

His smile fades out when he realized how serious I sounded. “O-okay then… Well, it was during my desperate moment. I wished to Deity to give me someone who can make my wish come true—”

“That’s what you’ve said that Deity gave you Taehyun?” I interrupted.

He nods, “Hmm… Days after I wished, he came and did supernatural things. He stops time, he levitates things, and he disappears and appears,” he said and laughs. “I can’t still believe everything happened. I’ll have three wishes inside 90 days.”

“What did you wished to him?” I added a question.

“To save halmeoni,” he replied and his smiles fade. “My mom and I aren’t in good terms that time and my pride is telling me to never ask money from her so I did wish to Taehyun to save my grandma.”

“And he did?”

“He did,” he glances at me with a smile and then looks outside the glass wall of the café. “That’s when Choi Soobin hyung appeared. I liked him since then but he’s too far for me to reach. He’s rich and we’re just living on the rooftop,” he chuckles in shame. “Foolish me who wanted to be loved… I wished for Soobin hyung to feel the same but…” he pauses.

“But?”

“Every wish has a condition,” he stated.

My eyes widen when I heard my voice in the back of my mind. I am sure I said the same thing before. What is happening? My heart is beating so fast.

“To not to fall out of love,” he continued.

“And you… did?” I ask while frowning.

“I don’t—”

“You caught feelings for Taehyun and then your grandma’s life was on the line? W-why? Why did you…” I can feel myself shaking. Why? Why am I reacting like this?

“Taehyun calm down, are you okay?” he quickly hold me.

“W-why… Why did you love Taehyun?” I asked instead.

“He made me feel how love really was…” he smiles.

“Then how about him?” I suddenly ask and he pauses. “Did he… Did he felt the same way, hyung?”

“W-what do you mean?”

“You know your grandma’s life was at stake that time if you fall out of love but you still did? Why? How about Taehyun’s sake? Was you… was you that selfish?”

“T-Taehyun… why are you being like this? Everything already happened,” he tried to calm me down while he’s looking so nervous as well.

“No…” I refused to hold his hand that’s about to hold my. “If you just stick to the rule… Taehyun shouldn’t have… died.”

Beomgyu hyung suddenly looked like he got showered with cold waters after I said that. I take a stand and look at him, “I-I don’t know what really happened back then but… b-but hyung, wouldn’t have been better if you let things be?”

“Taehyun…” I heard him and he looks up at me. I noticed his teary-eyes. “If Taehyun didn’t keep things from me… I should have done things a lot wiser,” he stated. “I told you… I didn’t know about him that much…”

“You shouldn’t have been selfish…” I whispered. “You should have thought more about him rather than yourself… if you really love him. I’m sorry hyung,” I apologized and walk out from the café.

Good thing Mr. Lim was still at the District so he gave me a ride back to Seoul but instead of getting back to our house. I gave him a different address.

I get off from the car after reaching the neighborhood and I don’t know why it feels like I’m getting sucked in everywhere I look. Everything is familiar. I don’t even know where should I walk but my feet are having its own direction. In every step that I make there are voices inside my head. Tears start escaping from my eyes as well.

“I'm Taehyun, and I’m here to grant your wish.”

I keep on walking and I stop when I saw a familiar convenient store. It has the name iCart in there. My tears keep on flowing down my cheeks and I don’t even know why.

"Your wish has been granted."

"If the wisher fall out of love the punishment will apply to the person involve in the first wish."

"Why are you doing this to me!? I know I have a fault in here but isn't this too much for me? I! I only want love! Why are you giving me all of these shits! I'm hurt already! I'm in pain already!"

Beomgyu hyung… Beomgyu hyung…

I continued walking while memories continue to flash across my mind. Every street is familiar. Every walk has memories. Every step has voices inside my head. Everywhere I look, there are hidden stories.

"I… I knew what I fell for you since the first day I saw you, Hyung." He confessed then paused and looked above, "But I shouldn't be feeling this bliss—"

“I don’t know what will happen after tonight but as long as I’m holding your hands, everything will be alright.”

We promised. We promised even if we’ll go against the Deity.

“Your fate is also my fate.”

“Taehyun, I’m going to use my third wish.”

I stop when I finally reach a specific place. I look up from where I am standing and I can see the rooftop. The rooftop where I used to stare at someone holding a guitar from afar. My sobs went louder, my knees weakened and I gripped on the wall. I have to lean against it for support until I completely fall on the ground in weakness.

“Why!? Why did you save me!? I’m the one who is supposed to be dead by now! Taehyun why!?”

“Because i love you! I love you so much hyung!”

Beomgyu hyung… I’m sorry.

“The last condition said… The person you love the most will disappear after the contract ends. And our contract will end tomorrow!”

“I will never let go of his hands!”

“What season do you like again?”

“I love spring.”

Beomgyu hyung… I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I just remember it now. I’m sorry for leaving you and for choosing to have this kind of fate. I’m really sorry for making you resent yourself from everything that happened.

Hyung, I’m here. I’m still the Kang Taehyun that you have loved.