Antonio's POV:
He left. He really left me, he really left us just like that. I know I told him to go, I told him he was free, that I wouldn't follow him.

But fuck me I didn't think he would. He didn't look back or speak a single word he just ran away. Goddess knows how long I was standing there just staring at that empty space where he had stood before I started walking back to the house.

"It only hurts to love you...you don't hurt the people you love!"

Fuck; I'm too selfish to let him go. I stopped in my tracks looking at the house before I turned round and ran back in the direction he had left. I left him once and I didn't go after him and I never want to do it again.

Fuck!

I shifted as I jumped over a fallen tree running faster, allowing his scent to guide me, taking me further into the woods until I stood in front of a house I knew well. This is where he's been staying?

I looked down at my paws watching as the morphed back into my hands before I got to my feet just starting at the door.

Am I ready to do this, to break my word that I had let him go that I wouldn't follow him; fuck me I lied. I shoved the front door open running up the stairs before I slammed his door open. He was just sat there with his face in my hands on the bed, he didn't even look at me. I took long strides until I was stood in front of him cupping his face with my hands bringing his face up to meet mine. I caressed his cheeks wiping away the tears that were streaming down his face with my thumb.

"I lied Baby, I know what I said but your in my veins. I'd follow you anywhere, I'd hunt you across the world, I'd burn this city to the ground just to have you. I'm selfish Kayson, I'm too fucking selfish to let you go. I need you Kayson."

Behind all the sadness, the brokenness I could see the fire burning in his eyes. He's changed we both know it, I can see it he's got more scars now every inch of his body is littered in them. There's a blaze in his eyes, a monster lurking underneath just like me. He's strong I know that dare I say he's stronger then me. I'm selfish I'm not going to deny it I need him, I love him.

"Why is it all about you, you need me what about what I need?!"

I know Baby, I know. His hands wrapped around my wrists, his claws digging into my skin but I didn't flinched or move away. I told him he could hate me, he could hurt me it's no more then I deserve I'd take whatever he threw at me just as long as I got him back because he's mine.

"Because I'm a selfish bastard who loves you Kayson and no matter how hard I try I can't let you go."

I just can't. He's my first mate, my first love I swore to him that I would always be here for him that I'd look after him and now look at us. My hands dropped from his face as he pulled back, all the anger had simmered out and all that was left was the broken man.

"You can't say that, you can't say you love me and then hurt me."

I took a step closer to him taking his hand in mine and placing it against my heart holding it in place. I just...I need him to understand, I need him to see I'm telling him the truth.

"I love you, am I lying to you?"

I let go of his hand, I half expected him to pull his hand back but he didn't his hand remain over my heart as he looked up at me.

"No."

I know I've lied to you Baby, I know I hurt you but I have never and would never lie to you when I tell you I love you.

"No. I'm not trying to hurt you Baby and I'm sorry that I am, I'm sorry if you hate me but I don't care. You can hate me it's okay because I won't ever stop loving you because if our love is painful I'll take it over losing you, over never feeling our type of love again. I know you don't trust me but at least trust that I love you, you can feel it Baby I know you can. Your in my veins, your under my skin Kayson and I just can't let you go."

I closed the gap between us, leaning down so my arms where either side of him and my head was resting against his. I need to feel closer to him, I need him to understand I'm not leaving this time or ever.

"What about your other mate?"

Oh Baby you still don't get it do you, how much did I break you Mi Amore? Xadrian isn't mine he's ours, our little mate.

"Our mate and he'll love you just as much as I do."

I knelt on the bed in front of him wrapping my one hand around the back of his head bring his lips to mine. I pressed my body against his using my other arm to support my weight.

"I want to be with you Kayson, I want you. Will you be mine again? Will you let me take away your pain?"

I ran my fingers gently across his ribs watching his body shiver as goosebumps started to form. I kissed across his jaw line down his neck to the sensitive patch between his neck and shoulder. A sweet sound left his lips and my eyes shot up to meet his.

""Ant we..we can't do this here."

A growl rippled through my throat as I slammed my lips against his pressing my body flat against his as we fell back against his bed. I wrapped my hands around his wrists lifting them above his head. I don't care if we're in Carlos' house I want my mate and I'll make him mine again anywhere I see fit, he needs reminding that he's mine.

"I'll take you anywhere I please Mi Amore and not just because I can, not just because your mine or because I want you but because I love you. Just tell me to stop and I'll stop Kayson."

I looked into his eyes but there wasn't an ounce of pain or defeat in his gaze just fire and determination, a fire that called to my own that called to my soul and the beast inside of me. In a split second he was on top of me a smirk across his face as he lent down kissing along my chest bringing out a growl of approval from my chest before I flipped us back.

"I'm the Alpha here Mi Amore."

He growled digging his claws into my shoulders making me chuckle still trying to hurt me Mi Amore.

"If our love is pain then let it hurt, hurt me Mi Amore."

I nipped the skin along his collarbone earning a hiss from his lips. I smirked against his skin, I won't mark him not yet I need to earn that right. I want him to beg me to mark him.

"Fuck you."

I like this new side of Kayson, just when I thought I had pealed back all his layers and worked him out I find another layer. Another part of him I get to peal back and explore.

"Oh no Baby that's what I'm going to do to you. I love you."

I wrapped my hand around his member teasing him with slow, steady strokes, before I slowly picked up the pace making him moan. My free hand came up and wrapped around his neck. He rocked his hips up trying to gain more friction making me growl as I tightened my grip around his neck.

"Tell me what you want Kayson."

I growled out as I started to kiss alone his collarbone once again occasionally nipping and sucking at his tender skin as I went.

"Ant just...I hate you. Fuck just fuck me."

His claws dug harshly into my skin harder then earlier enough to draw blood before he ran them down my back. No longer wishing to tease him I released his member to alined my own before I slowly thrusted inside of him inch by inch trying to be as gentle as I could. He clawed at my back wincing and hissing until I was fully inside him. I pressed my lips against his to take his mind off the pain as he adjusted before I started to thrust in and out of him.

"Ant! Fuck I love you! I love you."

He cried, moaned and screamed as I continued to thrust inside of him claiming him as mine. His eyes rolled back as we both came me inside of him and him on our chests. I collapsed on top of him, both of us breathing heavily. I resting my head in the coup of his neck just breathing in his scent before I rolled off him and laid besides him.

Fuck, so that's hate sex.

I looked over at Kayson his eyes where closed and he had a look of bliss across his features. I lent over and pecked his lips before I got up to grab a wet clothe cleaning us both up.

I sat back on the bed after chucking the wash clothe in the hamper with my back against the headboard and my knees to my chest as I looked down at him. He looks so peaceful and still so fucking sexy after all this time.

"I love you too Kayson so much."

I found myself lying beside him tracing the large amount of scars across his body until I came to the one across his left eye. I don't remember most of these scars what the hell happened to him.

"I love you more Antonio."

Those golden amber eyes met mine and my arms moved to wrap around his waist drawing him closer to me until my head was resting against his.

"Will you come home? Come home Mio Amore. Just come back home please. Come back with me."

I cupped his face pressing my lips against his. I've been rough with him, I've been harsh but now I need to be gentle. I have to show the side that normally only Alexandro would show because I don't want to lose him and I don't want to drag him kicking and screaming. He's breaking down my walls just like our little mate and I don't want them to stop and neither does the beast inside.

"Antonio I..."