Xadrian's POV:
I could hear it. I could hear it all; the yelling, the screaming, Antonio's words. He told them I was his; that he'd die to protect me. He..he didn't care that the Masters want me back, he's fighting right now because of me. I sniffed for a bit trying to calm myself down, he'll be okay. I wiped my eyes with my sleeve and finally allowed the pendant to fall against my chest before I covered my ears in an attempt to block out the noise.

I couldn't listen to it anymore.

I just wanted Antonio to come back and when I heard him call out my name I couldn't help but throw my arms around him. I didn't care he was covered in blood I just needed to feel safe and I trust him to make me feel safe, I trust Antonio.

My lips tingled as I kissed him. I don't know what came over me, even with Winter giving me that extra nudge it still felt right. He and Alec make me feel safe and loved just like how my Papa made my Mamma feel. I felt Antonio cup my face as he kissed me back, his hold was so gentle but all too soon he pulled away. I lifted my hand to touch my lips, I can't believe I did that. I..I kissed him; I've never kissed him. I've never kissed Alec, I've never kissed anyone like that before.

"I'm going to go shower Piccolo. There are some more clothes for you to change into in the wardrobe just put your clothes in the hamper once your done okay."

I felt him run his thumb over my cheek and I felt my eyes close of their own accord, I..I wanted him to kiss me again but he moved away and the sound of the shower filled the room. I sighed as I opened my eyes and moved back into the wardrobe finding the clothes Antonio had brought for me, well the clothes one of his friends had got me. I bit my bottom lip after grabbing some of my clothes before I turned to grab one of his shirts to go with my sweats; I.. I like wearing his shirts.

They are really comfy and his scent is very calming, it's kind of like he's giving me an invisible hug, like a constant safety blanket even when he's not around.

Once I was dressed I placed my other blood soaked clothes in the hamper and sat on the bed. It was still strange sitting and lying on a bed but I'm getting used to it. I sighed and started to fiddled with the pendant as my mind began to wonder. Had I upset him by kissing him? Did I over step my kissing him? Am I allowed to kiss him? He's my..no there are no Masters, he's not my Master he's my mate. But maybe he regrets kissing me back, maybe I still shouldn't have kissed him. I over stepped, I shouldn't have done that I..I need to apologise for over stepping. I should have asked.

I could hear him talking to someone as he left the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist. He didn't even look in my direction, he just walked straight to the wardrobe yelling at whoever he was talking to.

I still felt nervous whenever he yelled. I know he'd never hurt me, I trust him enough to know that he would never hurt me but I can't help but flinch when he raises his voice.

"Just get it done!"

Get what done? Am I in trouble? Is he going to get rid of me because I kissed him or is it because I'm too much? People are after me, what if those people told Red Master I'm here? What if he hurts Antonio? I..I don't want to leave, I need to apologise now.

Antonio moved passed me and I quickly grabbed his arm. He turned to look at me and his face softened slightly.

"I'm s..sorry I..I kissed you M..Antonio. I..I won't do it again."

I quickly let go of his arm and looked down at the ground again. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't understand this world Antonio and Alec are trying to show me. I felt Antonio cup my face again bring my head up to look at him but I just closed my eyes, it was just a kiss but was it? Is it more then just a kiss to us?

"Piccolo? Piccolo look at me. It's okay you don't apologise for kissing me. You can kiss me whenever you want to okay but don't ever feel like you have to. What's going on in that head of your?"

I held onto the pendant tightly as I looked at him, I can trust him. He wants me to trust him, to be honest and talk to him.

"I..I thought you; I thought you didn't want me to. That I..I overstepped. You just seemed; c..cold."

Is cold even the right word? Should I have said distant but that doesn't seem right either or is it? My eyes kept flickering up to meet his gaze and then back at the floor did I upset him again? Why is talking so hard can I go back to not saying anything?

"Oh Il Mio Piccolo tu sei qualcos'altro, così speciale. You didn't overstep I promise. I; I liked it when you kissed me, I was just shocked that's all. I would very much kiss you too, I want to. I never would have let them take you and you never have to fear that I would give you up because I..I lo... I was just setting up a meeting that's all; I want to keep you safe. I know your struggling to trust me, I know trusting; I know trusting Alec is easier and I can be cold even to you and I don't mean to be. Thank you Piccolo for being honest and talking to me I know you struggling but I'm here okay I'll help you always, perché sei la mia debolezza."

He gently lent down and kissed me, well it wasn't quite a kiss more like a peck short and sweet but I didn't mind. He's trying like me, he's trying to change for me but I don't think I want him to I like him the way he is even if he doesn't talk in a language I don't understand.

"N..no. I..I trust you Antonio. Your n..not c..cold to me, you k..keep me safe. I like k.. kissing you too."

I whispered back as I held the pendant again.

"Thank you Piccolo. Would you like to hold onto that for me, I don't need it right and I'll still have it close to me. It's okay you can keep it safe for me."

I looked down at the pendant again before I looked up at him. Is he sure the look on his face tells me he's sure but what if I lose it?

"Piccolo, you won't lose it I'm sure. Now would you like to go to the library before we eat and I have my meeting or we can go to my office and practice your writing we could do both if you really want my meeting doesn't start for awhile."

How does he always do that? How does he know what's going on in my head, he can't read my mind can he? I think I should look more into this mate thing.

"I..If we have time I..I would like to d..do both."

Antonio chuckled something he rarely does, actually I don't think I've ever heard him really chuckle before.

"Then we shall do both. Come on Piccolo, you know the way."

I smiled and took his hand leading him to the library. Apart from this room, the kitchen, his office and the library I don't really know where anywhere else is. Neither Antonio or Alec have ever showed me around this place but I'm kind of glad I know how to get to these rooms I don't think I need to know any others it will only confuse me.

I pushed the door to the library open and as soon as I stepped into the room I let go of Antonio's hand and looked around the shelves. This room is definitely my favourite, it's so bright and colourful.

"Xadrian would you like to pick out a different book or do you wish to continue our other book?"

I do like reading the book Antonio gave me but I don't want to get into it and then not be able to practice my writing. It's all squiggly and mess unlike Antonio's which is neat and curly.

"This one. What does it say?"

I think I know what it says but I'm just not sure. It looks interesting and different from the animals in the jungle.

"Treasure Island By Robert Louis Stevenson."

I turned back to look at the other books but nothing really stuck out expect Treasure Island so I just handed it to Antonio and walked over to the chair. I still don't quite understand how I went from hiding in the wardrobe to reading a new book with Antonio. I know he's trying to distract me from what happened outside but I heard what happened, I saw the smoke. He doesn't scare me but I can tell he's scared that I will be which is strange because I didn't think he was scared of anything.

"Xadrian? Xadrian?"

Antonio clicked his fingers in front of my face making me jump back and hit my back against his chest. How long was I not listening for?

"S..sorry, what were you saying?"

He chuckled again and it was only then I noticed he had closed the book leaving a piece of cloth in it to mark our page.

"Cosa sta succedendo in quella tua testa. It's time to go and eat, we'll reread the book some other time don't worry. Come on you can help me prepare this time, I'll make a chief out of you yet."