I sat at the lunch table with Quinn a few days later and I stared down at my food in a daze thinking about her leaving in a year. "Hey," Quinn said softly as she nudged my arm with her elbow causing me to look up at her. "What's going on with you Johnathan? You've been acting funny these past few days." She said clearly worried and I looked at her with a nervous expression.

"Nothing baby." I said as I tried to give her a convincing smile but she just continued to stare at me, clearly not buying it.

"Johnathan you're seriously going to lie to me right now?" She asked softly. I took in a deep breath as I looked down at my hands nervously, I couldn't look at her face.

"How are we going to last when you go to school in England?" I asked, my voice barely above a whisper as I looked back up at her. She looked confused and surprised at my response. Her eyebrows knitted together in confusion and she folded her arms tightly across her chest.

"What're you saying Johnathan?" Quinn demanded as her breathing started to become shallow. I knew she was beginning to worry about what was happening, but I had to say this.

"I'm saying that I don't know what's going to happen when you leave for months, I'm gonna miss you so bad and I don't know what you're gonna do in England!" I admitted as tears began to swell up in her eyes. Her mouth opened to say something but nothing came out. She searched into my eyes questioningly and I just stared back sadly.

"Then I'm not going to college in England, I'll go wherever you're going-"

"No, I can't let you do that Quinn." I said sternly and she began to blink rapidly, trying not to cry.

"I don't want to lose you John, who cares about some school in England!" She croaked out softly as a tear spilled down her cheek. I brushed it away with my hand softly and then I cradled her face between my hands gently.

"You care so much about that school Quinn and I love you way too much to let you throw away your future for me." I whispered and more tears escaped down her cheeks.

"But you don't love me enough to make me stay." She finished and pushed my hands away and then started packing her things into her bag.

"I do Quinn, that's why I'm doing this-"

"Save it Johnathan, I got it." She sobbed and she quickly ran out of the lunch. I quickly grabbed my bag and chased after her.

"Babe... babe wait!" I called after her but she didn't even look back once. I stopped running once she ran out the doors to the student parking lot and I placed my face in my hands as I squeezed my eyes shut. "Ugh!" I yelled and punched a locker.

*Quinn's POV*

I walked inside my house with red rimmed eyes and I took in a ragged breath, trying to calm myself down. "Quinn?" I heard my Mother call from the other end of the house and I sighed tiredly, I had hoped she would've been at work but she wasn't.

"Yeah Mom?" I asked as I wiped away my tears and heard her heals click on the hardwood floor as she entered the room.

"I'm going to the super market, do you need anything?" She asked as she grabbed her purse and keys off the coffee table.

"No," I croaked as I hugged myself and stared at the ground. "I'm good."

"Sweetie," My Mother said worriedly as she rushed over to me and placed her hands on my arms. "What's wrong?" My lip started to quiver and more tears started to fill my eyes and I just shrugged.

"I think John and I are breaking up." I said my voice not cracking once. Hearing those words aloud made my heart hurt and I just wanted to crawl into my bed and sleep for days.

"What? Why!? You two seemed so happy together." She asked clearly confused and taken aback by this.

"Yeah we were, I mean, we are happy it's just that I told him about England." I whispered and she sighed as she pulled me over to sit on the couch next to her.

"Oh Quinny," She sighed again, using the pet name she gave me when I was a little girl. "I want you to know that your first love is always the one that hurts the most." She whispered softly as I placed my head on her shoulder. "But I know he loves you honey, I can see it in the way he looks at you or how you two smile at each other, he's hurting too honey so don't hate him alright? I know that what he's doing is the right thing to do." She rubbed my hair soothingly as I began to stain her shirt with my tears and I sighed.

"I love him Mom and I don't know if I wanna take the scholarship anymore." I sobbed softly and she squeezed me tightly to her as I sobbed onto her shoulder.

"You've been dying to go to that school ever since you were twelve years old Quinn, I know you love him but there are a billions of other boys in this world." She said softly as she raised my face to look at her. "And from time to time, as the years pass, he'll pop into your mind at random moments and you'll smile at all the memories you shared with him and the pain will go away slowly but I promise you baby it does." She said sternly and I nodded my head slowly as she wiped away my tears. "It'll be alright honey."

"Thanks Mommy." I sighed as I gave her a hug.

I laid in bed that night, I had my phone turned off all day and I decided to turn it back on. Once my phone had finished loading up, I had too many missed calls, texts, and voice mails to count and they were all from Johnathan. We only had two days of school left before summer vacation and I had decided earlier that I wasn't going to go those last two days. I also decided that I am still going to go to school in England. Who knows, maybe being thousands of miles away from him will help make this unbearable pain go away...?

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