Holy shit, I'm back after ages...

Miss me?

This chapter is hopefully super long to make it up you guys... maybe some smut too...

But guys I did pretty well in my exams! I'm so happy and I just haven't been here because of my workload in art... sorry

- Bangtan_Trash2401 ♡

JIMIN'S POV

I woke up with a dull ache in my wrist and a warm breath hitting my forehead. The room was still dark, no sunlight visible through the slightly spread curtains. My free hand was tangled in Yoongi's arm, legs splayed out over the mattress. I groaned as I lifted my head slightly, a stinging sensation erupting through my left cheek. I watched as Yoongi's eyes fluttered open, and his eyebrows knitted with worry, brown eyes darkening slightly.

"Jimin? Are you ok?" He rushed, moving a hand to cup my cheek. I laughed at his reaction, snuggling into his chest even further. His chest rumbled as he let out a low chuckle of his own, fingers running through my thick black hair. He placed a quick kiss on my forehead, before reaching underneath his pillow to retrieve his phone. Clicking the button on the side, the screen lit up to display "4:25am" in white writing. He sighed, pushing the phone back under the plush white fabric.

"Jimin, I want to have a shower ok? I'll join you and we'll have a rest day today, ok?" He mumbled against the crook of my neck. I nodded, his lips ghosting over my jaw and up to my lips, pressing down lightly for a quick peck. He untangled himself from me, and swung his legs over the bed, stripping down and replacing a towel over his bare waist. A blush rose in my cheeks as I realised myself staring, closing my eyes before he turned around to make it seem as though I was asleep. He chuckled against my ear, pressing a kiss to my cheek, his soft footsteps pattering away from me. I smiled to myself, burying my face into the side of the fluffy material.

I heard the shower turn on, and my eyes flew open to stare at the plain ceiling that hung above me. I sighed, bringing my arms up to stretch, and then cross behind my head, allowing my head to rest on my forearms. I heard the jet of the shower, imagining Yoongi's perfectly lean body underneath the spray of the shower. My mind numbed at the sight, but a slight niggling feeling gnawed at me. I bit my lip to look down my body, seeing the round bump that was caused by my chubby stomach. I saw how my thighs touched, the skin resting heavily on the mattress. I sighed deeply, the pent up emotions slowly releasing, as tears ran down my fat cheeks.

I raised my arms up too, pinching the skin at my bicep, watching how my thumb had easily stretched the malleable flesh. I cringed, running my fingertips over my eyes, feeling a wetness pool at my chin. I sat up, hissing as I accidentally leaned on my sore wrist. I slapped my thigh, watching the skin ripple, making my grimace and bite the inside of my cheek. I licked my lips and kneaded the flabby fat on my stomach between my forefinger and thumb. Again, more tears came and I quickly threw my top off, noticing the chubby rolls of fat that decorated my body. Angrily, I brought my palms down to meet the soft skin, slapping at the ugly surface. Red marks bloomed all over my body, and I whispered harshly to myself, the words out of my own mouth drowning out the sound of Yoongi's approaching footsteps.

The door suddenly flung open, and Yoongi stood there with his hair dripping with water that ran down his neck to trail to his chest. His eyes widened, lip caught between his teeth as I was now punching and pounding at my thick thighs.

"Jimin!" He roared, snapping me out of my state. I snapped my head around to look at him, our gazes meeting. His eyes were stormy, cheeks flushed red with anger. He stormed over to me, throwing off the towel thay was hung loosely at his waist. He climbed onto the bed - completely naked, may I add - and cupped my face in his pale hands.

He ran his fingertips down and over the red marks, porcelain skin contrasting against the blooms of crimson. I whimpered slightly, his cool skin feeling odd against my battered thigh. His fingers trailed along all the marks, sliding up my neck to hold my face again. I felt a few more tears slip down my cheeks, but my head was tilted downwards, ashamed to face him. I felt him shuffle back a bit, and then his hands fell from my face. I bit my lip in hesitation, as no words were exchanged between the two of us. Suddenly, he brought a leg over the bed, followed by the other one, and began to walk away. My heart thrummed violently in my chest, and I realised that he had left me. Tears once again cascaded down my face, alongside the ugly sobs that fell from my chapped lips.

I'm so ugly; I'm so ugly that he wanted to leave me. This entire week and a half was just a game, I knew it.

My inner voice leaked through, and I yelled and slammed my fists into the bouncy mattress beneath me in frustration. I dug my hands into my eyes, not caring about the searing pain in my cheek or wrist. The underlying fact was that Yoongi left me, and I felt horribly used.

I struggled to heave myself over the side of the bed, my eyes never leaving the floor. As I placed one foot down on the wooden floor, I felt a hand on my shoulder, squeezing slightly. I felt another hand reach my chin, pulling my face up gently to raise my head. Yoongi stood in front of me, now in boxers, eyes swollen and red tinted. He ran his tongue over his lips, and leaned down to press a soft kiss against my own. The pure love behind it, made a fresh wave of tears wash down my face, the salty flavour settling onto my tongue.

We broke away, slightly panting, and I noticed the faint droplets of tears that had rolled down Yoongi's cheeks. I brought a hand up to wipe them away, and he turned his head slightly to kiss my wrist that rested against his head.

"Yoongi I-,"

"You're beautiful, so perfect. I love you so much, and over this week and a half or so, I've grown to love you and care for you. You've torn down my walls, and I let you. I let you in and I usually don't do that. Jimin, you've changed me, you know? It scared me to watch you do what you did to yourself, because you shouldn't do that to something so beautiful. You may not be beautiful to yourself, baby, but you sure as hell are to me." He whispered faintly, face inches away from my own. Our gazes locked, and small smiles spread onto our faces, before he swooped down to catch my lips with his. I moaned into his mouth lightly, when his hand had snaked down to squeeze my hip. He pulled away, pushing me back slightly so that I was laying on the bed.

"Make me feel beautiful, Yoongi," I whispered. He straddled my waist and lowered his head to rest his forehead on mine.

"You're so beautiful already. I love you so much," he spoke, peppering my face with kisses, making me giggle. He laughed too, bringing his hands up to run all over my torso. He then went to trail kisses down my jaw, and then to my neck, nipping and sucking at the skin, sure to make marks.

He leaned back, admiration shining in his eyes as he rested on my thighs. One of his hands rested on my chubby stomach, and I gulped dryly.

"Yoongi it's so fat and-,"

"It's perfect, just like you."

And with that, he began massaging his fingertips lightly into my stomach and thighs, lovingly pressing kisses to my shoulder. The way his fingers moved across my seemingly ugly skin, made it feel as though he was healing the invisible wounds of self doubt that littered across my body.

I moaned loudly, when Yoongi's teeth bit down harshly on my collarbone, tongue running over the mark to soothe it. He chuckled again, but I covered my mouth to muffle the noise that came out of my mouth. He realised, reaching up to take my hand away.

"I want to hear you," he mumbled, and a hot blush rose to my cheeks, setting my face ablaze.

《smut? smut.》

I felt him lean back once again, but this time he rested on my pelvis. I moaned lightly when his fingertips drew patterns across the sensitive skin of my abdomen, and I hesitantly brought my hips up to create friction. Yoongi gasped above me, but moved his hips down in reply, making me shakily moan and my dick harden. Yoongi's eyes weren't so lust filled as all the other times; this time he actually gazed upon me with so much care, looking to take things slow. I watched how his hands shook and quivered slightly as he fumbled with my boxers. I looked up at him, confused as to why his face was painted with nervousness, when we had done this so many times.

I reached down to grab his hands in my own, smiling at him reassuringly. He nodded and slipped my boxers down my legs, me shaking them off. He got off me momentarily and yanked his own boxers down, making eye contact with me as he clambered on top of me. My breathing hitched when his hands squeezed my bare thigh, and a possessive growl erupted from the back of his throat. I felt his fingertips run up my dick, before falling between my legs.

Without warning, I felt his index finger slowly push into me, making a light moan fall from my lips. My eyes slipped shut, but I felt Yoongi's breath on my cheek, pressing kisses on the soft skin.

"My beautiful baby," he whispered, another finger shifting inside me, making me whimper. I felt my cock drip, his own resting against my inner thigh. His fingers began slowly scissoring, and pain shot through me, but the way Yoongi's hands played with my hair made the pain dissipate, only to be replaced with pleasure. His teeth nibbled on my ear lobe, and tugged lightly, making my skin burn. His fingers pulled out of me, and he reached over behind him to grab a condom from the nightstand. I was quick to grab his arm, making him face me and quirk an eyebrow.

"I... I want to feel you," I mumbled shyly. He smiled and pressed a kiss to my lips, accepting my offer. He lifted his hips to free my legs beneath him, and spread me open. I blushed, when his fingers brushed my ass, gripping and kneading the thick flesh slightly. He looked up at me, and I nodded for him to continue.

His hands now rested on my hips, as he aligned his dick against my entrance. I gulped, reminiscing the same feeling every time he stretched me, but nodded again. He pressed the tip against my ass, pressing in slightly. I bit my lip, chewing furiously when the whole head had made it inside me. I let out a pained moan, making Yoongi momentarily stop, but I tugged his forearm. He pushed inside me, each inch spreading me open further. I let out another high pitched moan when he had fully buried his length inside me, but he had stopped to let me adjust. I found myself waiting longer than usual for him to start moving, so I cracked open my eyes, only to find Yoongi grinning down at me.

"You're so... perfect," he mumbled. I blushed, tilting my head to the side and giving him the opportunity to start kissing my exposed neck. I felt his hips slowly rocking against me, making soft moans and mewls dropping from my open mouth. Yoongi's grip on my hips tightened, and I clenched my walls around him, making him groan into my neck. I shifted my head again, feeling his hot breath vanish from its spot. He looked down at me, eyes filled with adoration, and I found myself grinning lazily at him.

"Y-Yoongi," I moaned, when I felt him slightly quicken his pace. I felt the familiar bubbling in my stomach, and Yoongi's thrusts were becoming more erratic, telling me he was close too.

"Yoon-ngi I'm going to-,"

"Together."

And with that, he had slowed down his pace, gently rocking his hips to meet my own light bucking. He reached his hands over to cup my face, stroking my blushing cheeks with his thumbs.

"Ready to cum, baby boy?" He asked, one hand moving down to my dick. I nodded, and he began hastily stroking my dick, a string of curse words slipping past my thoroughly chewed lips. I moaned loudly, as I came quickly into his hand, feeling his own release decorate my insides. We stayed like that for a few minutes, before Yoongi pulled out and reached over for the tissues that rested by he bed. His hands ran over my abdomen, carefully cleaning off all of the white splatters on both of our bodies. I watched as he threw the dirty wipes into the bin, and came to lay beside me.

《smut over @ innocent cuties》

I caught sight of the clock, but was too caught up in the entire moment to focus on what it read. All I could think of was the way Yoongi's arm was draped possessively over my waist. I turned my head to find him already staring at me, smiling stupidly. I giggled, feeling a hand cup my cheek and pull me in closer. My eyes fluttered shut, feeling his soft lips on my own. We broke apart quickly, gazes locking in a comfortable silence.
"Did I make you feel beautiful?" He asked quietly.

"You always make me feel beautiful," I replied. His arm returned to my waist, and I found myself curling up into his still naked body, feeling a blanket being put over the both of us.
"Good, because you make me feel like the luckiest guy alive. I love you so much, and always will. I will love you until I die, and even after that. You've changed me, and for the better. I can't thank you enough."

"Yoongi, we'll die together and love each other forever after that. I love you so much too. Now let's sleep, love, we have things to do tomorrow," I whispered reassuringly. Silence coated the conversation, but I watched as Yoongi's mouth opened to speak.

"Promise me... you'll let me protect you?" He whispered.

"Yoongi what sort of question is that?"

"A question I want you to answer."

"Ok Yoongi, if it makes you feel better, I promise to let you protect me," I said against his chest. His arms wrapped around me and pulled me in close.

"You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, I'm not letting anything happen to you. I love you."

"I love you too."

And with our words exchanged, we fell asleep in each other's arms, not feeling the twist of fate lurch between our beating hearts.

The quote at the end was actually a quote that my auntie in hospital read to me over the phone two days ago. It really stuck with me, and it reminded me a little of this story...

Anyways, I really hope you enjoyed this suuuuper long chapter! Comment on what you thought.

Much love to all of you and thank you for the patience and support ♡

- Bangtan_Trash2401 ♡