I stare at this picture everyday, knowing I should show it to Felix, but I still want Changbin to be my friend again. If I show Felix this picture, he'll kill me and we'll never be friends ever again.

I can't ruin his relationship. Twice, apparently. I can't do it, he'll kill me.

I love Felix so fucking much but I just can't do that to Changbin.

He was my best friend for years and friendship will always come first to me.

Even though I wish I could be him so that I could be Felix's boyfriend I would never want him to hate me anymore than he already does.

I didn't ruin his relationship.

I won't ruin his relationship.

I'm a good friend.

But...

I just can't bring myself to delete this picture.