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"We're fools loving each other so much."
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(Assumed sequel for hiraeth)

Be ready for a dramatic episode :)

Word Count:1870

»LALISA«

My hands trembled as I read the mentioned names in the wedding card.

Park Chaeyoung and Jeon Jungkook.

Wedding in less than a week.

I was taken aback by surprise, it was just two years since our graduation - two years since they started dating.

What's the hurry in getting settled right away?

I mean, I understand that's it's their life choices. I guessㅡ why am I so confusing? Well, probably because I hadn't changed even a bit.

Or because, I still hadn't moved on from him.

From Jungkook, I had once loved. The man I had once wished to confess my concealed feelings. But I didn't have the courage, the consequence of which now I'm suffering to see him with someone else, so familiar to me.

With my own best friend, Park Chaeyoung.

My mind often drifts back to the memories of my graduation ceremonyㅡ but instead of merry smiles, all I remember is the day when he got away. The day he broke my heart.

"Wait, you rejected him? But why Lisa? I don't understand this."

"Stop hyperventilating Tzu, she's in a bad state right now." Mingyu sat before me, next to his girlfriend. Tzuyu immediately offerd me a glass of water, apologizing to me if she'd been offensive.

The two of them had followed me to my dorm right after the ceremony was over. Tzuyu being my roommate, instinctively recognized the tension when Chaeyoung broke the news.

"Chae..." I let out amidst sobs.

I immediately ran into Mingyu's arms, tears running down my cheeks. "Don't cry Lisa, it's over now. Someone has the heart in the end, after all." He tried to pacify by stroking my head but his words only hurt me more.

He was right; being a mutual best friend, Mingyu knew that despite our personalities, Jungkook and I couldn't clearly express our feelings. This was bound to happen someday, anyway.

"You know Lis? You shouldn't be so selfless that you end up hurting yourself." "How I wish this wasn't so complicated that I didn't have to care, Mingyu."

I don't know when I started falling for Jungkook. There was something in him that made him different from others.

Things took an abrupt end when Chaeyoung revealed that she too, liked Jungkook. I could see it in her eyes; she had surely loved him for a long time. And honestly, I didn't know what to feel about it.

Chaeyoung was an amazing friend. She was my first friend after I transferred to Korea and had actually helped me a lot. She truly loved me like a sister. And this was the only reason I didn't want to hurt her.

No, she wasn't the jealous type. But having said she had done so much for me, wouldn't she be hurt if she finds out I have the same feelings for her crush? Wouldn't it be selfish to put myself before her in matters of love?

Chae for one thing, was very sensitive. Such a thing would completely break her inside out. I didn't want our beautiful friendship to fall apart. So naturally being the mature one between the two of us, I sealed my lips, staying loyal to our friendship and not letting her know about my feelings.

The same feelings which would eventually tear me apart. When Jungkook told me the three magical words, it threw me to pure bliss for a moment. My feelings for Jungkook had grown day by day, to the point that I was physically started to drain. It pained to let him go. It pained to see him hurt, because of me.

There wasn't a point to think about the past anymore. He had moved on, so be it. I embraced myself with heartbreak and misery, in a hope to prove that I was strong.

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"What's with the early wedding you ask? Oh, actually Jungkook's father wants him to take over his business so that he can retire soon. We aren't completely prepared for this either because things seem pretty rushed up, though I guess we might work this out." Chaeyoung said in distasteful manner as if ignoring the topic of discussion.

I silently nodded, helping her select the perfect dress for her wedding day. She tried on a couple number of outfits, but nothing seemed to work out, judging by the irked expression she had.

"Lisa-yah help me please!" I shuffled my phone in my pocket as I joined her in the wardrobe rack filled with different types of aesthetically beautiful dresses.

"Try on some of these for me, if they'll look good on you I'll be convinced they're good." "But Chae, it's your weddingㅡ" "I know it Lis, I just need some of your help. You won't reject my plea right?" "Ugh, fine."

"Oh my god Lalisa! You look so pretty in this! I mean, all of them actuallyㅡ I loved this one the most. We're getting this and that's final." "But aren't you going to try this on yourself for once?"

"I know it's the best, for you."

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Time could get funny at times too. What seemed like two weeks passed by so fast just like a matter of hours, and today was the final step to let go.

I actively participated in wedding arrangements and surprisingly had fun planning it despite the fact she was marrying the love of my life.

Yes, thoughts of sabotaging marriage did cross my mind from time to time, but that wasn't an option to follow through, I couldn't be selfish in my grief.

"Uhm Lisa, could you go check on both Chaeyoung and Jungkook to see if they're in need of something?" Mrs Jeon requested me while checking the flower decorations.

Oh right, she wasn't aware of all the inner chaos going within the three of us. But to say she was a sweet soul, she politely took care of me like one of her own daughters all the while I stayed here for the wedding.

"Yes I will, Mrs Jeon." I nodded before running upstairs to check on Chae.

"Chae, all set?" I inquired as I close the door behind me. "Yeah. Lisa-yah, you did a fantastic work out there." Chaeyoung said looking outside the window, with a pale smile on her face.

The white gown was beautiful, hugging her body at the right places. She was adorable, I couldn't stop smiling at her even if all of this was deeply hurting me inside.

"Its nothing Chae, you're my best friend after all, ain't I obliged to do just this much for you?" "Thank you for everything Lisa. For making my best day even better by your kindness."

I couldn't help but smile at my precious bean. I noticed that emotions of worry were splattered all over her face. So I gently grabbed her shoulders, turning her to face me.

"Don't worry Chae, I know you'll cherish Jungkook with all your heart for the rest of his life. The ceremony will start just soon, Mrs Jeon." I gulped, refraining all my tendencies to break down and stifling my whimpers by biting my lip.

"I'll go check on your future husband, alright?" She immediately hugged me and nodded in affirmation.

I arrived at Jungkook's door and with a sigh, I knocked twice before entering in. I closed my eyes for a brief moment, trying to put forth all my courage together. When I slowly opened my eyes, I finally saw him.

He stood in front of the mirror, the white prince charming like suit hugging his muscular fit ㅡ the man was perfect, no joke. Every woman's dream. Whether I like it or not, we can't be together, how unfortunate.

"Lisa?" He called me out in a pale voice. The voice, I've been dreading to hear from the past two years since i last met him. He and I stood face to face and he let out a small grin. "It's really you." He showed his infamous bunny smile that makes me go crazy to this date, though all I could see in his eyes were melancholy and sorrow.

"Are you doing okay?" "I don't think I could answer that question Lisa, I can't say that I'm fine...cause I'm not."

"Do you love Chae? You wouldn't have agreed to thsi marriage if it weren't for your loveㅡ" "No. I never have. The only woman that has been in my heart is you, Lisa."

"You're kidding, aren't you? Today you're officially going to get married. We don't have time for humor now." "Whatever I said, I meant it with all my heart Lisa."

"Its been two years. Get over it, Guk." I said with a straight face. "Yes, it's been two years since I made a mistake that's continually making us suffer. After you rejected me, I tried to put on a best face. Chaeyoung confessed to me the very next day and I didn't want her to suffer the pain I had to go through. So without thinking twice, I accepted her proposal. It was then that Mingyu told me that you had feelings for me too but when I tried to contact to you it was too late; you had left."

This revelation made my world pause for the moment. This was the last moment, I couldn't sabotage everything I have held back just by breaking down like a weakling. So I took a step back.

"Can we stop arguing over something that can't be fixed anymore? It's for the better Jungkook, don't make this harder for both of us."

"We are such fools, loving each other so much to the point we can't even find a way to let go of one another. The feelings I've had for you have lasted for four years, such a long time ㅡ I can't get over it. I'm sure you won't, too."

I squint my eyes close. "I don't have feelings anymore for you Jungkook. We were something that ended before something could start between us."

Not convinced with my lie, he sneered, inching close to me, intertwining my hand with his and pulling me close to his chest to heart his heartbeats.

"Prove it to me. Tell me that you don't feel anything for us anymore. That we still don't deserve a chance after long years of holding back."

"I-"

I couldn't answer him. The pounding in my heart was so loud that even he could hear my palpitations. I knew, if I didn't speak at this moment, I would lose him forever.

"What is so hard? Why can't you tell me now, huh?" Jungkook grabbed my chin, his dark eyes now piercing gazes at my weak ones.

"Jungkook!" We heard Mrs Jeon shout and instinctively I pushed him away, our gazes landing at the door.

"Chaeyoung isn't in her room!
She ran away!"

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I leave the rest to your imagination :)

This might sound ridiculous, but writing this oneshot was actually tough, considering all of it to be written in Lisa's first pov. Its trashy anyway :(

Side note: smuts will be making an entry very soon! ;)
ㅡAuthornim.