I can't stand goodbyes.

It infers the notion that you are never coming back.

The same with "I wish you the best,"

If you really wished me the best you would have stayed.

You didn't have to lie.

Am I really that bad.

Am I not enough for you to stay.

Am I the reason you wanted to leave this all behind.

That is the worst.

That is the fucking worst.

You're the worst.

Are you really though?

I think if you were then I wouldn't love you as much as I do.

Or maybe I'm just a masochist.

That's probably even worse.

So therefore I'm the worst.

Is it really that bad to love someone like you.

Is the universe making me pay by driving me to the edge of insanity.

If that's the price I have to pay,

It's almost nothing compared to your life

(6.3.2018)