"Grandma, should we go to Daegu on the holidays?"

"Really? Are you really sure?" My grandma asked me and her face is really excited. It's weekend and I survived the quarterly exams.

I smiled at her, "Of course!" I replied.

"But Beomgyu..." She sat beside me while I'm folding my clothes. "How are you and—"

"Taehyun and I are just fine, you don't need to worry..." I said.

"Choi Soobin..."

It made me stopped from what I'm doing and looked at her, "S-Soobin hyung?" I pulled my gaze and released a deep sigh, "I don't know... I don't really know if we're good or not. I can't open things to him..." I answered her full of honesty.

"Why? Don't you trust him? Beomgyu, if anything bad happens in your relationship you should remember the day how you fell in love with him. How happy you are just by seeing his face. How his touch can give you so much comfort and how his voice can make your heart pound."

I gasp for air. Keep my mouth shut for seconds and think about how everything started. How Soobin hyung made me fell in love the first time I saw him wearing his smiles.

But

"Grandma, is it wrong if I'm thinking about someone else right now?"

She didn't answer right away and gave me hug while tapping my back so gently. "Clear your thoughts and think properly. Love isn't a simple thing that you're going to throw if you found someone more attractive and valuable to your eyes."

How grandma answered my question seems like she already knew what I'm experiencing right now. "How am I gonna fix things, grandma?"

"Are you admitting that you don't love him anymore?"

"NO! No! Never... I meant... I still love Soobin hyung, of course!" I answered in panic.

"I get it... I get it, okay? But Taehyun and you should talk about this. I can't give you the right answers... It's your heart Beomgyu."

I hugged her again, "Grandma no matter what happens I love you so much. I may do something I'm really going to regret so please forgive me. Please forgive. I didn't expect things to turn out like this. I'm so sorry..." Then I felt my tears streaming down in my cheeks.

"Aigoo... Your grandma will always forgive you no matter what is it. Okay? Now go and talk to Taehyun. Don't worry if you'll hurt someone because that's hove love works but my Beomgyu, I want you to be true and honest to your feelings, okay?"

I nodded, "Thank you grandma..." Then I stood up and get my coat and wear my shoes. "I'm going now..."

"Take care, Beomgyu..."

I smiled then started running outside. I didn't waste any seconds and immediately get a taxi and the driver started the engine. "To the highest building in Seoul, sir please."

He wasn't sure if what I'm really talking about but he knows where the highest building in here is. After almost 20 minutes of driving I arrived at Heaven’s Gate.

It's an 8 star hotel and it's really high as fuck. The problem here is that the security is so tight.

"Just let me in please..." I begged at the security guard. "I need to talk to someone inside!" I shouted in frustration.

"My God, you're really a dumb Choi Beomgyu."

I looked behind me and I saw Choi Yeonjun as usual who's wearing all black and just proud to whatever he's wearing.

"WHAT!? I'm really in a hurry right now, so I'm really sorry and I need to go up there!" I yelled at him.

"Go, go there now."

"Huh—"

Strong wind welcomes me that made me shiver in coldness. There I saw him looking so far away. I didn't know if he already noticed my presence but I walked towards him and I'm still facing his back.

I'm scared.

He might push me away because he doesn’t want me to stir my feelings. I don't know but I just want to talk to him right now.

"Stop..."

I halted from reaching his hands when he spoken, "T-Taehyun..."

"Hyung..."

"W-why?"

Hearing him calling me hyung makes my heart skip a beat. He doesn’t really like calling me that so hearing it from his lips is just so good for me.

"Is everything clear to you now?" He asked me.

"Yeah... But I still need to talk to you if this is just me or we're both having these feelings."

"I... I knew what I feel for you since the first day I saw you, Hyung." He confessed then paused and looked above, "But I shouldn't be feeling this bliss—"

"Why? Why are you going to stop it?"

"Don't you still get it? It means I will be against the one who let me live."

"The Deity? Kang Taehyun, you have me. We can fight for this. We can talk to him—" I didn't finished what I'm saying when he turns around and face me.

Why is his face so melancholic?

"Are you really going to let your grandma's life at risk?" He asked me.

“Let’s think of a way that can’t hurt her.” I suggested.

“How about Choi Soobin?”

“I… I’m going to tell him the truth after everything is already fine.”

He took small steps towards me and he held my hand, “We are going against the world, hyung. Do you still want to do this?” He asked me.

“Please… I don’t care anymore. I still have my third wish, I can use it if something really bad will happen.” I said.

I didn’t hear a thing from him and he just hugged me that made me tear up. “I’m sorry, Beomgyu hyung…” He apologized.

“For what? You didn’t do anything wrong…”

“I’m sorry for making things complicated to you… I’m really sorry, hyung.”

I heard him crying. I heard him cry for the first time. I tapped his back, “It’s okay… Everything is going to be fine, right? You were always saying that to me.” I whispered at his ear.

I felt his head nodded, “Yeah… We will conquer everything… I like you so much, hyung.”

“Yeah…” That’s the only thing I can say since I can’t tell him back how I feel for him.

The two of us went down and started walking in the street. “Taehyun, let’s buy some of those.” I said while pointing at a firecracker store.

“Why?” He asked.

“Just buy me, please?” Then I smiled at him.

We entered the store and we bought hand sparklers, “You really like those?” He asked me after we went out.

I smiled, “I like it so much… Now, we’re going somewhere.” I said.

His face looks so confused, “Where is it?”

“Ocean… Can you take me there?”

He chuckled, “Hahahaha! It’s cold in there, hyung.”

I held his hand, “Let’s go hahahah!”

“Then please close your eyes, hyung.”

I did what he asked me while smiling. After a second I can already smell the salty atmosphere and hear the ocean waves.

“We’re here…”

I slowly opened my eyes and my heart really pound so fast when I see the sea at this hour. I looked at him, “Thank you…”

He lighted our sparkles and it really made me happy. I’m smiling so wide while looking at it sparkling so beautiful. 

“It’s so beautiful, right?” I asked him.

“Really…”  He commented while looking at me play with sparklers.

I know this is going to be a tough fight but I can endure the pain for him. I don’t want to lose him. So, I’m willing to do everything for him.

Even my life.

After those we sat down in the sand while looking from afar. “Don’t resent yourself because of what’s happening, Taehyun. This is my fate, everything was planned to be like this.” I said while holding his hands and keeping it inside my coat’s pocket.

“I know… Did you know that the Deity actually warned me about these?”

That question made me looked at him, “Really!?”

“Mmm…” I heard him sighed after confirming it. “But since everything was planned already, I’ll still go for this.”

I smiled a bit and rest my shoulder in his, “I didn’t know love will be this complicated.”

“Me too, hahahaha.  How about Soobin?”

“Don’t worry… I really love him so much. I really do.” I looked at him with the face of assurance, “So, don’t worry. Leave Soobin hyung to me. I can handle it. I’m really going to hurt him so bad…  I really did a lot that can hurt him.”

“You too shouldn’t resent yourself, hyung.”

I smiled at him, “We can do this, right?”

“Of course… We can.”

I looked above where the moon is so bright together with the stars, “I don’t know what will happen after tonight but as long as I’m holding your hands, everything will be alright.”