[D-59]

"HEY! CHOI BEOMGYU!"

"What?" I replied in my most melancholic and bored tone to Jay.

"Are you okay? Are you sick?"

"Nope..."

"Why are you like that?"

I gave him a death glare, "Just tell me what you want to tell me already, you're pestering me."

"Ahh right! I... I have a girl friend." He proudly announced.

"The girl you met at the café, right?"

"Nope. Not her... Yang..."

"Yang Jung Won?"

"Who the heck is Yang Jungwon, Choi Beomgyu!? Yang! Yang Ira. It's Yang Ira."

"Ahh... Are you sure about her?" I asked him.

He winked at me, "YAP! You know, she's really beautiful and smart and and and and—"

"AND WHAT!?" I asked in irritation.

"And I fell for her the first time I saw her HAHAHAHAHH!"

I looked at him in disgust, "You okay now? Congratulations." I greeted him without any energy.

"HEY! What the heck is wrong with you, huh? Did Choi Soobin and you fought?" He asked me.

"Huh? No... I don't really feel so fine right now."

He nodded, "Ahh... Okay then."

Our English teacher arrived then the class started. It feels like I don't have enough sleep so I started sleeping in my desk.

During lunch I really tried my best not to show how problematic I am in front of Soobin hyung. "And you know what! I bought this!" He said and showed me tickets.

"Oh, what is this?" I asked him and get the ticket from his hands, "Sport indoor activity?" I asked him.

"Yas! I wanted to try a lot of things with you and I want us to do this hahahhaa! Is it okay to you?"

I chuckled, "Hyung, should we do this today?" I asked him.

"But we have class..."

"Let's go hahaha!" I held his wrists then we started running.

"Oh! Wait HAHAHA okay okay!"

We head outside, get on a bus and went to that building. We arrived and show our tickets.

"Whoa, I never knew I'm going to ditch classes..." He said while looking around.

"HAHAHHA I'm sorry hyung... At least you're going to enjoy ahahahah."

"Okay! HAHAHAH!"

We started different activities and play around. I've been laughing with him while trying everything for the first time.

If I keep on feeding myself with Hyung's presence and love, I might still change everything. If I keep on focusing myself to this man, everything will be alright.

"Hyung, what's love for you?" I asked him while we're having a break and eating in the table.

"Love? Well... Love has an abstract meaning but clear feelings. I don't really know how love works but I can say that if you love this person, you always wanted to be with him. Like time doesn't matter for you as long as you're together. You keep on thinking about him. "

"Then will is still be love even if you won't say that you love that person?"

"Of course! Ahahaha we have different love languages. But it's better to tell the person so it won't make any confusions. For example, I love you Choi Beomgyu."

"HAHAHAHA! Why are you suddenly saying that? HAHAHHA!" I laughed because it made me fluttered.

"Why? AHHAHA you've been saying that to me AHAHAHHA!"

"HAHAHAH okay okay, I'm sorry... Whoa, love is just so complicated." I commented.

"Right but not until you found the real love for you..."

I wonder what's the real love for me?

"Is it you Hyung?" I asked him. "My true love?"

"Of course! Who would else be? HAHAHAH." His answered made me laugh.

But you know Hyung? You can't say those if I didn't wished that you're going to fell in love with me.

I'm thinking if what are us if I didn't dragged you in my life? Maybe you're happy with someone else and maybe I... I'm with someone else.

And maybe that someone is Kang Taehyun.

A week had passed, no sign of Kang Taehyun just Soobin hyung who's always with me. I'm fine about it but I feel so incomplete.

This scares me a lot already.

"Beomgyu! Let's play in that one!" Soobin hyung shouted while pointing at that claw machine.

I excitedly jumped in front of him, "Remember when we got one from this kind of machine before? HAHAHAH!" I said while inserting a token.

"We?"

I stopped for a moment, "Ahh... I'm sorry HAHAHAH that was Jay and I HAHAHAH. I'm sorry about that ahahahah."

Why am I thinking about Taehyun!?

But because I can't concentrate already I couldn't win any price. "I'm sorry Hyung..."

"Why? HAHAHAH we should play a lot in here and just enjoy!" He said and smiled at me.

I also smiled at him then he turned his back at me to find another game to play. I looked around and every corner of this arcade just reminds me of Taehyun.

A deep sighed escaped from my mouth. What a deja vu is this? I didn't imagine coming here with a servant of Deity is much happier than the person I'm with right now.

The two of us is silently walking in the dark alley on the way to our house. I couldn't say any words as how much I messed up this day. I've been trying so hard to enjoy this day with Soobin hyung but why I couldn't?

"Beomgyu..."

I stopped from walking and he's behind me. I didn't look back at him and just looking in my feet.

"Why, Hyung?"

"Is there something wrong?" He asked in his soft yet manly voice.

"Nothing..."

"You've been spacing out a lot lately... Did I do something wrong?" He asked.

I shook my head, "No hahaha what are you talking about hahah—"

I felt his hug from behind, "Then why are you acting like this?" He whispered in his low voice.

Hyung, I don't even know already. I don't know what's happening. I can't admit a thing that may put someone's life in danger.

"Hahahhaa well.. Don't worry Hyung." I looked at him and he's teary eyed. "I'm fine hahah. We're fine hahaha. Don't worry, okay?"

"Are you sure?" He asked me. "Please tell me if you're not okay, if there's something wrong. So we could fix it right away, okay?"

I nodded, "Yeah ahaha. Aigoo ahahaha, I love you Hyung..." Then I smiled at him.

"Me too..."

By that we parted our ways. I walked home alone and cold. While taking the stairs I stopped to where I first saw him.

He was wearing white that time and he's back was the one who welcomed me. "Ahahaha... Stupid." I muttered.

"Right you are."

I turned around and I saw Yeonjun with a can of cola in his hand. "Wanna have some talk?"

We went inside iCart then he started eating cup ramen. I didn't know he's a big eater of ramens. "You're not going to eat?" He asked.

"No thanks..." I said.

"Hey..." He put down his chopsticks and looked at me, "I know what's going on in here, okay? Those weird feelings of yours? Will smaaaaaaaash everything down. Believe me." He said in his casual tone and eats again.

"Is this the plan of Deity?"

"Plan? Nope. This is your fate and you can't do anything about it. Choi Soobin and Kang Taehyun are really fated to be in your life." He said.

"What should I do to pull them out from my life?" I asked him.

"You have your third wish, punk."

My eyes widen when he said that, "Then can—"

"No way. Don't ever use it to undo everything." He cut me off and pointed me with his chopsticks, "I said you can't do anything about it already. Even if you undo everything, all of those will still repeat. Soobin and Taehyun will still appear in your life because it's your fate."

"Is it my fate to be hurt like this?"

He drank water, "Absolutely."

I rolled my eyes and scoff, "I didn't wish for any of this..." I commented.

"What are you talking about? Hey dummy, you wished for love and that's why you're experiencing all of this. Love isn't just happiness at all. It's about how love hurt you and learns the meaning of it afterwards. Love is how your heart chooses whom to love. You get me?"

I lean closer to him, "Love... is about who you choose to love?"

"Yeah... It's up to you if who are you going to love. It's not just because you feel this and that. If you really want to love that person then you'll do everything for Kang Taehyun."

Mentioning his name made everything more complicated to me. I'm already confused in everything then hearing this from Yeonjun made it more even harder.

"I..."

He looked at me very serious. Like he's waiting for something, something I knew. I'm dumb but I'm trying to be careful, now that everything is getting closer to the edge.

"You what?"

"I'm going home now." I said and stood up. I already turned around when he spoke again.

"One more thing, love is something you cannot stop that easily."