•Sunday•

I decided that it would be a good idea to see Jennie, I invite her over to study and she accepts. I bet you can imagine how excited I am. Oddly enough, none of us had homework to study. But I didn't care, I get to be with Jennie. She went off about the new production and how she's so excited about it.

I can listen to her talk all day honestly. At this moment I'm looking at her, she's sitting on her side of the couch. My heart pounding in my ears. She chuckles and looks up at me. "Got a staring problem Kookie?" She asks, that smile on her face, but not the smile I see when she's with Taehyung. "Can't I look at you?" I ask, my heart is pounding because I didn't expect her to catch me in the act. She shrugs. "I guess." She says looking down at her phone. I take a deep breath. "Do you ever think of us?" I ask.

Red flags go off in my head, I shouldn't be doing this. Lalisa said to only do this if I'm ready.

She smiles at her phone. "Jennie.." I call her, she looks up at me chuckling a bit. "Did you ask something?" She asks. I peak at her phone, Taehyung. I frown. Her phone catches her attention again and that smile spreads on her face again. Anger grows inside me. "Why do you like him?" I ask a bit rude, and out of no where. She looks at me right away. "Oh, you heard me this time?" I ask, rolling my eyes and leaning back against the couch. "What is your problem?" She asks.

"Why do you like Taehyung?" I ask. Her eyebrows knit. "Cause I can." She says, making my blood boil. "No, you can't." I say. Her jaw drops, yeah, I'm surprised from myself too. "Excuse me?" She asks. "I said you can't like him." I say again, I try to get myself to stop but I can't. She throws her head back and laughs.

"You don't tell me what to do." She tells me. I look at her mad. "He's not good for you." I say, my voice raised a bit. "Who are you, my father?" She asks, standing up becoming more mad. "Someone has to be." Her nose wrinkles and she growls. "Don't say that!"

"Taehyung isn't the one for you." I say standing up too, changing the hight difference. I was determined to prove my point, but knowing Jenbie, she won't listen to me. She laughs at me. "You don't know anything.", "Yes, I do." I say without hesitation. "If you know so much, whose the one for me then? Huh?" She asks. I was ready to burst. "Me! I'm the one for you!" She goes into a neutral state, like she was dumb struck. "What?" She asks. "Haven't... you noticed my feelings for you?" I ask, my voice shaking.

I'm scared, I'm scared that everything will change for the worse and I'll lose Jennie the way I lost my father. For another person. I see her breathing rough. I should have listened to Lalisa, I wasn't ready for this. And this wasn't the way to do things. "What are you talking about?" She asks. My palms become sweaty and I was becoming frustrated. She knew exactly what I was talking about. "You think of me as a sister, don't you?" She asks, I knew that I'd be brother zoned.

I run my fingers through my hair, "No, Jennie. I don't think of you as a sister." I finally confess. Her chest elevates as she holds her breath. "I've been in love with you for the past five years, and I've been fighting this feeling for so long." I finally say, I take a step closer to her. "I'm so confused." She shakes her head, looking down at her feet. "What else is there to be confused about? I'm in love with you Jennie, I want to be with you. I want to show everyone that you're mine and-" she looks at me weird.

"That I'm yours?" Ah crap. "I didn't mean it in the way you-", "This is about Taehyung, isn't it? You're telling me about some fake feelings to get me to stay away from him." She explains something that's so outrageous, I can't believe she's saying this. "No, Jennie. I'm really in love with you." Her eyebrows knit and she looks at me in shock. "You don't know what love is, Jungkook." She says. "I may not know what love is, but I know how it feels because I feel it when I'm with you." Her eyes water.

"Why are you doing this to me?" She asks. My eyebrows knit in confusion. "I'm not doing anything to you Jennie, I'm confessing to you." I explain. "This can't be, Jungkook. You can't love me, we've known each other since we were babies." She says. "They always say best friends make the best lovers." I add. She shakes her head. "No, they don't." She says right away, shaking her head and looking across the room to a picture I had of us on my night stand.

It was the day we played on the playground, and Jennie kissed my cheek to hide me from the Goblins. I wish that I could hide now.. I bite my lip to the thought of the memories, and I'm instantly regretting my choice to tell Jennie how I felt. "Jennie." I whisper. "What? What, Jungkook?" She asks, looking up at me. I caress her face with my hand and lower my head.

I have always dreamt of my first official kiss being with Jennie. Before I can touch lips with her, or even get close enough to her, for that matter, she shoves me back, making me almost lose my footing. "What the hell are you doing?" She asks. I stare at her, my heart pounding. "I don't know what's wrong with you Jungkook, but stay the hell away from me." She says grabbing her school bag and running out of my room.

I stand there, dumbstruck. Was it wrong of me to try to kiss her? Yes. Am I as confused as ever now? Yes. Was there a chance that I would be returned love? No.

I fall to the couch and for some reason, losing Jennie to my stupid decision to tell her how I felt, made me extremely emotional. I bite my lip, looking down at my hands. Bringing my knees up and setting my elbows on top of them, my fingers gripping my hair. My tears running down my cheeks. I hate myself, I hate that I love her, I hate that I confessed, I hate that I'm not Taehyung... because she seemed to want him more, than me.

Memories flood into my head, and it makes me breakdown more. I just ruined a great friendship. I should have known that she'd react this way, she's never seen me with such emotions that I have for her. I can't control my body as it shakes and I feel empty. I feel so weak, a boy crying? Really? I bang my fists against the couch several times before I pull a pillow against my face, specifically the one she always used when we sat on here together. It smelt like her, her perfume.

I lay on my side and look up at the door, hoping and praying that she'd walk through the door and tell me that she was wrong. That she'd tell me that she realized that she has feelings for me and she wants to be with me. I wait here for hours, tears no longer leaving my eyes as I continue to stare at the door mindlessly. "Please, Jennie.." I plead in a whisper. I bite my lip. "Jungkook, you home?" I hear my mother arrive from work. I let out a breath and wipe my face with my shirt, I head down stairs and greet her with a kiss and a hug.

She looks at me, "Jungkook, are you okay?? Is there something wrong?" She asks. I shake my head. "I'm just really tired from studying." I explain. Her eyebrows knit. "Jungkook." She says, knowing very well that I wasn't telling the truth. "Eomma, everything is fine, okay? I'm great. I'll feel better when I go to sleep." I tell her, but the truth is, I won't be getting any sleep tonight. I feel too broken to sleep.

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I shake my head in confusion. "He can't love me, why would he love me?" I ask myself. My eyes will with tears and I run to my house. When I barge through the door my mother peeks her head into the hall. "Jennie? What's wrong?" She asks. "Nothing eomma." I say walking upstairs. "Jennie, do I need to call Jungkook over to cheer you up?" I shut my eyes tight, and stop on the steps. "No, eomma." I turn and look at her. "Its all because of Jungkook." I say.

Her eyebrows knit. "What? I don't understand... Jungkook would never hurt you." She says. I wipe my eyes. "He's just confused me, that's all." I confess. She slightly tilts her head and smiles a bit. "He told you how he feels.. didn't he?" I look at her shocked. She chuckles. "Ah.. little kitty.. you'll have to learn how to read people better." She says, I continue to stare at her. "Baby, I've seen it in his eyes way before, when you were young kids barely hitting the double digits."

I stare at her in disbelief, Jungkook wouldn't like me that long. He's not that idiotic.. is he? To think I'd actually have any sort of feeling for him other than a brother or a friend? "No." I shake my head. "Yes baby, I'd watch him very carefully. He always would look at you while you did something and he'd have that smile on his face. That sparkle in his eyes, he's so in lov-", "No! Eomma! Don't say it! I don't believe you!" I yell.

She stares at me, "Then why are you crying?" It was like a elephant was sitting on my chest. "I'm going up stairs to study." I say, not answering her. I walk up to my room and close the door. Throwing my bag on the office chair in my room. I grip my hair and bite tongue as my body shakes. "Stupid Jungkook, stupid Jungkook, stupid Jungkook." I whisper over and over again.

"Why do you have to ruin everything?" My breath is heavy. I turn and look at the book shelf against the wall in front of me, my eyebrows knit. I run up to it and toss the pictures of Jungkook and I, on the ground. I kick the frames under my bed and jump on the mattress. I shut my eyes, I hear my phone beep and I pray that it's not Jungkook. I get up and walk over to my school bag, grabbing my phone.

Taehyung

I smile endlessly, answering the call, "Aye, sneak out tonight?" He asks. I hear a tick, sound on my window, I walk towards it and open my blinds. I smile. "You know my mother likes you, why sneak around when you can just ask her?" I ask, twisting my fingers around my curtains. "Fine, only because I don't want to ruin my reputation with your mother." He says.

I laugh, "Okay." I whisper. I can see his funny shaped smile as he hangs up and walks towards the front of my house. My eyes wander up to Jungkook's window, the lights are out. I inhale and instantly shut the curtains. "Jennie!" I hear my mother, I smile. I run down and see Taehyung already looking up at me.

"Taehyung says he wants to take you out." She says. I can't take my eyes off him. "Oh?" I ask, though I already knew that. "How are you feeling, are you okay with that?" My mother asks me. I finally look at her, "Oh yes Eomma, it would make me feel a whole lot better." I tell her with my puppy eyes. "Okay, but don't bring her back too late." She says setting her hand on his head.

"Yes ma'am." He says bowing to her. She smiles and pulls him into a hug. He hugs her back and they pull away, "Have fun." She says to me, pulling my hand and hugging me tight. She kisses my cheek and the second she let's me go, I grab Taehyung's hand and pull him out the door. My mother stands at the door and waves, I wave back and when we are far enough I he stops and pulls a arm around me.

He hugs me from behind and I smile, "Wasn't that easy?" I ask. He nods and kisses my cheek before pressing his cheek against mine. I feel a whole lot better with Taehyung, I don't need to be thinking about stupid things that are irrelevant. I turn around and face him, I wrap my arms around his neck. He leans forward and I throw my head back laughing.

He chuckles and pulls the back of my head and connects our lips. Why would I have feelings for anyone else other than Taehyung?

**

I stare up at the ceiling, I look at the clock. 6:30pm. It's still really early, what am I doing in bed? Oh, my broken heart has caused me to stay in bed for the rest of the day. I'm not tired at all. I set my hand on my chest, am I dumb? What's wrong with me? What's so unbelievably horrible about me that Jennie absolutely can't love me? Or even have the slightest feeling for me?

I slowly wrap my arms around myself and shut my eyes as tears threaten again. My breath shakes and I turn on my side, curling into the fetal position. I slowly open my eyes and my tears fall. Am I such a child that I don't know what love is? I will never experience it.. will I? It feels as if my whole body is in pain.

There's a knock on the door, and without invitation my mother walks in. When she walks over to me and kneels down, I try to pretend that I'm asleep. "Kookie, I know you're not sleeping. I know that you're not sleepy at all, Jennie's mother told me what happened." She runs her fingers over my hair.

Now I really feel like I'm weak, even my mother has seen me cry. "I know you love her very much baby, but it's okay." She whispers. I still don't open my eyes, I feel the back of her fingers wipe my cheeks. "I know that you're hurting, and that's okay too. But don't just lay around here and do nothing, please do something." She pleads, her hand rubbing my back.

"I'm stupid eomma." I tell her finally opening my eyes and looking at her. She makes clicking sounds with her tongue, "Nooo, no no. You're not." She starts. "You just fell for the wrong person, Jennie doesn't deserve you." She says running her fingers over my hair again. "But I want her." I confess. "You know baby, I've realized a lot of things since you two have grown up together.." she pauses.

"Jennie is very demanding and pushy, she likes to be the center of attention. And I personally believe that she isn't the girl for you. She is just supposed to be your friend, Jennie is just the huge obstacle that you have to face in order to find your girl." She smiles. "Now stop crying baby, and come down to eat the food I made you." She kisses my forehead.

I sit up when she stands up. "The food is great, I promise." She says. "Oh, I believe you eomma." I nod, wiping my ugly face. There a ring at the door bell. I wonder who that can be. My mother exits the room and I walk into the bathroom, I make sure that I look decent. "Jungkook, Lalisa is here?" My mother announces in more of a question. It was like my heart stopped, how did she know where I live? I fix my face and hair, checking myself out, making sure that I look decent.

I try different smiles, fake, fake, fake. "Jungkook!" I hear my mother. I quickly exit the bathroom and head down stairs. "Hi Jungkooook." Lalisa smiles and waves at me. This smile grows on my face. "Hi Lalisa." I say. When I'm up to her she grins. "Sorry for the unexpected appearance.. I was just worried about you." She tells me.

"You were worried about me?" I ask. She nods, "Your bed time isn't 6, so I kept thinking maybe you were studying.. but you would have told me. So I wasn't sure if it was something else." She shrugs. "It was just a feeling I guess." She looks in my eyes, she sees it... doesn't she? "Well, it's absolutely so nice to see you again Lalisa. Have you had dinner? Why don't you stay?" My mother suggests.

Lalisa looks at my mother, "No, I haven't eaten. My parents are at work, I was going to eat noodles." She says. "Oh no no no, I've made dinner, please stay." Lalisa looks around. "I don't think I should." She whispers. "You're going to stay and have dinner." I tell her. She throws her bottom lip out. "But-", "No buts." I interrupted her.

"I'll go get another plate set up." My mother says happily as she walks over to the kitchen. "Jungkook, what's wrong? Are you okay?" She asks. I look at her and simply shake my head. She frowns and pulls me into a hug, I guess she knows. Well, I'm sure she could guess. I wrap my arms around her, I shut my eyes tighter than ever.

I don't want to cry in front of her. "We can talk about it later." She whispers before letting me go. "Okay Kiddos, time to eat." My mother announces. I grab Lalisa's wrist and direct her to the dinning room. She hesitantly sits down, I wonder why she feels so bad about having dinner with us.

Through out dinner my mother asked her so many questions, one of them being, "What do you think of my son?" I nearly choked on my rice. "I think that Jungkook deserves a lot more than what he thinks he deserves." She answered my mother. I look at her confused, what exactly can she mean by that? Something about Jennie?

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