warning: depression shit coming your way after
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y/n falls asleep instantly once her/his head hits the pillow after a long day at school. As if on cue, her/his brain gives her/him something to dream about. But something about this dream seemed off to her/him. This dream felt like reality but y/n keep saying to herself/himself that it isn’t because Peter is sitting in front of her/him.

Peter has tears running down his face as a sob racks through his body. Bucky appears and sits down next to him. “Hey kid, what’s wrong?” Bucky asks Peter as he wraps his arms around his shoulder.

“I shouldn’t have left Mister Stark,” He sobs out as he places his hands over his face, trying to shield himself. Then Peter Quill appears in y/n’s vision and looks at Peter Parker. As if sensing someone standing near him, Peter P. looks up and instantly frowns angrily. “It’s all your fault,” Peter P. says as he swiftly stands up having Bucky stand up quickly as well in case something breaks out.

Quill lets out a nervous chuckle as he looks at Peter. “What is my fault?” He says as he frowns his eyebrows at Peter.

“THIS! ALL OF THIS!” Peter says as he throws his hands out emphasizing everything around him. “IF YOU DIDN’T LET YOUR FEELINGS GET IN THE WAY, WE WOULDN’T HAVE LOST AGAINST THANOS!” Peter says as he steps closer towards Quill.

“How could it be my fault?” Quill asks clearly still confused only angering Peter more.

“WE LOST AGAINST THANOS BECAUSE YOU DISTRACTED YOURSELF!” Peter said as he stepped a little closer.

“Still don’t see how it’s my fault,” Quill says with a shrug.

Peter shakes his head and turns around as if to leave but quickly turns around and punches Quill square in the jaw. Bucky quickly wraps his arms around Peter, pulling him away from Quill before anything more drastic happened.

“What the hell man!?” Quill said as he held his jaw and looked at Peter with a shocked look.

“IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT WE’RE HERE! IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT!” Peter cries out as he starts to breathe rapidly scaring Bucky and Sam.

“It’s all his fault --- it’s all his fault I’m here and not there with Aunt May, Mister Stark, and --- and my girlfriend/boyfriend,” Peter mumbles as he continues to breathe rapidly and heavier sobs rack through Peter.

“Hey --- Hey Peter, you’re okay, everything is going to be okay,” Sam said as he kneeled in front of Peter. Bucky continues to hold Peter securely close to him as he gives Quill a death-like-look.

Gamora soon comes into view and makes her way to where she heard the commotion. She looks at Quill holding his jaw which causes her to look at him confused, then her gaze turns to where Peter continues to sob uncontrollably in Bucky’s arm with Sam trying to help him calm down.

“What did you do Peter?” Gamora says as she continues to look at Peter with an angered look. Peter meets her gaze but closes his eyes as he tried to control his breathing.

“What?” Quill says as he turns and looks at Gamora with a shocked look.

“What did you do Quill?” Gamora said through clenched teeth as she looks at Quill with an angered look.

“I did nothing!” Quill protests.

“Say that to the kid that’s crying his poor heart out,” Gamora sneers as he points behind her towards Peter.

Quill looks between Peter and Gamora with a clueless and unbelieved look on his face. Gamora scuffs as she starts to walk away from Quill. She then stops in her tracks and looks behind her shoulder. “You should’ve killed Thanos and forget about me,” She says before she continues walking.

“Gamora wait!” Quill said as he and Gamora both walked out of y/n’s line of vision.

y/n then turns and looks back at Peter who already got control of his breathing but continues to cry silently as Bucky and Sam stay with him to keep company.

“Peter?” y/n says as she/he felt her/his own tears fall down her/his face.

Peter looks up and around swearing, he heard his name. But he then shakes his head and looks back to the floor.

“PETER!” y/n screams out as she/he tried to reach for Peter but soon everything turns pitch black and a blinding light shines on y/n’s face. Then a piercing pain courses through her/his body as she/he wakes up with a shake to her/his body.

“Y/N!” Tony yelled out while shaking her/him awake from whatever she/he was dreaming about.

y/n opens her/his eyes and looks around her/his surrounding. When she/he realizes where she/he was, she/he starts to shake her head. “No --- no. I need to go back.” y/n mumbles as she/he tried to back to sleep in hopes to see Peter again, but Tony wouldn’t allow it.

“y/n what’s wrong?” Tony says as he holding onto y/n’s shoulders tightly, restricting her/him from going back to sleep.

When y/n looks at Tony everything just falls apart for her/him. y/n starts to sob controllable as she/he remembers how Peter cried about losing everyone he loved. How it broked y/n’s heart seeing her/his boyfriend cried for his own return.

“I --- I saw him.” y/n sobs out to Tony, which only causes him to look at her/him confused.

“Saw who y/n?” Stark asked fearing the answering he was thinking of.

“I saw Peter, he --- he was crying for his return. He cried about he shouldn’t have left you behind, and he was missing Aunt May, you and I.” y/n sob softly trying to control her/his own breathing now.

Tony felt his heartbreak as he looked at the heartbroken y/n. He felt tears start to build up in his eyes which causes him to gently let go of y/n and stand up heading to the door. “When you see Peter again, tell him it isn’t the same without him here,” he says as he gives y/n a sad smile towards her/his way.

“Sure Mister Stark,” y/n says with a small smile.

Tony exits out of y/n's room and makes his way towards his room. As he placed one foot into his room, he looked to the door at the end of the hall.

Peter’s room.

Sighing heavily, Tony makes his way towards Peter's door and opens it. He walks to his bed and sits down on the edge. Tony looks around his room with tears brimming to the rim of his eyes. He looks next to him and sees Peter's jacket that he wears almost all the time.

Tony takes hold of Peter’s jacket and holds in both of his hands. Before Tony knew he begins to sob uncontrollably into Peter's jacket. “Peter --- God come back to us,” He says into the air as he continues to sob.

“Mister Stark?” y/n says as she/he stands at Peter’s door.

“y/n,” Tony says as he places the jacket back in it’s spot and wipes his eyes away from the lingering tears as he pats the spot next to him.

y/n quickly makes her way towards the spot Tony patted for her/him to sit.

They both sat in silence as they looked at the floor. y/n then took hold of Tony’s hand, squeezing his hand slightly. “You know it's okay to cry for him Mister Stark,” y/n spoke softly as she/he looked at Tony with a small smile.

“I --- I know y/n it's just. . .it hurts so much. And I honestly can't grasp around the fact that --- that he’s gone,” Tony whispers out at the end as more silent tears escape from his eyes.

“He's not really gone Mister Stark just think about it as if he's. . .lost. He’s only looking for his way back to us, he just doesn’t know yet but knowing how smart Peter is, he'll find a way.” y/n said as she/he hugged Tony's side.

Tony wraps his left arm around y/n and gives her a slight squeeze. “Thanks kid,” he said as he kissed her head.

“No problem Mister Stark,” y/n said as she/he let go of Tony and made her/his way back to her/his room.

Tony looks up to the ceiling and starts to softly cry as he smiles towards it. “Peter, if you hear me --- just know I love you kid. Just come back home for me, for y/n, and for Aunt May. We all miss you.” Tony said as he got up and made his way back to his room.

In the corner of the room, where no one looked, is a hazy image of Peter smiling as a few tears left his eyes. “I promise Mister Stark, I'll come back home,”

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