I'm obsessed don't question me

Song: Drunt text by Henry Moodie

5th of November
When I walked you home
That's when I nearly said it
But then said "Forget it" and froze

Do you remember?

You probably don't

'Cause the sparks in the sky
Took a hold of your eyes while we spoke

Yesterday, drank way too much

And stayed up too late
Started to write but I wanna say
Deleted the message, but I still remember it said

I wish I was who you drunk texted at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til 3
And you can't fall asleep
Waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walk by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open
Instead of just hoping
You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

April the 7th

And nothing has changed
It's hard to get by
When you're still on my mind every day

Sometimes I question
If you feel the same?
Do we make stupid jokes?
Trying to hide that we're both too afraid to say

I wish I was who you drunk texted at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til 3
And you can't fall asleep
Waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walk by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open
Instead of just hoping
You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

Oh, and here we go again
Destroy myself to keep my friend
Hiding away 'cause I was afraid you'd say no
I wonder if I cross your mind
Half as much as you do mine
If I tell you the truth
What will I lose?
I don't know

I wish I'd sent you that drunk text that midnight
I was just scared it would ruin our friendship
But I really meant it
I wonder how you would reply

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Song: Wondering by Olivia Rodrigo and Julie Lester (from HSMTMTS)

Seems like a part of me will always have to lose
Every single time I have to choose
Swore that it felt right, but was I wrong?
Is this where I'm supposed to be at all?

I don't have the answers, not today
It's like nothing makes the questions go away
What I'd give to see if the grass was greener

On the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough, or would I still be wondering?

If I could go back and change the past
Be a little braver than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything
To me?

Feels like I might have broke the best thing that I had
I said too much to ever take it back
Scared I'll never find something as good
And would I even know it if I could?

From the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough, or would I still be wondering?

(Or would I still be wondering, oh)

If I could go back and change the past
Be a little brave than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything

Maybe I should turn around and take the other road
Or maybe I'm just looking for what I already know

I'm just wondering

If I could go back and change the past
Be a little brave than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything
To me?