Dear Yoongi,

Do you remember when we were kids and you promised that we would be friends forever?

Well it's been another six years, I'm twenty-four now, and you're nowhere in sight.

There were so many times that I wanted to phone you, or even message you to tell you how I feel, or about something that had happened in my life.

Did your parents tell you that I graduated university with a degree in contemporary dance? It was the most challenging thing I've ever had to endure apart from losing you.

How did things unfold for you? Are you still writing music and pursuing Composition like you always dreamed of?

Do you perhaps have a family now? Are you at least happy? Alive even?

I tried calling once, but the operator said you didn't exist any more.

You had always been such a big part of my life, but it was getting harder and harder to think about the old times that we shared, they were fading quickly like an old photograph left out in the sunlight too long.

Do you wish things were different, Yoongi? Do you wish things could go back to the way they were when we were young and naïve to the world around us?

My mom told me that you moved out not long after that night we called it quits. I hope you're somewhere nice.

I know that you've moved on, but I need you to know that I forgive you.

You may have hurt me in the past, but I am no longer upset with you, I wish only the best for you and I'm not one to hold a grudge.

I had used to tell you that you were my whole world, and that was my truth for a long period of time. I would only wish you the best, despite all we went through.

I want you to be happy and I want good things to come to you.

You deserve to live the life that you have always wanted to live, even if I'm not a part of it.

But most of all, I wish I could tell you all of this, and how I feel, to your face.

If you've read all the letters I passed on to your mom, just know that everything has come from the bottom of my heart.

Good luck with everything and continue to be the best person that I know you can be.

Love always,
PJM

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