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Pair¬ jungkook×she ft. taehyung

Genre¬ (major) angst, fluff, romance, cyborg!au

Synopsis¬ he wants her happiness, but he believes that it isn't with him.

Words¬ 1.08k

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"Why the f*ck do you not understand? You were her happy ending! And now you're not, and that's your fault!"

"You don't have to keep saying that to my face, you know?" I mutter quietly, as if not hearing it would make the fact any better.

"Well, if you don't make this shit right before she leaves, I'm throwing you off this window I swear to God!"

I huff. It isn't that I'm loving doing this to her. There is a reason behind it. And it is that she deserves better. Better than someone who is a naturally human. Someone, who's capable of giving her the family she desires and deserves. Me, I'm not it. I'll never be. And that fact breaks me up.

"I—" I sigh. Taehyung may think that I'm fool to give all that up, but, the truth is that I don't want to be any more selfish, I don't want to take anymore than I already have. Even more so, when I'm incapable of giving back.

A tear breaks through to trace down my cheek.

Taehyung's eyes visibly soften, and the intense heat coming from him dies down a bit. He scoots closer to wrap a brotherly arm around my shoulder. That's all it takes for me to completely break down. He brings me closer to embrace me warmly, before sighing.

"Why are you doing this to yourself and her, Kook? It's clear that you don't want to." He rubs my back comfortingly.

"I—I don't wanna waste her anymore Tae. She's so much more without me, and all I'm doing is—i-is hold her back." I sniffle, slight embarrassment hitting me.
"All I am doing is take, take and just take. I don't think I-I can do that to her anymore."

Meeting his eyes, I find confusion swimming in them.

"I—I don't think I understand Kook. What—who told you this? Where is this coming from?"

I huff again, this time in frustration. It hurts to talk about this again and again.

"It's the truth Hyung. She—she won't say it, because she is like that, but it's the truth. And you know it too."

A lump forms painfully in his throat causing a few tears to escape again.

"I-I took her heart, Hyung. She gave it to me. Me! Who cannot even give her a family. I-I saw her journal Hyung. She wants a family. Kids. With me. And, I can't even—"

A moment of silence fills the air.

"You are right. She gives, gives and gives to you. But," he wipes away a fresh tear from my cheek, "she does so, not because she is compelled to, or even because she thinks of you as her responsibility. She does it because she wants to. She gave you her heart Kook, and I don't think she'd do that for just anybody."

The same heart runs wild inside my chest, the heart that was given to me 5 years ago.

"You know what she said to me when I asked her if she's sure to do the transplant? She said that if she would be proud of just one thing in her life, it would be this. She said that you already had it in your hands, she gave it you long ago, 'what difference does it make if I give it to him physically as well?' " he lightly chuckles, probably looking back at the memory.

"You don't know how much it hurts her every time you feel guilty for something she did for you when all she wants is your happiness. Your happiness is hers. As for the' family' part, you know it isn't impossible to conceive with a cyborg. Yes, it is rare, but you can't give up without even giving it a try. Tell me, is she on the pill?"

I nod bashfully.

"Why Kook? Why is she on the pill if she wants a baby with you? I know my best friend. Has she discussed this with you yet?"

Looking back, she has always wanted kids, kept this wish transparent before me, yet never discussed it with me. I shake my head.

"There you go. She isn't off the pill because she'd want you to be ready before going for something this huge. You don't know Kook, maybe if she was off it, she could've conceived, not extremely sure about it, but all of your monthly medical reports indicate that you are healthy, in every sense. "

This sends me into a spiral. Can I really impregnate? So full of emotions and disappointed in myself I was, that didn't think of it this way. All I thought of was the fact that conceiving with a cyborg is rare, like a 3/10 cases.

"You know what, Kook? You should get back home, back to her. Discuss the matter with her. You want a family with her too, right?"

There's no doubt about that. It's all I'll ever want. I love her that much.

"More than anything."

Taehyung smiles.

"I know. But for that, you need to talk it out, plan it with her. Stay with her. And she plans on leaving for her parents' for a week tomorrow."

"But what if I can't? What if I disappoint her ag—"

"Shh Kook, you'll never know unless you truly try for it. And you could never disappoint her."

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I stand in front of our home with clammy hands, after ringing the doorbell.

A few short seconds later, the door flies open. The silence between us is filled with the sniffles that start arising from her. And then she embraces me tightly.

"Koo, you're here..." she cries into my chest, as I tighten my arms around her. My sight blurs with a glaze of tears. I burry my head in the crook of her neck, inhaling deeply.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"I love you Koo. So much. Please don't do that again. Please don't ever leave me again."

A cry leaves my lips.

"I won't. Ever. I love you."

Pulling back a bit, still in her embrace, I look into her red rimmed eyes. I kiss those gently, one by one, tasting the saltiness on my lips.

"And, I wanna try for a baby, too. I want that more than anything."

Fresh tears run down her cheeks.
"Really?"

"I love you, and I really want it."

She smiles through her tears to lean in to kiss me slowly, lovingly.

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