TITLE: make your heart happy and free
GENRE: fluff, slight angst

SUMMARY: they are in love with each other. but the thing is, renjun has a boyfriend.

note: feat. yangyang, fwb!renhyuck, side couple!nomin, cheating, college au, mentions of sex
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Donghyuck takes a deep sigh, staring at the ceiling of his room, not realizing the sound of shower from his bathroom stopped.

The door opens and it reveals Renjun who is drying his hair off. He furrows his eyebrows as he looks at Donghyuck. "Hey!"

The latter finally notices and almost immediately gets up and sits on his bed, letting his feet touch the floor. He turns around to look at Renjun, "You're finished. In a rush?" he then smiles teasingly.

Renjun nods, "Mhm. Yangyang and I have a date later."

Donghyuck chuckles, smirking. "Funny. You let me fuck you first before going on a date. How lucky am I, tell that to your boyfriend." Renjun rolls his eyes and throws the towel towards him. Fortunately, he quickly catches it before it even hit him and laughs.

"I have to go now, Hyuckie. Thank you for tonight." Renjun smiles slightly.

Donghyuck smirks, "No problem. Next time again?" The other just nods before holding the door knob. "Hey, how about my good bye kiss?" He's just teasing him but he didn't expect Renjun to walk towards him. Unconsciously, he leans forward and uses his palms to guide himself on the bed.

Renjun softly chuckles, shaking his head, before leaning forward and press a short kiss onto the younger's lips.

Donghyuck licks his lips and smiles widely. "Good night, baby. Take care!"

Renjun nods, an obvious blush forming on his cheeks, and turns around to finally exit Donghyuck's bedroom. He smiles one last time that night before closing the door, leaving the other alone again.

Donghyuck takes a deeper sigh, goes back to laying on his bed and stares at the boring ceiling of his room once more.

×××

Holding a tray of meal, Donghyuck enters the extention of their cafeteria to find himself a table. As he walks inside, he sees Renjun in one of the tables and decided to come up there to surprise him.

When he's about to be in front of the table, he stops himself because his bestfriend's boyfriend, Yangyang, suddenly came and sat next to Renjun. The latter turns to his boyfriend to greet him with a hug. Donghyuck pokes the inside of his cheek with his tongue, gripping on his tray tightly.

He gulps and finally turns around to find another table. Luckily, he sees one where his other friends Jeno and Jaemin are sitting at.

"Donghyuck Lee!"

He walks fast and sits next to Jeno, who is sitting across Jaemin.

"I see the boyfriend." Jaemin suddenly says. "He looks nice, though."

"He is." Donghyuck sighs heavily, putting the tray on the table.

"If you're like, in love with your bestfriend, why didn't you tell him before he even had a boyfriend? Such a missed opportunity." Jeno then says.

Donghyuck stares at him for a second before taking a sigh once again. "It's not that easy. Renjun's parents don't like me for him, either way, whether a friend or boyfriend. But you see, when they met Yangyang, he immediately managed to make them like him, I don't know why, though."

"Wait," Jaemin furrows his eyebrows, putting his iced coffee on the table. "why don't his parents like you?"

"I don't know. Maybe I'm too annoying for their liking, like, my personality."

"Huh?!" Both Jeno and Jaemin exclaim. Jeno even stops eating and left his spoon mid-way.

"You're one of the most likeable person I've met." Jeno says and Jaemin nods in agreement.

Donghyuck chuckles, shrugging his shoulders. "Hey, hey, stop! I'm going to eat now."

As he's about to put his spoon in his mouth, Jaemin pokes his arm slightly to get his attention. Donghyuck looks at him and sees him looking behind him.

He turns around and sees Renjun walking towards their table. He hides his smile but pressing his lips together.

"Hyuck-ah," Renjun calls out when he's finally in front of him. "For you." He hands him an egg sandwich wrapped in double layer of paper tissues. "Mom actually made that sandwich specifically for Yangyang but it turns out, he's allergic to eggs. So, yeah. Hope you like it, though."

Donghyuck slowly grabs the sandwich before looking at Renjun's pretty face. He smiles slightly and nods, "Thanks!"

Renjun nods and smiles back. "I'll see you soon." he says shyly, slowly looking down as he speak. He finally turns around but when he's about to step forward, Donghyuck holds his wrist. He lifts his head and looks at him, chewing at the inside of his cheek. "Hm, why, Hyuckie?"

"See you soon, Junnie." Donghyuck winks.

Renjun blushes at that and nods. Donghyuck finally lets go of his wrist and he turns around to go back to the table where Yangyang is sitting at.

Donghyuck sighs loudly, putting the sandwich on the table. "Thank goodness, Yangyang is allergic to eggs." He's smiling from ear to ear. By that, Jeno and Jaemin both laugh.

×××

from: Yangyang
I'm on my way already!
So excited to see you❤️

Renjun looks at himself at the mirror one last time. Yangyang likes it when he wears simple clothes. So, today, he's just wearing a pink sweatshirt and gray pants. He also puts a plain pink hairclip on his hair for little accessory.

He nods and smiles at himself before sitting properly on the couch as he waits for Yangyang. There's even a bowl of popcorn and two cans of soda on the center table for their movie date.

Suddenly, a knock on the door can be heard. Assuming that it's Yangyang, Renjun immediately gets up and runs to the door then opens it with a smile on his face.

But his smile fades and his eyes widen upon seeing the visitor. It's his bestfriend.

"What's with the face, Huang Renjun? Aren't you happy to see your bestfriend?" Donghyuck pouts, pretending to be offended.

"It's not that. Yangyang's coming over because I promised him a movie date."

"I promised him a movie date." Donghyuck mocks him, imitating his voice, before rolling his eyes so hard it feels hurt at the back. "I'm inviting myself, then."

"No!" Renjun exclaims, "It's supposed to be just the two of us." He tries to push the other but Donghyuck catches his wrists and lets himself in.

He closes the door behind with one hand as he lets go of Renjun's wrists. "What are you afraid of? When you come over to my apartment, I always let you in. Always, no hesitation."

"You know my parents don't like you."

"But do you... like me?"

With that, Renjun gulps. "I... I don't."

Donghyuck chuckles and pulls Renjun into the couch for them to sit. He sees the popcorn on the table and right before he even gets one piece, Renjun swats his hand. "Ouch!"

"It's for Yangyang!"

"Fine, fine. Geez!" Donghyuck sighs. "So, when's he coming over?"

"He said he's on his way already."

Donghyuck raises an eyebrow before nodding, not really caring about what he said or Yangyang. He travels his sight to the surroundings as if it's his first time being in Renjun's apartment. "Next time we have sex, we can do it here—"

Renjun slaps his arm so hard. "What the fuck, Donghyuck! You're so random!" His ears red and his cheeks burning hot.

"—because it's big. Ouch!" He rubs his arm. "I'm just saying, your apartment is bigger than mine."

"You could've just said it directly. We're not going to have sex here."

"Look, you even have second floor, and wow! You have centralized air conditioner. I'm jealous! I want to move in here." He looks around and stops his sight on the air conditioner beside the dining table.

"Shut the fuck up!" Renjun furrows his eyebrows.

"Aren't you sick of my broken wall fan whenever you come over to my apartment? We always do it there, so hot." Donghyuck even pretends to fan himself using his hand.

"I don't care." Renjun says seriously.

"I'm just saying—"

"What the fuck do you want, Lee Donghyuck? Why don't you get out of here now because Yangyang's coming soon."

Donghyuck licks his own lips, staring at him. "Let's be quick, then."

"Huh? What do you mea—Hyuck!"

Donghyuck suddenly pushes Renjun down on the couch, getting on top of him. He didn't hesitate and press their lips together. Renjun immediately snakes his arms around Donghyuck's nape.

Renjun lets out a soft moan when Donghyuck bites down on his lower lip. The younger smirks and sucks on the older's lips.

Donghyuck lifts Renjun's sweatshirt and carresses the skin underneath. His touch travels up to his hard nipples, playing with them gently.

"Donghyuck, not here." Renjun whispers, panting between the kiss.

Donghyuck breaks the kiss and looks at his bestfriend. "Why?"

"He might see us." Renjun replies lowly.

He smirks. "Why, Renjun? Are you scared? Are you scared that Yangyang might see you cheating on him with me?"

Renjun gasps, but he didn't say anything. Maybe he admits it. He's cheating. He's cheating because the one he truly loves is Donghyuck. He just denies it... to himself.

"Stop, Donghyuck!" He pushes Donghyuck off him and sits on the couch.

"What? Isn't that the truth?" Donghyuck sits next to Renjun, continuing to convince him into admitting the truth.

"I... I like Yangyang."

"You just like him because your parents told you to like him."

Renjun grits his teeth, "No! I like him. I really like him."

"Huang Renjun, why don't you just admit to yourself that I'm the one you love and not Yangyang? You're in love with me, Renjun! You just have to admit it! You're in love with—" Donghyuck was cut off when Renjun suddenly slaps him.

"Yes, I'm in love with you! Now, shut up and go home!"

Donghyuck purses his lips and sighs. "No! Now that you admit it to yourself, I want you to admit it to Yangyang."

"Donghyuck! There's no way." Renjun shakes his head. "He's gonna be hurt."

"Did you think about him getting hurt when you agreed to be his boyfriend? You did not."

Renjun didn't speak and looks down. Donghyuck's right. Donghyuck's always right. That time, all he thinks about is to not disappoint his parents that's why he agreed to be Yangyang's boyfriend. He didn't care if he hurts himself, seeing his parents happy, makes him think everything's okay.

"I'm not saying this because I want to take you away from Yangyang. I'm fine with what we have for now. Just being like this. But I don't want you to hurt yourself just because you want to make your parents happy. Think about yourself too and what would make your heart happy and free." Donghyuck says and smiles slightly. "I'll be going now. I'm sorry, Renjun."

He taps Renjun's thigh gently before getting up from the couch and walking towards the door. He's about to touch the door knob when Renjun suddenly gets up and hugs him from behind.

"Make love to me, Hyuck. That would make my heart so happy."

Donghyuck smiles and turns around to face his bestfriend. He brushes his hair that covers his pretty eyes then pokes the tip of his nose, "Gladly. Anything for you, baby."

×××

Renjun anxiously stands outside Yangyang's house, walking back and forth, and biting off the skin of his nails. He sighs, his breathing becoming heavy.

Later on, his boyfriend comes out of the house and greets him with a wide smile. He runs to him and hugs his tiny frame. "Renjun-ah, you didn't have to go here. I'm really sorry for the last time, something came up."

Renjun just lets him hug him. "That's fine. I'm just—"

"Since you're here, we can have the movie date in my room. By the way, your parents are here." He widen his eyes. Why is his parents at the Liu Residence?

Nevermind, he doesn't want to know. He remembers they are always here, always visiting Yangyang, always checking up on him as if he's their real son. This is why he has his own apartment, his parents don't even care about him. Although, his apartment was bought by his parents.

But let's not talk about that. He has another thing to say, the reason why he's here. "Yangyang, I need to tell you something. I just need to be quick."

"Is it that important that you're in such a hurry?" He only nods. Yangyang pouts slightly and nods, "Alright, then. What is it?"

"Uhm... we need to stop this relationship right now. I don't want anyone to hurt anymore."

Yangyang creases his forehead, staring at him confusedly. "Why?" He chuckles, laughing bitterly. "Are you breaking up with me?"

Renjun almost immediately nods, "I'm really sorry."

"But why? We were so happy. You're happy with me, aren't you? What's the problem, Renjun-ah?" Yangyang stares at him. And Renjun can already feel his parents' disappointment once again.

"Yang, you're fun to be with, I swear. You're a good boyfriend, you really are. But I'm not the one for you, and you're not the one for me." He sighs heavily and bites his lower lip gently, "I'm in love with someone else. Even before you came into my life, I'm always in love with him."

Yangyang looks at him with blank stare. Eyes emotionless. Pursed lips. He suddenly speaks. "What I don't understand is that, if you're already in love with someone else even before I came into the picture, why did you agree to be my boyfriend in the first place?"

"Because that Lee Donghyuck is nothing for him! He wouldn't provide him anything!"

They both turn to the doorstep and sees Renjun's mom standing there, arms crossed against her chest, creased forehead and sharp-eyed.

"I don't care if he only has one dollar to give me, I don't need his money. I love Donghyuck, I love him!" Renjun exclaims. "For once, I want to decide for myself, Mom. You always tell me things I should do and shouldn't do. But how about the things I want to do? I'm old enough to have my own freedom and I don't care about what you're going to say to me, to Donghyuck, or to the both of us!"

"Huang Renjun, you disrespectful child!" his mom yells.

Renjun's about to turn around but Yangyang grabs his wrist and hugs him. "Please, before you go to Donghyuck, can you hug me one last time?"

He sighs and hesitantly hugs the other. He carresses his back before pulling away. "Thank you for everything, Yangyang. I appreciate all the things you've done for me. Let's be friends instead."

Yangyang smiles slightly and nods, "Sure, friends."

Renjun looks at his mom and glares at her. She glares back and looks away. When he walks away, she didn't look back and just lets her son leave her forever.

×××

"Donghyuck! Donghyuck-ah, open this goddamn door!" Renjun knocks loudly on the door of Donghyuck's apartment, not caring how much noise he's making in the hallway. "Donghyuck—"

The door suddenly flings open and it reveals the owner of the apartment who looks like he just got out of the bed. His hair strands are all over the place.

"What the fuck, Renjun!"

"Let me in first." Renjun steps inside before closing the door. He pants as he sits on the couch. "I'm so happy!"

"Well, good for you, then. I'm going back to sleep." Donghyuck tells him and turns around to walk back to his bedroom but Renjun pulls him by the hem of his shirt. "What the heck?"

"First, I've broken up with Yangyang already." Upon hearing that, Donghyuck's face lights up and his eyes widen a bit. "Second, I left Mom. And third, I want you to move in with me in my centralized air-conditioned apartment."

Donghyuck blinks several times. The first and second one, he processed them immediately. But the third one, he's still processing it. He couldn't believe himself.

"W-what? Am I dreaming? Is this a dream? I'm going back to sleep."

"No, it's not. You're not dreaming, Hyuckie."

Renjun smiles when he sees Donghyuck's still dazed. He couldn't understand the different and changing expressions of Donghyuck's face.

Donghyuck brushes his hair back and rubs both of his eyes. And to make sure that he's really not dreaming, he pinches himself. That's when he realized, he's indeed not dreaming.

"Huang Renjun, what the fuck!"

Renjun laughs and stands up to gives the younger a short peck on the cheek. "You don't want to?"

"Motherfucking of course, I want to!" Donghyuck suddenly yells. "Renjun, this is a good fucking morning to me! I love you!" He suddenly kisses him out of adrenaline.

"Let's move in tomorrow. But today, I'll stay here."

He nods eagerly, "Of course, baby. Yes, anything you like."

Renjun softly laughs and snakes his arms around the nape of Donghyuck's neck, and the latter wraps his arms around Renjun's tiny waist.

"Let's forget about everything and focus to ourselves." Renjun suddenly says. "You're important to me. Ever since."

"I can't stop thinking about what things we could do in your apartment once we move in there already." Donghyuck giggles. "Cook breakfast first in the morning, shower together, watch movies in your flat screen TV, and many more."

"Mhm," The older hums, "Tomorrow, we'll do all of that."

"We'll do that everyday—no, not really everyday because we have school—but yeah." Donghyuck grins.

"I love you, too."

"Renjun,"

"Mhm?"

"Can we fucking sit down? My legs are hurting, I just woke up, you know?"

Renjun rolls his eyes playfully, "So demanding!" He pulls him and they both sit on the couch. Donghyuck's arms still wrapped around his waist. "Good now?" He receives a nods.

"Renjun, I have question."

"Yes?"

"Is your heart happy and free now?"

Renjun turns to him and boops his nose softly. "Yes." Donghyuck smiles and kisses his forehead gently.
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fin.

i wrote this instead of studying for exam tomorrow HAHAHA. bye.

© snowysung