TITLE: stay with me forever
GENRE: fluff, angst

SUMMARY: to donghyuck, renjun is blue. and to renjun, donghyuck is yellow. but they don't make green because they don't get together.
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We met one day but then later, he left me and never came back. He calls me blue, and I call him yellow. But we don't make green because we never got together.

It was a fine day of summer. It's one of the definition of happiness as we get to have vacation, no school, just stay-at-home. I don't need to socialize with other people, it's against my will.

I looked out the window of my grandma's small hut at a beach we're staying in. The sun and clouds are happily dancing together as the former is shining so bright, adding light and emphasis to the latter. The view made me smile. The sky looked so beautiful that day, I feel like it was smiling at me.

So, then I decided to went out. I wanted to admire more the sky and feel the breeze of the wind and the sound of the sea waves. It was relaxing and calming, I like it so much.

I told my grandma I was going out of the hut and she let me. I hugged her before I left, telling her I'd come back before lunch.

I walked by the seashore of the beach, just admiring the sea. It was so pleasing to look at. It was clear and I could literally see the rocks underneath.

Until suddenly, I felt something hit the back of my head. It hurts. "Heck! Who did that?"

"Hey, I'm sorry." I turned to look at the owner of the voice. It was a figure of a boy. He has sunkissed skin, his complexion was being emphasized due to the light coming from the sun. He was pouting while running towards me. "I didn't mean to."

I furrowed my eyebrows and picked up the rock he just threw at me. "Here. Don't do it again." He just nodded and grabbed the rock from my palm. His skin was warm.

"We can be friends." I creased my forehead. I was confused as to why did he suddenly say that. "I mean, can we be friends?"

I chuckled, "We just met. And besides, you're probably just having a vacation here. We might never meet again."

He grinned, "At least I can say I made a friend here, right? My name's Donghyuck. You?" He reached out his hand to me to offer a handshake, I guess.

I sighed and shook his hand. "Renjun." I replied and let go of his hand immediately.

"Renjun." he repeated and smiled widely. He has pretty smile that seems like it could cure my anxiety and depression. I couldn't resist smiling back at him.

I jolted back to reality when I realized I was staring at him. Stupid. "Why were you playing with rocks?" I asked instead.

"Oh. No, I was collecting pretty rocks and shells, sort of a souvenir for me. But that one was ugly, I had to throw it back to the sea. But then it hit you, so I'm really sorry." he smiled apologetically.

I rolled my eyes slightly. "Don't worry about it. Just be careful next time not to hit someone." He nodded and smiled again. There is something about his smile that makes my heart flutter and the butterflies in my stomach ramble. "Oh, and hey! Don't call rocks ugly, they have feelings too, you know!"

"Non-living things don't have feelings, silly." he giggled and ruffled my hair. I just pouted and pushed my hair back to fix it.

We sat by the seashore and just stared at the beautiful waves of the sea. I turned to him when I noticed the sunlight beamed at him, making his tan skin glow. He has so much melanin in him, it was almost amazing.

"Hey, something in my face?" I realized I was staring at him when he called me. Ugh, that was so embarrassing. He had a confused expression painted on his face.

"Uh, n-nothing." I stammered, "I just... I was just examining your face." I mumbled the last sentence. And why did I even say that? Stupid me.

"You were examining my face? Why?" I saw him smirked, "Do you find me pretty?"

"N-no! Of course, not." I looked away and cupped my cheek. I was burning shade of red, it's his fault.

"Sure, you don't." He winked. I rolled my eyes to hide my blush. He was so annoying.

The next day, we met again at the same spot, by the seashore of the beach. He was making a sandcastle.

"That's cute." I giggled and he got startled that he almost ruined his art.

"Oh my goodness! Don't scare me like that. I thought you're some stranger." He sighed. "Sit next to me?"

I nodded and sat on the spot next to him. He put down his mini bucket and toy shovel on the sand before sitting properly. "You're good at it." I told him.

"Thanks." he smiled shyly. "Hey, I have something to tell you." I just hummed as a sign to make him continue. "You look like a blue."

I furrowed my eyebrows confusedly and curiously. Why did he suddenly say that? "Why do I look like a blue?"

"I will explain to you next time." he giggled. "Help me continue this castle?" Despite being still confused, I nodded to him.

"Well, you look like a yellow." I suddenly said. He stared at me, smiling, and I swear, he was the prettiest person I've ever laid my eyes on.

After few days, we saw each other again. I was so happy to see him, because for the past days that I didn't get to see him, I was so sad that I would always look out the window to check if he was there.

I was excited to see him. "Hey!"

"Hey!" He waved at me and we both sat by the seashore. "Did you miss me?"

"No." I lied. I saw his face saddened as he looked down. "I was kidding. Of course, I missed you." I giggled.

He looked up at me and his face was so bright and shining, and he was smiling from ear to ear. "Great! Because I missed you too." he giggled back. His giggles are becoming one of my favorite sounds in the world.

"Hey, Donghyuck?" He just hummed. "I remembered what you told me last time. You were going to explain to me why I look like a blue. I don't look like some kind of avatar, do I?"

He suddenly laughed. It was music to my ears. "You silly! Of course not, you don't look like an avatar." He was laughing so hard.

I couldn't help but to laugh too, at myself for saying that, and with him. His laugh is so contagious, and it brings joy to my soul. "If not, then what? Why am I blue?"

"You know how blue is so versatile? Blue symbolizes serenity. When you see blue, it could bring you to the tranquility of your surroundings. Like this, when where at the beach, you can feel relaxed and calm. But also, blue can represent melancholy. Sometimes when you're feeling blue, it means you're sad. You feel like the world is against you. Why do I think you look like a blue? When I saw you, I feel inspired and like something brought me to the tranquility of the atmosphere, but then I realized I need to leave soon so I won't be able to see you again and that makes me sad."

I was just staring at him while he talked. And honestly, I didn't know what to say. I suddenly felt sad knowing that he needed to leave soon. I want him to stay with me.

"And one more thing, blue is my favorite color and you might be my favorite person in the world." He smiled slightly. It was genuine and fond as he stared back at me. My heart started beating faster than normal and my whole body just melted. "Why do you think I look like a yellow?" he asked.

I gulped. "You look like a yellow because you're so bright and such a shiny person, I feel like an ice cream underneath your light." I began so I need to continue. "You're yellow because of the way your smiles and laughs bring happiness to my soul which I longed for, the way they can cure my anxiety and depression, and they fill up the void inside my heart."

He was smiling. His smiles never fade away. "Yellow's your favorite color?" he whispered.

I nodded, "And you might be my most favorite person in the world."

He leaned closer and pressed his forehead on mine. My blood rushed through my cheeks making them burn in a good way. I could feel his warm breath, it's so relaxing. "May I?" he asked and I nodded almost immediately.

Our lips were pressed together and it was the best thing ever happened in my life. I don't want to let go. Can he stay with me forever?

The next day, we're laying on a bench, squeezing into each other on that small space. My head on top of his chest and his hand was wrapped around my thin (according to him) waist.

"Hey, Renjun!" he called.

"Hm?" I looked up at him, smiling.

He was staring down at hum already, smiling back, "I would like to sing for you."

I nodded, "Sure. I'd like to hear your angel-like voice, Donghyuck."

He chuckled and cleared his throat. He pressed a short peck on my cheek before he started singing.

His voice is so beautiful, it soothes me so much, I could listen to it every day and every night. Soon, it sent me to my dreamland which he's in too.

The next thing I knew, it was nearly the end of summer. Time flies so fast. School was coming again. I literally hate going to school, I wish I could stay here with my grandparents. And I wish Donghyuck could stay with me as well.

"Hey, blue, we're leaving tomorrow." He told that night. I didn't reply. What was I supposed to say? Should I feel happy that he's leaving? "It's so ironic that your name means yellow yet I call you blue, right?" he suddenly said and chuckled.

I turned to him and sighed. "Can we extend this vacation? I don't want you to leave." I said, my fist clenching behind my back. My eyes were starting to water but I was trying my best not to let my tears flow down my cheeks. It would a shame to cry in front of him.

"Even if we extend the vacation, we still have to leave." He stared at me fondly. His pretty brown eyes were twinkling brightly, I could stare at them all night. "But who knows if we see each other again, hm?"

I swallowed a huge lump in my throat. It hurts. So, instead, I looked up at the sky and I saw the moon peeking over the clouds. "The moon is beautiful, isn't it?"

I heard him chuckled, "It is."

I looked at him and smiled, "Do you know what that means?"

"I love you." He smiled back.

I held his hand and interlaced our fingers together. He leaned closer to me and pressed a small kiss on the tip of my nose.

"I don't want to let go. Stay with me forever, please." I bit my bottom lip, my hand squeezing on his.

"We'll see each other again someday. Well, I really hope we will. Because I will miss you, really. I won't forget you, blue."

"I will always remember you, yellow. I'll miss you."

I wished I didn't let go of his hand that night. I wished I at least gave him a tight hug. I wished we didn't separate. I wished I told him more of how much I love him.

Every summer vacation, I'm always waiting on the same spot where we used to be, waiting for him to come back. I miss him so much. His hugs, his kisses, his touches, his voice that makes me weak, his smiles, giggles and laughs that makes me happy. I miss everything about him.

It's been five years and I'm still waiting.
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fin.

© snowysung