TITLE: sunflower demise
RATING: mature
GENRE: romance, angst, fluff

FAUX TAGS: side couple! nomin • side characters! mark, yangyang & heeseung (enhypen) • yangyang being renjun's suitor • dancer hyuck • artist renjun • ambiguous ending
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Renjun wakes up early in the morning, feeling empty and tired. When he gets up from his bed, he stares at the wall for who knows how many minutes. His mind clouded with fog and his eyes swollen due to crying all night.

He blinks to bring himself back to reality and sighs heavily, loudly blowing air out of his mouth. He turns his head to the bedside table to grab his phone. He opens it and smiles at his wallpaper; his boyfriend's arm was wrapped around his shoulder and the two of them were making a heart together with their fingers, and they were smiling happily.

He purses his lips to prevent himself from crying and locks his phone, putting it inside his shorts' pocket. He finally gets off his bed and walks to the door slowly, not having the energy to actually gets downstairs.

He meets his mom at the dining room and they greet each other silently, his mom smiling fondly at him and him bowing to her. He then goes straight to the bathroom to do his thing.

After few minutes, he goes out and walks to the dining area. He sits across his mom and leans his back on the chair.

"How's your sleep, sweetie? I... heard you crying last night." she begins.

Renjun pauses, looking away. "It's fine." He doesn't even know what or who's fine. Did he sleep so fine? No. Is he fine? No either. But he managed to lie, although his mom figured out easily.

"I know you're not fine, sweetie. But I hope someday you'll be."

Someday.

He chuckles at that. He won't be fine sooner, especially because he wasn't sure if the person he wants to be with is going to be fine as well. How could he be fine himself?

"Are you going to visit him again?" she asks.

He glances at her, slightly nodding, his eyes full of sorrow and his heart aching.

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His hands are shaking as he's holding a bouquet of sunflowers. When he enters the hospital room, he sees that Mark and Jeno, his boyfriend's older brother and cousin, respectively, are already inside, sitting on the couch just a few feet away from the bed.

"Renjun!" Jeno calls, standing up from the couch to greet him. "He's waiting for you."

Donghyuck's always waiting, Renjun believes. And he always waits for him as well.

He walks to the bed to approach his sleeping boyfriend. He watches as his chest rises and falls, and he smiles. He places the bouquet on the bedside table, next to the other sunflowers which had died already.

"Hi, Hyuckie. I'm here." he starts, holding Donghyuck's hand tightly. "You've been sleeping for two months now, when are you going to wake up? I miss you so much, baby." His tears begin to fall out of his eyes. "I'm staying strong for you, so please be strong for me, too. I don't know what I'm gonna do if I lose you. I won't be able to forgive myself."

He brings the younger's hand to his lips to kiss the back of it. He then leans down to press a gentle kiss on his forehead. "I love you so much, baby, I hope you know that."

Letting go of Donghyuck's hand, Renjun grabs the chair and places it next to the hospital bed. He sits and holds his boyfriend's hand again, intertwining their fingers together. He looks down at him and smiles sadly.
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A/N

hi~ it's elly, and i'm back with another renhyuck fic! i hope you like this one >< consider voting, as well as commenting, they would be appreciated and i'd be happy to read them all. enjoy reading this book <333