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It's been months since you didn't even glance at me.

What did I do?

I just want to talk to you.

I was happy when I was with you.

Now all the happiness is gone.

I have something for you. I want to give it to you.

But I don't have the courage Taetae to give you this but I think I have to do this.

Because today is Valentine's Day, I wanna give you this. You are my sister, my brother, my friend, my everything.

I am feeling so shy Taetae, this is my first time giving you a gift....repaying you with this.

You gave me that long blue sweater on my birthday. I am wearing that right now...maybe you like it.

I saw my hands...

Awww sweater paws.

Cute.

I smile to myself... I am looking cute.

And my fingers are looking skinny too..hehe you will love it Taetae.

I shyly cover my head with the sweater cap.

Everything is covered.

Yes. that's good.

'Go for it.' I said to myself.

You have done many things for me.

I know I can't repay you everything but I will try to do something for you.

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I saw him with his girlfriend Mina, I walked towards him entering the class, everybody is doing their work.

I can do this... I can do this.

"T-Taetae...." I said hesitantly.

He was laughing with Mina but the moment he heard my voice, the smile drops. I immediately look down the moment he looks at me. My smile drops too.

But then I smiled sadly at myself.

What a pity.

I can't even make him happy.

Mina can do that.

He is happy with her.

What am I doing here?

This is not my place.

I look up at him with glassy eyes. He was looking at me expectantly, waiting for my words.

"What is it, huh!?" Mina said irritatingly.

"O-Oh, I...."

"Do you want to say something, Sun-ah?" Taetae said suddenly.

When he called my name, I feel so happy.

To the point that I feel like crying.

Aish...don't cry.

But a drop left my eyes, wetting my lashes...

Fuck....such a crybaby I am.

I sniffle lightly.

"What happened, why are you crying?" He said still sitting on the seat, looking all bored. "I just asked right? Why are you always like this, crying and crying?"

"I-I a-am sorry."  I apologize for crying and ruining the moment.

"Taehyung how can you stand her? Oh gosh, so loud." Mina said as Taehyung angrily huffs at me.

I just wanted to give him this...But my tears are not stopping.

I was shaking hard, clutching the box tightly in my hand.

It's been days he didn't even talk to me and now my heart feels so heavy every time I look at him.

I remember all those nights when you are not in our house. All those lonely nights I cried hard Taetae, cause you are not there with me.

I just want someone to be there with me.

I wanted to tell you that I miss you.

But the way you are looking at me, it makes my heartbreak.

I think I am so shameless, now also looking for a moment to give you this.

I was startled at the moment when they both stand up abruptly, wanting to leave.

No..please.

Wait.

He started walking fast then I did something before I can stop it.

I tightly clutched the back of his shirt with my fingers stopping him from moving.

He stopped at that place and turn around to look at me. " JUST TELL ME ALREADY GOD DAMMIT! YOU DON'T WANT ME TO GO AND THEN YOU ARE NOT SAYING ANYTHING. WHAT ARE YOU EXPECTING, HUH??!! TO STAND HERE ALL THE FUCKING DAY, LISTENING to YOUR SOBS, THIS IS IRRITATING, OKAY. DON'T YOU HAVE BRAIN." He starts yelling at me.

I yelp hard backing away from his outburst. I shake my head while crying, saying sorry to him. But he is continuously yelling at me.

Everyone was looking at me, laughing and making fun of me.

I saw Mina smirking at me. She was giving me that evil smile.

The hairs of my hands are standing, chills running throughout my spine, I know what can she do to me.

I feel my breathing increased due to this much attention.

My hands started shaking, the mind was spinning.

I can't do this.

No....no....I just can't do this.

I saw his eyes frowned at something, following his gaze, I saw him looking at the box in my hand. My eye widens at this.

My leg wobbles due to nervousness, but I grab the side close table tightly almost immediately, gaining the posture.

The laughter increased...I feel like I am gaining so much attention.

I started running from there...

A boy pushed me making me fall. I fall with a loud thud.

My hands get in contact with the table corner making them bleed.

'Ah...this hurts.' I said to myself.

You didn't come to protect me Taetae.

You promised.

Laughter roars out again, I saw all are clutching their stomach laughing and smiling at my pain.

I cried hard..because of the attention I am causing in the class.

I collect myself from the floor and run away, not knowing where to go.

This is not my place.

I was best in there...in my previous house....in that alley.

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