❌ 𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 ❌

𝗜'𝗺 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆'𝗹𝗹, 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗽 𝗶𝘁. 𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝗺𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁.

In this chapter you'll face-
✦ 𝗔𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗲
✦ 𝗞𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴
✦ 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘂𝗮𝗴𝗲
✦ 𝗮𝗱𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘀
✦ 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴

𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗻. 𝗡𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗶𝗰𝗲. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗯𝗹𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗺𝗲.

𝗜𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗻𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘆. 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗺𝗹𝘆 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃.
Next chapter is already updated 🩷👈🏻
𝗗𝗢𝗨𝗕𝗟𝗘 𝗨𝗣𝗗𝗔𝗧𝗘 as y'all waited for so long.

☆ 𝗔 𝗟 𝗜 𝗧 𝗧 𝗟 𝗘 𝗟 𝗜 𝗙 𝗘 ☆
[ ʟᴀsᴛ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ]

So many days passed by,
when we peek inside the Mansion, we saw little yn, working in the kitchen.
but wait-
what's on her face?

Bruises!

A little bruise in the corner of her lips, another on her soft cheeks and some on her neck and arms and inside clothes?
Let's not go there.

Her face looks dull as if she never smiled. She never knew, a time like this would ever come.
It's early morning.
Yn just put the fried egg on the plate while she noticed her hands are trembling too much.

Tears gathered into her eyes but she hold them, not letting them escape.

Shiver ran through her nerves when she sensed his presence. She slowly looked back to spot him sitting on his chair.
Her little heart clenched.

Jungkook took his seat before glancing at her back. His eyebrows crashed together as he saw her shivering.
He rolled his eyes.

Yn took the plates in her hand before walking near the dinning table, her eyes down. Her eyes are visible with fear that he can sense.
She placed the glass of juice Infront him while she trembled making her feel anxious.

She left for kitchen and came back with the plate of fried egg and breads. Whenever she tries to look at him, her heart cries out.
Nervousness took over her brain and when she was about to put the plate, it slipped out from her hands and the plate fell down, breaking into pieces caused her to jump out of fear.

Her eyes immediately turned towards his just to witness his dark cold gaze on her. Her eyes warmed up as tears welled up in her eyes while her body shaked in fear.

Watching his dark gaze turning darker, she shook her head while her face turned into a crying one.
In no second, she cried out in fear, looking at his eyes.

Tears rolled down her cheeks while his gaze leered at her face which is crying due to fear. Yet, he didn't even said anything but the fear of his upcoming actions scared her soul.

Effects of his intolerable torments;

Her lips trembled like tsunami and her body felt weak. Only fear visible in her adorable teary eyes,
Jungkook glanced at the broken plate before gazing up at her.
She knows she ruined his breakfast, he must be angry.

Jungkook got up from his seat in which yn got scared and stepped back but Jungkook turned back, taking his coat before leaving her alone in the Mansion.

Yn breathed out heavily but the fear didn't helped. Her body landed on the floor and soon her cries spread around.

She cries for herself,
she wanna hide herself from him,
but-
how can she stay away from him when she loves him this much.

but she's relaxed that she didn't got beaten up by him.

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

one weeks later,

Yn's eyes filled with tears. Her face is messy. Her body shivering as she is beaten just now, by him.

The more hopes she gets, the more worse he becomes.
She always hopes he'll be alright but he's just turning like a monster.

He walked away while she turned her face aside, watching his legs moving and leaving the room, leaving her alone.

one-two month later,

It was their bedroom, where she's has been crying while he's standing tall Infront her little weak frame.

" so you will not leave?" he questioned while she gulped. She's all weak and bruises all over her body.

Yes, she has been bearing him from months just because-
*chuckle*

"Your mom called you to go! why don't you leave? Are you that shameless?"

Her trembling lashes looked up, unable to open her eyes because of weakness as she spent sleepless nights. She felt shiver running through her nerves.

"I-i love you-"
as soon as she uttered those words, tears started to rolling down from her eyes, she knows it'll not effect him but- she loves-she truly loves even after all those, living with some hopes that one day he'll understand, it's not her fault -

but in return, she saw his deadly glare on her, every time he ripped her heart, she broke down mentally even physically but she can't help.

A loud yelp escaped from her mouth as he bend down, gripping her cheeks tightly almost breaking her bones.

"I told you to leave from my life! don't you have shame? You're of no use! You're such a useless creature! I DON'T NEED YOU!" he shouted the last sentence making her to flinch and sob instantly.

His nails digged into her cheek as she hold his hands, trying to move him but she's nothing Infront him.
The force on her soft delicate skin caused the place to bleed.

"I fvcking hate you! you understand? YOU UNDERSTAND!?" along with his shout, his nails sinked into her skin and she began to cry in pain.

Jungkook blinked as he watched bl@od coming out and jerked her face away, standing up and leaving the room instantly.
Yn breathed heavily, immediately placing her palm over her cheeks but felt something wet and when she looked at her hands, she saw a little bit blood sticked with her palm.

She felt lack of breath and the oxygen started to stuck into her throat feeling betrayal.
H-he did this?

and the next moment, she broke into tears, crying helplessly, holding the wound, trying to wipe the bl•od away.

next day,

Yn's little hand went towards her cheek, which have blood dried, as she stared at the mirror, touching the wound softly.

Unwillingly or unknownly, a small drop of tears escaped from her eyes which she saw rolling down with her heavy heart.
" d-do I really de-deserve t-these?" she whispered, staring at the mirror and her voice still child like.

She hissed, touching the wound but soon her head started to feel dizzy.
Everything started to get blurry, she felt extremely nauseous and felt something coming up.
She placed her little palm over her mouth and ran inside the washroom, closing the door behind.

As she came Infront the sink, she immediately throwed up, holding her stomach.
but there is no one to comfort her as jungkook is in his office.
Tears welled up in her doe eyes, feeling all alone.

After throwing up, she felt so relaxed but the dizziness still covered her brain.
but-
wait-
something came up into her naive brain.

She immediately ran towards the nightstand. Opening the drawer, she began to search for something but couldn't find it.
She ran here and there finding for the thing, and at last, a weak smile formed into soft lips as she saw the thing, she's finding.

but the smile fade away as she thought about the negativities again.
with heavy heart, she entered inside the washroom.

Around 5-10 minutes later, the door of washroom opened up, revealing the little creature standing with her expressionless face with a kit into her palm.

wait- a kit?

It was a pregnancy kit-

wait again- what's that?

two red line?

As Yn stood there like a statue, her orbs just moved here and there, but body not moving an inch.
Her heart thumping inside the ribcage as she slowly slowly walked towards the bed with her tiny feets.

She have a face without reaction but shocked, maybe surprised!

"m-my baby?" she whispered, slowly sitting on the bed with lots of hopes in her naive heart.

Sh-she can't believe!

Her eyes landed on the kit in her palm, it have two clear red line,
It-it means sh-she can give birth and-and she's pregnant.

' now my jungkook will love me again. h-he will love me so much and never hurt me?' she thought as tears shimmered into her doe eyes.
She instantly wiped the tears away, putting a smile on her face but more tears fell down as she sniffed them away.

She's happy like she won a war.
She's happy like she touched the moon.

Yes, it's this much important to her, for what she has been bearing all those abuses in her early age and from whom-? her husband whom she loved more than anything.

" um-um waiting for m-my kookie. H-he'll be the most happy and will love me." she sniffed saying those words, wiping the tears away and dropping her body on the bed, wiping the continuous tears of happiness.

at night,

It's almost 10 in night. Yn sleeping soundly on the soft bed, having a peaceful sleep after a long period of time.

As the moon brightly lighten the room, yn slowly slowly opened her eye, rubbing it cutely with the back of her hands. She stared at the ceiling that is lightened up with the glow of moon.

It's a moonlit night,

how charming!

Yn instantly jumped up, sitting on the bed and the kit is still into her small hold. She stared at it in the little light and smiled.
Her doe sleepy eyes flashed with hopes.

a sudden excitement filled her heart,
she placed her palm over her flat belly. She giggled in her own knowing there is something inside her tiny belly, a little baby?

Suddenly the bell of main door rang loudly caused her to flinch a little. Without thinking one or two, she ran up with the kit into her grip.

Excited to tell him the good news,
He'll be hell happy and maybe will twirl her! hehe~

but as she stood near the stairs from up, she saw him entering with his friends. She didn't moved, maybe it's not good time.
She will show him later.
maybe later? after they leaves?

She again ran inside their bedroom and put the kit on the nightstand and walked downstair with empty hand with a normal expression.
As jungkook witnessed her, his dark gaze unknownly scared her.

"Hello our little sister-in-law, how have you been?" asked the man beside jungkook.
After getting a glare from jungkook, she again felt like she lost everything. She suddenly lost her almost weak smile.

Yn bowed down, "um g-good taehyung-shi." she mumbled, but her heartbeat is racing too fast.

"you guys have a seat. I'll go get freshen up." Jungkook spoke totally ignoring yn's presence.
As he walked away, yn looked at his friends. "Jimin was telling me to visit you. Long time no see hm?" Taehyung spoke "Taehyung gave me the idea." Jimin exposed as Taehyung playfully glared at him.

It's a long time since they saw yn. They loves her as their little sister.

"s-sit." yn spoke with her off voice as she sensed he was pissed. She went towards the kitchen to prepare some snacks.

Taehyung and Jimin took their seat, talking about business stuff. After freshing up, Jungkook also came downstair, joining his friends.

Yn came out from kitchen with a tray filled with snacks. Yn got scared feeling an intense gaze on her. She slowly placed the tray on the table.

" thank you yn-nie!" Jimin exclaimed, and Taehyung passed a smile to her but he raised his brows.
"yn?" he uttered and yn looked at him, humming.

" what are those marks on your face?" he asked suspiciously, watching those bruises on her face.
Jungkook looked up with his burning gaze as Yn felt a pang in her heart.

" Jungkook? what happened to her? Is she sick? why does she look this pale?" Taehyung continued to ask as Jimin glanced at her state,

"Bro? what happened to her?" Jimin questioned but yn was feeling so bad.

Those scenes flashed Infront her eyes where he's beating her with his belt. Her eyebrows crashed together.
"ask her." Jungkook replied, avoiding eye contacts.

"Yn-nie answer me. I'm like your brother right?" he spoke.

Yn's face turned more pale sensing the intense dark gaze on her little frame. All her hopes crashed together.
She shook her thoughts away and found for a good excuse through her little brain before replying,
"I-i fell from s-stairs." she softly spoke, lying to them.

Taehyung and Jimin raised their eyebrows, "So much bruises just by falling on the stairs?.. even on face?" Taehyung inquired.

Yn nodded her head, looking down at her feets that is trembling due to fear.

"look how pale you're looking. Be careful from next time .. and Jungkook! how it happened? you should care more about her." Taehyung sternly spoke but Jungkook looked away.

"You are turning more little day by day, yn. Eat properly ok?" Taehyung suggested, and yn nodded.

There is still a bit fear in yn's heart as she noticed the darkness in his eyes. She don't know why, she's not feeling good.

"Look at our Jungkook, he has been quite." Jimin spoke rolling his eyes.

"I wonder, their kids will be breathtakingly cute and adorable!" Taehyung suddenly speak up. Yn again remembered that she's now pregnant.

She soon needs to tell him.

Meanwhile, Jungkook's eyes turned dark and darker listening their words.
He felt emerged knowing his wife is an infertile woman and can never serve him the happiness he wants!

He's deprived from the happiness of being an father for her infertility.
He'll have to spend his whole life without any kids of his own.

The blood cells ran through his veins, causing it to pop out of his skin which no one noticed.
He's done!
So done!

Fvck off!

"You guys can leave now!" Jungkook firmly spoke suddenly earning yn's attention on him. She innocently stared at him feeling something fishy.

Something hidden inside his voice... creepiness!

Taehyung and Jimin raised their eyebrows, "You are getting us out?" Tae asked in disbelief.
"If you think this, then yes. You can leave! Come again someday." he rudely spoke while Taehyung noticed his hand which have veins popping on it.

Jimin whispered something in Taehyung's ear and he nodded before both standing up.
Yn's heartbeat thumped and thumped, feeling bad as if something is going to happen.

"Okey, we are leaving but Jungkook! Take care of our little sis. we'll meet again. Don't let anything happen to her." Taehyung spoke while Jungkook was rubbing his hands, maybe trying to calm himself down.

" Yn-nie, see ya." Jimin spoke, pushing Taehyung outside the Mansion and driving off or else, he'll be keep blabbering.

Yn stood there, looking at the doorway.

She hesitantly looked at Jungkook's direction but saw him rubbing his hands. Somehow he's giving her bad thoughts.

She should tell him the good news.
but how to tell?
She scaredly stood there, and got an idea.

To bring the kit from their bedroom, she slowly turned back to walk but a rough palm grasped her wrist.
She gasped as there is a bruise in her wrist which definitely caused by him.

Before she could understand anything further, she was dragged near the stairs by him harshly. He pressed her against the sharp edge of the railing in which she felt pain in her back by the hard force.

Fear took over her mind,
before she could uttere anything, his fingers clutched her cheeks harder causing her to whimper.

She heartbeat fell down,
"what they were saying?" he asked tightening his fingers on her cheek, his voice dark and deep as if he's holding his anger.

Tears gathered into her eyes at his behavior.
" they were talking about baby! A cute little baby. Can you give me? CAN YOU GIVE ME!" he suddenly shouted inciting her to flinch at his actions.

she knows she can!

In no second, his lips were pressed against her harshly. Her heart dropped down when she felt him biting her lips instead of kissing.

Tears rolled down her cheeks when he gripped her lower lips with his teeths, as if she don't feel pain. She tried to scream out when his teeths sinked into her lips harder and harder causing bl•od to come out from her lips.

"mmahhmpmmm-" she struggled to escape but the pain caused her scream loudly when his teeths didn't left her.

Blood started to came out from her soft lips as he immediately jerked her face away. When he looked at her face, an unknown satisfaction filled his heart watching the bloods on her lips.

She's crying and whimpering.

"you-YOU BITCH! YOU DESTROYED MY DREAM! YOU RUINED MY LIFE! YOU SNATCHED MY HAPPINESS!" he roared, suddenly pushing her harder making her to fall on the ground and she looked at him with her tear filled eyes.

before she can know anything, his hands gripped her soft hairs before dragging her in the middle on the hall room near the couch.
"m-mommahhh--" yn cried out in pain as the force on her hairs were too powerful and it feels like her scalp will come out.

"It's either you or me!" he screamed, dropping her body on the ground with a jerk. She keep on sobbing in pain.

wasting no time, he unbuckled the belt from his waist while her eyes widened. It's not new for her but-
giving her no time, the belt in his grip directly slammed on her arms earning a loud scream.

"TOLD YOU TO LEAVE, DIDN'T I? CAN YOU GIVE ME A BABY! HUH! WHAT'S THE USE OF MARRYING YOU!" he shouted with anger, slamming the belt over her body while she kept screaming by the sharp pain.

Breaths started to get stuck into her throat, having no time to breathe but continuous screams.
"M-my-AHH-"

The belt continuously hitted her back, arms, thighs, all over her body.

Yn's all hopes broke in billion pieces. The pain over her body or the pain on her heart, she don't know what's hurting her.

w-what was her fault?
she's naive!

each hits pains like death, ...

The whole Mansion filled with her screams and painful cries.

When he heard about the baby thing again, he was pissed knowing she can never gift him a child.

Yn's face drenched with tears. He throwed the belt aside, bending down and gripped her hairs in his tight grip.
she whimpered, trying to hold his hands as it's hurting her.

"mum-mummahm-" she grunted in pain, trying to escape but his hold is too strong.
"I CAN'T TOLERATE YOU ANYMORE!" he roared but her world shattered when her head harshly came in contact with the wood of the couch.
Her head buzzed along with a sharp dizzy pain hitted her.

She instantly clutched her forehead, opening her mouth. Her whole body trembled, but she was taken aback when his hands again slammed her head with the wood, gaining a loud scream.

He blurted something before again slamming her. She gripped her head but her breath stuck in between when he dragged her aside.

She wanted to tell him! wanted to tell him she-she is--pregnant with his child.

she wanted him to know!

She wanted to scream but no energy left in her body being fragile from the beginning of her life that made her more miserable.

"Oh bitch! CAN-Can you give me a child? huh?" he asked bending near her face, while she tried to open her eyes.

Her head still causing her unbearable pain. she cannot think of anything else.

but she heard him, sh-she nodded her head with her eyes closed, whimpering as if she wanna talk.
"huh, huh? what's with that yes? You're giving me fake hopes? Huh? FAKE HOPES!" as his words end, his rough palm hitted right over her cheeks turning it red as it's already was!

Yn gasped louder, crying with the pain in her head but-
"m-m-bab-" she tried to utter but couldn't finish her words as he dropped her on the floor.

He stood straight, looking here and there like a Mad Man as if he's looking for something.

Yn's heart cried out feeling nothing but hurt. She cannot explain how it felt, how badly it hurted her.
but- she's not alone, there is someone inside her flat belly. She wants to protect it with everything, from everything!

she wants him to stop!

Forcing herself to sit up, she-she timidly grab his palm and looked up at him only to find him glaring at her.
Her hands loosened a bit but again tightened her little hold, staring at him pathetically.

"p-please- Jung-jungk-"

" Fvck off! You-you!" his hands gripped the belt from the ground.
"you are too stubborn huh? Now it's time to see how stubborn your husband is!"

- some times later -

The hallroom filled with her painful grunts and his hurtful shouts.
Red marks all over her body. Yn hardly can open her eyes. yes- she was badly beaten by him.
sh-she's crying?

" It would be better if I would marry someone else instead of a Infertile Bitch like You!" and these words.
these stabbed yn's heart. she isn't!

she isn't!
she isn't infertile!

" WHAT TO DO HUH! I CAN'T CALM MYSELF DOWNNN!" Jungkook growled like a hungry wolf, watching her laying on the floor lifelessly.

she was all in pain.
those bruises made by him!
those marks made by him!
did he ever loved her?
did he ever cared about her?
did she deserved all these?

In these moments,
All she was worried about is-- the little life inside her womb.
he don't even know!
sh-she needs to tell him then-he'll stop all these.

"This-this useless $hit huh! why you even HAVE THIS!" " UH-AHHH-MMAH-" yn's painful screams spread around when his legs kicked her bruised thighs.

she hiccuped, trying to make herself a ball by crawling but all went in vain. His foot pressed against her soft thigh and her mouth wide opened releasing loud screams as she cried miserably.

how can he be this much cruel!
HOWWW!
with the girl, he loved.

her thoughts made her feel more pain but in heart.
Her heart felt heavy as she can't take it anymore, not anymore!
No please! No-please?

tears rolled down her cheeks but it didn't stopped, kept rolling down as if she has storaged her tears in the corner of her eyes.
how it felt?
Does it pain?
DOES IT?

hey! Does that pain?

The Jungkook who couldn't see her tears, now himself tearing her apart.
and how?
*chuckle*
In the most painful way she have never imagined.

"pl-pleas-" she hiccuped, letting her tears roll down.

Yn's body sagged under the weight of pain, every movement sending waves of agony rippling through her.

Bruises, like dark blossoms, marred her skin, a testament to the brutality she had endured.
Each breath was a struggle, as if her lungs were filled with shards of glass, tearing at her with every inhalation.

Jungkook looked away, clenching his teeths together as if he's a hungry lion!

" I Hate You, yn. LET ME CALM MYSELF DOWN!" as he finished his words, his foot suddenly kicked her stomach and- her breath lacked. She dropped her hands on the ground, trying to grip something.
Finding nothing, she clutched her nails on the flat ground, trying to hold something but nothing came in contact.

All the breath came up to her throat. Her eyes stared at the ceiling with wide opened eyes but-
when his leg again kicked her stomach, she screamed her lungs out, clenching her teeths together when the pain hit her core.
Her hands immediately gripped her belly while she tried to breathe.

and that's when Jungkook kicked her belly once again knowing it's of no use but- he was-wrong! So wrong!

She turned her face aside, wanting to breathe that's stucking inside her throat.

"ah-hhhhhh-" she no longer was able to scream or anything. He placed his foot over her belly, grinding it over her stomach leaving her with nothing but some-some broken breath and pain.

Tears flowed down like-like a river flowing.
Jungkook hardly kicked over her belly one last time, " i'm down!" he turned back and walked towards the stairs.

Yn's half breaths still lingered inside her throat.
M-maybe she couldn's protect it!

she don't deserve to be a mother.
she-she lost it!
maybe she-she-

It's her last chance!
one last time-
Tears brimmered into her eyes like a ocean tide, as she helplessly turned her face aside but-
he's too far!

too far from her shadow.
too far from her reach!
sh-she guessed something. She-she did!

"k-kookie~hh-ou-our bu-butter-fly-" she uttered those words, she couldn't say anything more as she broke into soft low hiccups.

Jungkook froze right on his spot. His brows crashed together feeling- something is wrong!
He immediately glanced back but his eyes enlarged witnessing bloods spreading out from under her dress.

He felt a sudden pang inside his heart.

those-bloods?
what are those?

- butterfly?

His breathing almost stopped when he saw her hands forwarding towards his direction, as if she's calling him.
sh-she-

Jungkook immediately ran back, his heartbeat thumping inside as he immediately pulled her in his arms making the bloods to cover his clothes red.

His heart fell down watching her back drenched with fresh red bloods. Her dress totally flooded with red liquids.
He pressed her face with his chest while her little palms gripped his hands tightly.

He turned her face towards him,

"yn? y-yn, baby l-look at m-" he stopped in middle acknowledging what he did!

He don't have the courage to even tell her 'look at me!'

He gulped hard watching her half closed eyes.
"YN? please don't close your eyes baby. I-i'm sorry! I'M VERY VERY SORRY! yn!"

He hurted her this much to bleed like this?
His brain stopped working watching more bloods coming out from the back of her.
'was-was she-'

He cupped her cheeks, he panicked watching so much bloods. but he panicked more when she started to struggle for breathe.

"yn!" he softly called her out, tapping her cheeks softly while she is gasping for oxygen.

Her chest rising up and down, her mouth wide opened wanting to inhale oxygen that she needed. but as seconds passed, her chest started to rise up as if she's dying- is she?

Physically, her body betrayed her, the sharp pains and the flow of bloods serving as cruel reminders of what had been lost.

Each cramp felt like a stab to her very core, a relentless assault on her already fractured spirit.

Her eyes enlarged as she is staring at him with her pleading eyes filled with tears, wanting to tell him something. As if- she's feeling so pain-so much!

Jungkook looked here and there, thinking nothing but her!

Only struggling for breathing sounds are audible in the silent Mansion. but Jungkook panicked more when yn acted weird, her eyes turned big and eyes flickered.

with her continues gasp for breath, all of a sudden she throwed up -nothing- but-

Bloods!

Bloods came out from her mouth. Jungkook yelled out as he watched her coughing bloods.
"YN! YN WHAT-WHAT HAPPENED YN! please breathe!" he yelled as she began to dig her nails on his hand, into his skin.

Her chest filled with the blood she just coughed out. Her eyes which felt like, it will pop out.
soft low whimpers are audible that he only can hear and his heartbeat.

This-this feeling!

He hold her face. Her face filled with red marks and the recent bloods,
w-what he had done!

Her eyes looked at him, still gasping for air as his eyes softened.
" baby I'm sorry.. your kookie is sorry, yn!" he uttered as tear gathered into his eyes watching his love in this condition.

*chuckle*
'love?'

Her nails sinked into his skin but she left his hand knowing she's hurting him.
Tears of pain escaped from her eyes only with silence, as if she's hurt from the core and-and never wanna show up in the world, Infront anyone!
she is unable to protect her only wealth, her baby, the growing fetus inside her womb.
which she left untold-

Her lips trembled, heart started to trembled too as her eyes met with his! His soft orbs which she missed for months.
She witnessed this soft Jungkook long ago-maybe last time?

Her eyes pleaded, but the sudden lack of air hitted her as the pain inside her belly increased.
Jungkook felt speechless, who lost his words.

Her chest raised up, clenching her teeths as her small fingers clutched the long sleeve of his shirt. soft whinings escaped from her mouth, trying to inhale the air she needed but- maybe she's unable to do anymore.

Pains of death -?

"Mmmhhhhh-" her whimpers stuck in between when she again raised her chest, looking at his eyes.
The hanging tear finally escaped from his eyes when a bit of blood rolled down from the corner of her lips, silently.

His eyes jerked at her eyes just to see her closing her lashes.
"yn!" he instantly pulled her head, pressing her head into the crook of his neck while he felt a little bit of breath.

He rubbed her back, "yn! Yn, kookie is here YN! please baby! Look At Me! Forgive Kookie for the last time!" he kept blabbering while her fingers slowly gripped his sleeve more tighter than before. Jungkook pulled her more closer as if she's the baby.

He placed her palm over his cheek as she stared at him with her half open eyes. He pecked her palms many times, wiping the tears away.

He pulled her more closer, more closer!
the closeness.

Her little arms rolled around his neck and her body pressed against his. He hugged her tightly while he felt a drop of warm tear wet his neck which belongs to none other than her.

with small attempts, she tried to grasp his neck, wanting to hug him knowing maybe it's the last time but it loosened when she hiccuped one last time-last time.

Jungkook's brain stopped working when he no longer felt any warm breath over his neck.
and
no heartbeat sound!

"yn?" he softly called her out.

His heart began to beat as if he lost.
"baby?"

silence.

Jungkook's heart turned heavier as he slowly detached her face from his neck and looked at her, hoping she might be looking at him-

His fist tightened and his heartbeat dropped down as if it's jammed.
It's not beating anymore.

his eyes stared at her closed eyes.
why it's not moving?
why her eyes not moving like before?

is she angry with him?
and-
playing with him?

Her adorable white face now shaded in a different color.
why no movements?

"y-ynn?" he breathed out shakily, calling her with his softest voice as if she's a doll.

His palm landed on her cheek softly before shaking her a little.
"b-baby wake up? I'm w-worried."

Her face still pale, dull and gloomy.
h-how she's looking..
why?

"YN! OPEN YOUR EYES BABYY! PLEASE! I'M-I'LL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN. I'M REALLY SORRY YN! PLEASE open your eyes."

He silenced feeling no response.

why he's sorry?
isn't he calm now?
isn't he supposed to be calm?

He hated her,
but for what?
Isn't this is what he wanted?

Jungkook left speechless when he didn't got any response.
her lips have bl•ods on it, dried tears in the corner of her eyes,
indicating-
How much pain she beared!
how much hurt she was!
was?

Thinking nothing else but maybe she lost her conscious, he instantly picked her up in his arm before heading outside the Mansion.
All his guards outside lowered their head, feeling pity on their little miss knowing what was going on inside.

The bloods dried on the floor,
that indicates misery!
Misery of two innocent life;

Jungkook instantly placed her on the seat beside him, holding her hands tightly, he started the engine.

- time skip -

Jungkook walking outside the operation theater, his eyes red, reddest, thinking nothing but her!
only her!
how he did this!

The door of the theater opened earning his desperate attention.
He ran to the doctor impatiently,
"D-doctor ho-how's she? Is she ok?" he asked continuously while the doctor opened the mask.

a bit of tension plastered on the doctors face.
"what happened? SPEAK UP FAST!" he howled greeting his teeths.

The doctor cleared his throat,
"sorry king.. we couldn't save the baby and the mother."

Jungkook stood there, the world around him seemed to fade into a blur as the words reached his ears.
His features contorted, a mixture of disbelief and anguish etched across his face. The sound of his heartbeat seemed to drown out everything else as he grappled with the weight of what he had just heard.

His eyes, usually bright and full of life, now clouded over with an indescribable sorrow. Every fiber of his being felt the impact of those heartbreaking words, as if they were physically weighing him down.

In that moment, time seemed to stand still, and Jungkook found himself lost in a whirlwind of emotions, struggling to come to terms with the harsh reality of the situation.

baby?

"she was two weeks pregnant. According to me, s-she had a heavy miscarriage and-and sh-she's no more."

The doctor said fearfully watching his expression that's getting darker.

Jungkook's world came crashing down around him as the weight of realization settled heavily upon his shoulders. Shock gave way to a numbing sense of horror as the truth sank in-he had unintentionally played a role in the loss of his own child.

The baby he was craving for-
He-he himself killed it?
HE HIMSELF KILLED HIS-HIS UNBORN CHILD!

A whirlwind of emotions consumed him-pain, regret, and self-loathing wove a tangled web around his consciousness, threatening to suffocate him with their intensity.
The knowledge that he had failed, not only as a partner but as a father, cut him to the core, leaving behind wounds that seemed impossible to heal.

but-
His teeths clenched together hardly and he immediately landed a punch on the doctors face.

Everyone around watched the scene, not having the guts to step further while Jungkook continuously punched on the doctor face.

"YOU BASTARD! what you said huh! FVCK OFF! FVCK OFF! YOU'RE LYING TO ME! HUH! MY YN IS STILL ALIVE! I'll see you later!" he calmed down leaving his collar before stomping inside the cabin, closing the door shut!

As he entered inside, his worried eyes landed on her little form.

His world shattered into a million irreparable pieces as he rushed towards her lifeless form lying motionless on the bed.
His breath caught in his throat, a strangled gasp escaping his lips as he recoiled in shock and disbelief watching her laying motionlessly.

with trembling hands, Jungkook gently cupped Yn's still marred face, his touch tender and reverent as if he's afraid to disturb the delicate peace that surrounded her.

" yn,"
He whispered, his voice barely more than a hoarse murmur, filled with a mixture of sorrow and longing.

Each breaths turned heavy in the air, a plead for her to awaken from the silent slumber that held her captive.

" baby? i'm here.."

no response...

Regrets consumed him whole-

In silence, yn's lifeless form rests upon the bed, still and cold, a portrait of eternal repose.
The faintest hint of pallor marred her skin, and shadows linger where vitality once dwelled.

"why are you not talking?" he whispered, touching her face gently.

"w-why didn't you told me t-that you are carrying our baby? our b-butterfly?" he asked to her silent form that have no life.

a sudden feeling that, she will never talk-
she will never wake up-
she'll never call him sweetly once again.

no no!
He don't believe..
he don't!
He don't need any happiness!
He don't want any child but her!

"Yn! don't leave me alone. I-i'm sorry, baby. p-please wake up. don't leave me alone!" he pleaded breathing in and out.

His eyes landed on her lips. He can still see the cut on her lips which he caused by biting.
he still remembers-

In no second, he pulled her closer to his chest before smashing his lips on hers.

Tears started to roll down from his eyes as he felt he lost her.
she don't move anymore!
She don't try to kiss him back anymore!

His lips softly kissed her still lips but instantly pulled out.

" you remember? you said you love my kisses, huh? you also said,... you-you are obsessed with my kisses! d-did you liked it?"

"now what happened? why aren't you responding, baby? are you angry with me? I'll do everything for your forgiveness but please?"

with tears streaming down his face, Jungkook embraced Yn's lifeless form, his heart heavy with remorse and regret.

" baby? "

He choked out, his voice trembling with emotion as he reached out to touch her cold hand. "I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for every mistake, every moment of pain I caused you."

He pleaded feeling the coldness of her body,
"YN!!! WHY THE FVCK YOU ARE LEAVING ME LIKE THIS! I LOVE YOU! I CAN'T LIVE without you.."

He dropped those tears pecking her hairs.
Some peoples desperately looked at the glass of the door from outside the cabin, watching how he's acting crazy.
no one dared to step inside, because they fear the king.

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TOLD ME!!! WHY!!"

"I KILLED MY BABY! I KILLED YOU! I KILLED MY LIFE! FVCK OFFF! FVCK MY LIFE! FVCKKK! I DESTROYED EVERYTHING! .... everything!" he calmed down, placing her still body on the bed and dropping himself beside her dead body.

Jungkook's chest tightened with an unbearable weight as the realization of his actions sank in, a suffocating cloak of regret enveloping him.

"why didn't you told me, love?" he whispered to himself, feeling helpless, regret that eating him from inside.

"i would never hurt you once again,"

He lost the charming little girl, he loved.

The memory of Yn's lifeless form haunted his every thought, a constant reminder of the irreversible harm he had caused,

" If only..."

The words caught in his throat, choked by the overwhelming flood of regret that threatened to consume him whole. If only he had been more careful, more vigilant---if only he had listened to her cries for help!

as he knelt beside Yn's lifeless form, he whispered a silent prayer for forgiveness-a prayer he feared would never be answered!

never!

He's regretting something he can never fix!
praying something that never will be granted!

"I'm cruel!! I killed my Love! I killed a-a little Life!"

"i myself k!lled my child for-for what I've been torturing you, you-my love! Today- I myself k!lled it!"

He whispered, locking his fingers with her little fingers as tears rolled down his eyes with regrets, agony and pain.

He lost his love, his unborn child!

Memories hitted hard when he remembered-

.....

It was almost 5-6 month ago -

Yn sitting Infront him on the bed, smiling at him adorably. They were playing a games.

"kookie?" she called out, playfully leaning closer to him, showing her little ratty teeths.
"you said, you want a baby?" she blinked her eyes. Jungkook nodded with a smile.

"Yes, I want.. a cute little baby who'll look like you." he spoke as he took her on his lap, pecking her neck from back, wrapping his arms around her tiny waist, pressing her back with his chest.

"what will we name our baby?" yn asked in her soft voice, looking aside at him as he's behind her.

"but we don't know if it will be baby boy or babygirl." he said, resting his chin on her shoulder.
"i like a name!" she charped, turning her head back and smiling at him.

" what name?" he asked. She released a big sigh and got up from his lap.
She again sat on his lap but this time, facing him.

"butterfly.." she passed a cute babyish smile, saying this.

Jungkook nodded his head in understanding manner, and pecked her mouth while she giggled.

" and--" he stopped his words while her eyes turned bigger, showing curiousness.

"and?" yn asked back in curiosity.

"i liked it too." he spoke, poking her little button nose as she giggled.
" but butterfly is a girly name. how do you know it'll be a babygirl?" he said as she shook her head.

"who said! Butterfly can be a boy and girl both, hmm!" she explained.

He pulled her in a warm hug,

"but kookie.. it's so early." she said softly, breaking the hug.
"no, it's not baby. we'll have a happy little family, right?"

Yn nod in a understanding manner.

"but how the baby will come?" she suddenly asked making him choke on his breath.

"it-it's nothing. you'll understand later." she again nod.

It was a time, she never knew her life would turn into something like that.

who knew unless god that, she'll loose her life because of this?

The person she loved, she cherished to live with broke her like no one did.

she lost her life for nothing.

For the baby he hurted her for months, then he himself killed.
Now what he deserve to do this?

If only he would listen her.
Only if-he would believe her!

The ending she had, it's heartbreaking.

now feel, how she felt!
how she felt being betrayed by her most loved one?
how she felt not being able to protect her unborn child!

how she felt not being able to tell him that she desired to tell.

how she felt leaving the words untold!
feeling unable.
Feeling to be a bad mother who can't protect her child.

a feeling that's ripping him apart knowing what he had done.
he have-have nothing.

Yn kept blabbering, sitting on his lap.
She was naive, charming who would snatch anyone's heart but-
maybe she lost in the game to earn her love.

the pain she beared, it's nothing less than a death. she felt death twice!

He killed two lively life for what he has been craving but--he lost the opportunity.

"I lobe you cho mucchy.."

Jungkook shook his head at her announcement. " I love you more."

Yn shook her head in denial, "you cannot love more than me. I love you the most that-that-" she paused finding some words to say.

"that even if someone comes to kill us, I'll tell them to kill me but not you, understand?" she asked as Jungkook made a amazed face.

"you love me this much?" he asked and she nods. "i can sacrifice my life for you too." he declared while she pouted.

"sow mean! I said I love you more, that's final!" she demanded, showing him her fake anger.

"no, I do."

Yn got more angry.

" noooo, I love you the most that you cannot even ... imagine, humph!"

watching her cute little pout, he poked her cheeks earning a cute glare from her.

"no, I said I love you more!" he spoke, trying to tease her.

"nyaaa!!!" she screamed out Infront his face getting angrier. Jungkook laughed at her silly act thinking-- he loves her the most!

Does he?

"ok, ok, you love the most." he submitted, as Yn nodded proudly knowing no one can love him like she does!

"yes but I love you the most." he again teased testing her patience.

"aniyoooooo~" she angrily screamed out, hitting his chest while he laughed out, pulling her near his face.

"Ok, I apologize little miss." he uttered, winking at her as she giggled.

"yesh, no more words. I love you the most." she spoke.

She slowly stared at his lips at which her eyes stuck on it. She bit her lips a bit and her eyes landed on his, who's already watching her expression with lust in his eyes.

"it's sow cute.." she said finding herself drooling over his delicate lips.

"really?... hmm but not more than you baby miss."
He spoke, tightening his arms around her body.

"mmhehe-" she nervously smiled as she witnessed the lusty expression of his face, knowing what he wants right now.

"i-i dunno h-how to-" she spoke, playing with her baby fingers, watching down.

" I'm here, nah." she nodded as he quickly attacked her lips in a swift motion.
Little she tried to match her speed with him as he broke the hug.

"if you want my kisses then say, I love you the most." he blackmailed making her eyes to wide.
"nuu! then I don't want your kisses anymore. I'm leaving." saying this, she began to got up from his lap but he pulled her again.

"ok, sorry.. baby, I want to love you."

"me too,"

"then let me ..." he bit his lips.

"ehe don't be so fast!" she whined cutely.

"ok, I'll be hard."

"aniyoo! such a meanie!" she charped.

"then gentle?"

"yes yes. lobe you kookie," she kissed his lips.

"i love you too."

"hehe~"

"pinky promise? you'll be soft?"

The sounds of their conversation where she's talking cutely, calling him sweetly and him teasing her, slowly slowly fade away and at a moment, it vanished.

but-
Those were past.
sweet pasts.

The heavy weight of regret consumed his soul, burdened by the mistake-
Deathly Mistake that never can be fixed.

Maybe it was a happy ending for her, wasn't it?

It was her destiny, her fate!

If she would be alive, he would love her for his self----- how selfish!

He didn't deserved her.

but his anger killed two innocent life.
one was unborn but another?
was that her fault?

*chuckle*

Only if-- he could wait few more hours!

The anger he had, shattered his world.

the little lover and the fetus.

she wasn't a little lover-
she was little in size but with big heart, that held infinitive love for her k!ller-

her husband...

God knows what's best,
that is why, she was destined to leave the world for a mistake- not a mistake--

It needed to reveal his real self.
but-she?
how she felt?

Betrayed?
Hurt?
Pain?

nothing can explain her hidden feelings.

it-hurts-

A story which highlights the loose of a-
'𝐍𝐚𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞' & '𝐀 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞'

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I don't know how many times I've cried while writing this-
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 :(

This series ends here.

I let you guys imagine his regrets, or he might leave the world.
but in the rest imagination, he got his karma.
Nothing can hurt like loosing our favourite persons. It's not like he didn't loved her. It's just he became blind with nothing.

words count : 𝟕𝟖𝟖𝟖 💫

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