+third POV+

 y/n sat on the couch with Milo in her lap when she got a Notification, Johnnie called her so she answered 

"sup John" - "John?- Never mind, your probably busy but... would you mind doing a video with me and Jake?" - "not at all Johnnie.." Y/n smiled at the thought of doing a video with them, it was the least she could do to forget the shit she was currently going through.., "Aight see ya I will text you a date n' time." 

Beep

Johnnie hung up with a sigh was he falling for y/n?

'her voice, her personality? its- never mind, I could never be with someone as amazing as she is let alone y/n herself, god maybe I am falling for her...'  he thought to himself. The only thing he could do was bottle up his emotions something he Knows something hes good at, masking the pain he was going through and appearing as some happy emo dude on the internet 

meanwhile y/n felt the same way, Tara seemed to notice from the interactions they have with each other y/n seemed to be talking about him more and more each day..

'do I really deserve someone like him? I'm a nobody and he's- he's perfect, there's nothing wrong with him it seems as if he- Never mind just leave it alone y/n' She thought as she was on the brink of a panic attack, she knew the feeling all to well, her mom was also visiting in a few months.

 it sucks because her dads the only person she really has, her dad is everything to her yet he's so far and distant she can never win and each time she gets better it all goes downhill, and she tries to do her best it started from the age of 9 its not any different then to now, hell she cant let Anyone go because shes afraid if she does she wont be remembered, the only thing she can do is make poems Fucking Poems because she wants to die and if she does shes gonna make someone else wanna die then they end it and then it all goes to shit from there, she cant talk about it either because if she puts her burdens on someone she feels bad.....

"fuck me, why did I survive? if I never met Tara I would've bled out and been gone from literal hell." y/n cursed under her breath, tears threatened to escape her eyes as she sat down against a wall in her bedroom

y/n hyperventilated her body now feeling numb, her vision went blurry she could slightly make out a small white figure entering the room as she heard a distorted bark it went black then she felt Nothing......

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+johnnies Pov+

i texted y/n with a worried look usually she responds within 10 minutes or so if she doesn't see the message, "hey dude you alright you look stressed" Jake asked sitting next to me                "fine, y/n hasn't responded in 30 minutes I'm just worried something happened" I replied looking up from my phone, "weird she usually responds right away, sure she hasn't blocked you?" he smiled in a thoughtful way, "yeah my messages delivered.." - "hey Johnnie?" Jake cut me off 

"yeah?" - "your not falling for her.. Are you?" I didn't know how to answer I just fell silent,             "i- I- I'm not sure how I feel, its just a mix of emotions at this point..." I replied as Tara just walked in the front door, "sup miss Johnnie Webber, how are you doing this fine evening?" - "shit what's wrong dude?" she stopped in her tracks to look at me "you look like you've seen a ghost"

Jake began to speak "I think hes falling for someone" - "thanks dude thats an amazing way to greet someone" I said as Taras jaw dropped a bit, she walk towards me "Johnnie... aren't we all?" - "what do you mean?" - "aren't we all falling for someone? we feel as if we cant have that person because they're perfect but in reality they aren't and they're just falling apart and we don't realize it..." Tara glanced at Jake for a moment and smiled softly

"I dont know dude" - "Do you wanna take a break at all-" - "No dude!! just let me be" I yelled and got up from the couch making my way upstairs to my room, "Johnnie wait" Tara yelled back "just let him be he's not gonna talk.." Jake said as I slammed the door

was I really falling for her?

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+third POV+

y/n slowly woke up, Milo kept trying to help her calm down but she felt as if she was drowning in her own emotions, she heard countless dings from her phone so she picked it up

Johnnie: tmr at 2:30 or more I'll text you when I'm for sure

seen 10 mins ago

Johnnie: Y/n?

seen 5 mins ago

Johnnie: sorry if I did smth wrong:(

seen 2 mins ago

Johnnie: Am I bothering you? I'm sorry I'm just worried..

seen typing .....

you didn't do anything Johnnie I just passed out sorry:You

Read less than 1 min ago

typing

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Johnnie: sorry for bombing you with texts.. 

its alright J cya tmr!:You

*message hearted ᴵᵗˢ ᵃˡʳⁱᵍʰᵗ ᴶ ᶜʸᵃ ᵗᵐʳ!*

y/n sighed and got clothes to take a shower at this point it was about 12:00 at night so she really needed sleep...

after she finished she put on a baggy shirt and some shorts and head to bed, Milo had already cuddled with the blankets so y/n decided to let her have them

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+Y/NS POV+

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*3 hours later*

i had woken up due to Milo constantly moving so I decided to bother someone

I called Johnnie to see if he would even answer if I texted him and a few minutes later he answered, "did I wake you up? sorry if I did I cant sleep" - "you did but that's alright, what happened?" he asked with a worried tone, I could tell he just woke up because his voice was raspier and more quiet than usual.

"Milo happened she keeps moving and its annoying" I said rubbing my temples as my eyes didn't adjust to the darkness yet, "ah, alright wanna come over here?" he suggested so I contemplated for a little, "sure why not?" I put Milo in her massive ass cage along with her favorite mini blanket in her little bed, i got somewhat dressed as I put on a cropped PTV shirt and black skinny jeans

I brushed through my hair  and kept it down like I usually did, I put my boots on and got an Uber to Jake and johnnies place..

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"is this y/n?" he asked and I said yeah and got in, "so y/n how are you doing?" he asked in a flirty tone I already felt uncomfy I don't like this, "good I guess" - "ya know I like emo chicks.." god fuck me. "cool" I smiled hoping I ended the conversation, "your number baby? we should get to know each other" he demanded "its no" I smiled as I blew him off as we got to my destination 

I unbuckled my seatbelt and hurried out the door, "what's the rush?"- "leave me the fuck alone dude I don't want you" I slammed the back door and walked up to the front door the house

"sup y/n, you look shaken up what's wrong?" he asked as I walked in "my Uber was being flirty and it made me uncomfortable so I blew him off" I sighed as we walked over to his room, "oh I hate Ubers like that" he smiled and sat on his bed 

"yeah" I agreed, and sat next to him, "hey y/n?" he said out of the blue, "mhm?" I hummed as he continued his sentence, "I- I really like you ya know?" he said as I started into his pretty ocean blue eyes while he stared into my boring grey ones, "I like you to Johnnie." I smiled, "really?" he asked our noses just barely touching

"of course Johnnie!" - "would you like to be mine?" he asked genuinely, "obviously" I hugged him and he hugged back "that was really corny" I said into his shoulder, "I know" he said back 

I yawned, "I'm pretty tired now" I whispered, "same" he took Layed down and I took my boots off and did the same, "I love you y/n" he whispered and grabbed my waist and held me close to his body, "I love you to." I whispered back and fell asleep..

A/N

this is so cutesy:)