I was making something for Val. He demanded it. I've never made something with this much toxic energetic chemical. Drugs? Am I making drugs? I didn't know. Val described it as a growth fertilizer. I had no idea what he meant by that. I don't trust him. I rub my hands over my arms. He dug a little too deep. I can still hear his voice. It sounds like a snake.

"Don't disappoint me baby." His hissing echoes in my ear. 

I continue mixing the herb with the acids. It smelled funny. Rudiger looked at me. 

"What? I have to do this." I say.

I know he wants me to do this, and I know it would be best to agree with him. There's something dark and sinister about him. His look turns menacing in an instant. His eyes can pierce into your heart and his hands can squeeze it until it oozes. 

"I have to be careful around him Rudiger." I say.