After years of school i finally got where i wanted to be.

Not many people would want to do this job. Honestly the work as psychiatrist is fascinating.
Today i am getting my first patient.

My coworkers told me that he can't speak.
By what i heard, he was abused by his family, until a big accident occurred when he was five. Since than he just doesn't speak. I made it my duty to help him.

Even with my confidence and slight enthusiasm my hands were shaking as i walked the long hallway. Some patients were watching through the small window on their doors. I would be lying if i said it didn't creep me out.

Finally i stepped in front of the door with number '106'.
I gently knocked on the door to let my patient know i'm coming in.
,,Hello,"i said as i walked inside. He was sitting on a bed, as he waved back and smiled.

,,Shimura Tenko, age 21...You're here for quite some time, aren't you, buddy?" He simply nodded again.
It was so quiet, yet his presence made me feel a little less nervous.
The big red orbs didn't stare at me with complete insanity and judgement. Instead he was calm, on his face was a small smile. I could tell he was a little nervous too though, his hands slightly shook. Tenko had white, bluish hair. I was told he has Marie Antoinette syndrome. His skin was pale and dry, they didn't really took care of their patients. Noted, i will change it.
I walked over to him, giving him a notepad and a pen.
,,Since you have problem with talking, this is how we're going to communicate, is that okay?"

,,Yes" Was written on the paper.

This took on for days. I came in we 'talked' a little bit, i left. Our small chats were usually about his nightmares, all his clinically found mental illnesses or disorders. Yet i never found out why he didn't talk. He never wrote why did he give up on trying or why did he not want to get better. That was another interesting thing i learned about him. He didn't wanted to be 'cured', nor he wanted to get help from anyone. It was the first thing he told me and it was really surprising.
This time i wanted to make something more from our conversation.

I unlocked the thick door and stepped in. Tenko was laying on his bed, his eyes were open, scanning the room.
,,Shimura-san...Today i have few important questions to ask you..."I said as he sat up. He tilted his head in confusion.
,,I'm sorry if i'm asking about a touchy subject, but i really want to help you...Not only to make you talk, but to rid you of your night terrors."
He sighed, but nodded. Which actually made me happy.
,,Let's get this over with, shall we?"i smiled at him warmly.

,,I need to know why you stopped talking..."
Tenko looked at me, his eyes wide. Probably didn't expect me to be so blunt with it.

It took him few seconds, but eventually he took the notepad and started writing the cursed words onto it.
He kept looking at it. Just silently reading over the lines, fighting with himself whether to let me see it or not. Or at least that's how i saw it.
Tenko handed me the notebook, looking at the wall in front of him.

,,I always wanted to be a police man...or something similar to that. My dad wasn't the most supportive one of this. Probably because his mom died during the cop work. One day my sister and i found a picture about my grandma, dad found out...He wasn't happy. I received a beating and was left outside the house without food. It was only me and my dog.
That night a fire occurred in our house. Everyone burned to death...Well, everyone except me. I could only watch through the window as my family slowly disappeared in the fire. I remember my father telling me that i was annoying and that i always talk bullshit. It was like that almost every day, until that happened. So i stopped. That day when everything turned to ashes, i stopped talking, i gave up on everything...And now we're here. You are the first one that didn't just forced my mouth open. I remember crying every night because of the mean doctors. I don't feel pressured and i actually want to get better now, i thank you for that. I really like you :)"

I heard little sniffles beside me. Putting the note down, i hugged the bluenette gently, letting him know it's okay, to let everything out.
,,Just breathe...It's fine, i have you. You're okay, you're going to be okay!"i tried to reassure him.

After i managed to calm him down we continued with our usual chat. He was such a sweet guy. I don't get why world decided to be so cruel to him.

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The therapy has been going for another week. Nothing really changed. Tenko still wasn't talking. Though i cannot say i expected much. Everything takes its time, and i believe his time will come soon enough.

,,Can i ask you a little favor, Dabi-san?"
I read over the line. Nodding, a small blush spread onto Tenko's face as he wrote his 'request'.
Suddenly he stopped and his eyes shifted to me. He spread his arms and i gladly gave him the affection.
It was these small moments that made my heart flutter. Since last week's encounter Shimura would ask me for some sort of attention, which i of course gave.

The bad thing about all this is, that i'm starting catching feelings. He is my patient and i should treat him with good treatment. I'm not afraid he would do something bad to me...i'm not scared for myself, i'm scared for him. What if i break his heart and end up hurting him more than he already is?
It's cursed...And i'm paranoid. I don't even know if he feels like that towards me. Is it this place or just him that is getting to me?

The day ended and i left. The request Tenko had was never showed to me, as he just crumpled the paper and threw it away.

Four days passed and it was friday, which meant my night shift.
I tiredly opened the front gate of the mental hospital.
,,You're taking block C...I have A and Chisaki is already in block B checking on patients,"Keigo said walking towards the hallway with big letter A above it.
,,As always..."i muttered, getting to stairway. Every block was on different floor and i happened to be on third.
I stopped at one room. 99, Jin Bubaigawara. The guy was my friend before his DID went out of control.

[A/N - DID disorder - split personality. It's like if there's two or more people in one body. Person with DID usually isn't aware of what his other personality does = the personalities don't share memories -sorry i can't explain it better]

I continued walking, sighing to myself. Jin wasn't a bad guy, even though he was dangerous. His second personality was threat to society, that's why they locked him here i guess.
Only audible thing were my shoes click clacking against the tiles.

Until another noise struck. 106...Shimura's room?
I slowly opened the door.
,,Tenko-san, what are you doing up at this hour?" He was pacing back and forth, the notebook in his hand scribbling words onto it before handing it over.
,,Remember the reque-? Yes, i do, is something wrong? Do you need something?"i quickly asked. The piece of paper was again in his hands. The pen nearly broke as he wrote in incredible speed.
The thing written caught me a little off guard...A little lot off guard.

,,Sleep with me"

I looked over at him. ,,Do you mean like...cuddles or?"
So awkward. My face was completely red, while he still remained calm.
He pushed me roughly against the wall and started kissing me.
I pushed him away quickly, but gently, so i wouldn't hurt him. Tenko looked away apologetically. ,,Look...Tenko...I do like you, maybe even more than a friend, which i shouldn't. I'm a doctor, you're my patient...It's...It's wrong,"i thought for a second. ,,Just one night, i love you" Small heart was next to the text. I sighed and put the notepad away.
,,Could you at least try to say it?" I couldn't just believe him. It hurt my feelings when he again just silently looked away. ,,Thought so..." I sighed.
I couldn't be mad at him. He was sick. I can't expect him to just miraculously say he loves me. Than again...How much love did this man even receive through his whole life?
...This is against every work morality i have...

,,One night? Want to have me for one night, right? Sure, but than i have to exchange patients. I will no longer be able to help you..." I walked over to him, pushing him gently onto the bed. This is what he wants, right? Or is it that i want it too...?

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I had my forehead nested in the crook of his neck, as we both panted. A quiet snort escaped my mouth. ,,I couldn't get a single word out of you..." I lifted myself kissing him gently. In matter of few minutes i was off of him and my clothes were back on. I was still hard, didn't really have chance to come. I wanted to make him feel good and leave.
,,You should go to sleep...Tomorrow a new doctor will come and you have to get enough sleep. It's hard...getting to know new people..." I whispered, not looking his way, i opened the door, prepared to never see this cute boy again.
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A hand on my wrist stopped me. I looked back to see the little bluenette's eyes watery. His hand holding me tightly.

,,I love you, please don't leave me!"
A quiet but raspy voice echoed through the room, making my eyes widen and my breath hitch in throat. It was barely just a whisper but...
,,Did you just...?" He spoke, right? I'm not imagining this?
,,No one was ever so gentle with me...No one has ever been so nice to me..."
Tenko hugged me tightly, refusing to let go. ,,Take me away from here...please!"

•••

It took some time but everything got settled on monday.
Tenko wasn't pronounced as cured, but they let him leave the hospital. I took him in and now we live together. He still has to attend therapy, but like i already said, it is my duty to help him.
Except for him i got Jin into my treatment. His two selves keeps arguing, it's a lot harder to deal with him than what i had to deal with Tenko.
And even though i made him speak again, he's still really quiet. I definitely do not mind it. It just makes me adore the moments when i can hear his voice more...

...Everything will be okay...